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Overmatched - Pt. 01
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The holiday party, slash awards banquet, slash higher-ups backslapping bunch of bullshit was in full swing. For me, this year's event was just as boring as all the others I'd attended. The big difference was twofold: first, my two friends from IT didn't attend this year, so I had no one to get drunk and BS with. Second, that meant I had to watch my wife, Katie, schmoozing and dancing with the big wigs. It seemed she was up for a big award this year, based on the table we'd been placed at. I didn't like what I saw.
Me, I'm Andrew Weston. I go by Andy to my friends, family, and my wife. Don't let the lofty name fool you. I'm not rich. My lineage can be traced to the British Lt. General, Aylmer Hunter-Weston, who served in World War I. Later, he was involved in the union worker trade in Scotland.
Worldview, Inc. was the company I worked for and the party I was attending. We'd become acquainted under nefarious circumstances. You see, I'd used my advanced hacking skills to find a backdoor through their firewall and then emailed their head of Information Technology, asking for a meeting. A meeting, not an interview.
That's how I got the job, nonetheless. The VP was so impressed when I showed them the few simple lacking lines of code that he offered me a job there and then. I accepted and was in my fourth year.
Worldview was a major international conglomerate. They had tendrils into almost everything. Major land development was their big market. Tech, food, and weapons systems were among the many other arenas in which they dabbled. They had offices in fifty-nine countries. I worked here, in Spokane, at our US-based headquarters. We had offices in Portland and Seattle as well as a few dozen between the Rockies and the Pacific Ocean all the way south to Mexico City.
I hated the higher-ups. They treated me like a servant. Sure, I could get away with snide and demeaning remarks while working on mid-level managers' workstations. They weren't allowed to counter with inappropriate behavior, per our HR guidelines, and I knew just how to skirt the line of inappropriate.
Speaking of inappropriate, my largest problem that evening was Jack Powers. He was the Executive Vice President for Pacific North American sales and operations. A bloated title fitting the bloated man perfectly.
He was monopolizing Katie's time and I didn't like the way he looked at her. I didn't much care for the way he danced with her either. I was on my way to intervene when the house lights flickered and all the employees were asked to take their seats. The music stopped and Katie and Jack arrived at our table about the same time I did. Katie introduced Jack as if I didn't work at the same company. I looked at both of them like they were nuts, as Jack extended his hand.
"It's good to see you could make it, Andrew," he said with that infamous fake smile. "I'd heard there was a bad bug going around in your department." He let go of my hand and turned slightly to take Katie's. "I'm so happy that you are here to share in your wife's success tonight. We have a big announcement."
I didn't like that either. Katie hadn't said a word about any announcement and at least she wore a surprised expression. I seated Katie with a wan smile and took my seat next to her. Jack sat on her right. He was a single executive, one of the few at our corporation.
At our table sat the who's who of our branch. Pierce Botswani was our CFO, his name a result of his mixed British-Indian heritage. He rarely said a word to me so I assumed he didn't like me. In my book, that made the feeling mutual.
Claire Eastmond was surely another award winner. She sat stoically in her seat, a sickening smile on her face as if she was all-knowing. Her smaller-than-life husband sat at her side, wiping his eyeglasses with the tablecloth.
Claire had closed three incredible deals during the year, negotiating the sale of two large ranches in Montana and one in Wyoming. One was sold to Bill Gates and the other two to a large Chinese multinational. The combined sales were in the ten-billion range. It was rumored that people in both states, associated with their respective livestock commissions, had put a price on her head.
Then, of course, there was Mortimer Biggs, CEO of Worldview, Inc. He was a tall man, larger than life as you might imagine. I pegged him to be in his early seventies but it was hard to say with his good looks, health, and larger-than-life presence. Bigg's wife, Elenor, sat proudly at his side, saying little even when spoken to. I received a couple of strange looks from her during our meal that bothered me, even though I put them out of my mind.
As the dessert plates were being bussed away, Jack left our table and headed up to the stage. I noticed Katie's hand seemed to fall away as he stood and left the table. Had she been holding his hand? That didn't make any sense to me so I tried to brush it aside. What I did do was lean forward trying to read her face as she watched him walk away.
Jack announced that the awards ceremony would begin in half an hour and that everyone should enjoy the open bar - not too much - was his flat attempt at humor. The band struck up some lively dinner music and I reached for Katie's other hand.
"Shall we?" I smiled and nodded toward the dance floor. She returned my smile with a genuine one of her own and stood with me as I led her over to dance with a few other couples. We'd taken ballroom dancing classes - twice - and while not experts, we could hold our own.
"What's with the award, Katie?" I had to ask. "You never mentioned anything."
Katie looked a little unsettled at my question. She seemed to consider her words carefully.
"I wasn't sure," she said in a little voice. "I knew I was in the running but... well, I guess Jack figured with me sitting at the chief officers' table the cat was out of the bag."
"What kind of award is it?" I followed. That brought about a bit of rapid eye movement before Katie regained her poise.
"I guess for the McMillan deal," she replied vaguely.
"But you're his personal assistant, not sales," I said matter-of-factly. "Not sales."
She had no answer forthcoming. Concern turned to sheer worry then. I felt a light tap on my left shoulder and turned to see Jack smiling a bit sheepishly.
"No fair hogging all of our Katie's time, Andrew." He said it so possessively that I almost lost my temper right there.
"May I have one more dance before the awards program begins?" At least he asked. He wasn't doing anything publicly out of bounds. No smirk on his face. No cheesy lines. Something hadn't seemed right since we'd arrived but he was being a perfect gentleman, which made me hesitate. I certainly didn't want to embarrass my wife and I worked there, too.
Instead, I gave Katie a long look, to which she gave a wan smile and looked coyly at the floor. She had to have known what I was thinking.
"Uh, okay," I said to Jack, unsure. "I'll be monopolizing her time though after the awards are announced."
I realized how stupid I sounded as I walked off in the direction of our table. Eleanor was watching me again with a look that said... what? I decided to avert my direction and head to the bar.
Jack and Katie took up dancing in earnest again. The twelve-piece band played a spicy number, finding Powers twirling and dipping Katie. After the song ended, he whispered something to her and she followed him to the stage area without even looking my way.
I knew there was a problem. Katie stood off to the side of the stage by the stairs leading up there. Two other women who may have been personal assistants or perhaps admins for execs in our locations in Portland and Seattle stood with her. I didn't know them.
Claire did indeed win 'salesperson of the year.' She received a hefty check to a roaring applause and said a few words, thanking some people who helped her, probably to write up and do the paperwork on the land deals. Other salespeople up and down the Pacific Coast won lesser awards.
Finally, Katie and two of the women near her were called up on stage. The first, an administrative assistant from Seattle, was awarded a promotion to Personal Assistant to the site director. She beamed with pride. The other, from Portland, was also promoted. Her assignee, some guy named Alan Butler, was the VP of Sales and Marketing there. I didn't think the kiss on her lips, by Butler, when she finished making a little speech was appropriate but, looking around, I didn't see anyone else with a scorned look.
Jack Powers stepped back to the microphone. "Ladies and Gentlemen," he cleared his throat. "For our final award this evening..." he paused reaching for my wife's hand to help her up the few stairs. "It is my pleasure and honor to announce the promotion of Katie Holmes-Weston to Executive Personal Assistant of US headquarters, here in Spokane." He stopped to allow for the applause.
"Katie has been invaluable in helping our corporation with the merger between Worldview and Ian McMillin Limited, which will nearly double the size of our operations in Europe and eventually the entire globe. Katie not only kept this multi-faceted merger on track but found several small errors along the way that could have torpedoed the merger or, at least, set it back several months. I am honored to acknowledge Katie's attention to detail and perseverance. Katie will assume her new role, reporting directly to me, starting next week, as soon as we both return from the final document signing with McMillin executives this weekend in Belize.
I couldn't have heard that correctly, I remember thinking. I sat in shock. But as my wife came up to the mic to say a few lovely words about her boss, I watched as Jack stood at her side, his arm around her waist! He kept it there as they both turned to exit stage right.
I was immediately out of my seat. But so was everyone else in the room, just for a different reason. As I started for the stage, I felt a large hand firmly on my shoulder. I went to brush it off, laser-focused on my wife and Powers, but the strong grip tightened. I turned quickly to stare into the face of Mortimer Biggs.
"May I have a word with you, my boy?" He jovially asked.
"I uh..., I need to see..." I stammered, knowing what I'd just seen between my wife and Powers, but mostly surprised that Biggs himself had not. He cut me off.
Biggs saw the hesitation and conflict. He put his arm around my shoulder. "We have something quite important to discuss," he sure made it sound that way. "Let's allow Katie to enjoy her moment in the spotlight for now while you and I find some privacy."
Mortimer led me with his arm toward the ballroom exit. I turned to look over my shoulder at my wife. Powers was now standing a few feet away as some of Katie's co-workers chatted and were likely congratulating her.
Biggs removed his arm as we walked down the hallway and then he turned left into a private room. The large oval table told me it was a conference room. As I entered behind him, I immediately noticed two Worldview security guards standing on either side of the door. A chill ran down my spine.
"Have a seat, young man," Mortimer's tone remained authoritative yet friendly. He saw me glance left, then right. "Pay them no mind." Easy for him to say.
"Mr. Weston," he got right to it. "You're quite the intelligent fellow. I'm reminded of how you came to be employed with us." He gave a slight chuckle. "I'm sure by now, your head is swimming with all kinds of thoughts and questions, am I right?"
The change in his expression told me I'd been ambushed. Whatever important something he had to say, I wasn't going to like at all. I did have more than a few questions regarding what I'd seen, but also what I'd just heard about this weekend in... where was it, Belize?
In the milliseconds I had to cultivate a response, I decided to play it cool. Losing it would make things worse for me and maybe my wife from the looks of the two goons. Let him do the talking, I thought just before I nodded at him.
Mortimer's smile turned to a full-fledged sneer. He'd been in this position before, if I had to guess.
"Well, then," he said, walking around to the far end of the table. "Let me help you with some of them. Yes, you heard correctly. Your lovely wife will be flying to Belize tonight and returning Monday evening. It will be just her and Mr. Powers. Of course, they do have some things to button up on the McMillin deal... I'd say probably about an hour or two worth of work. How do you feel about that Andrew?"
"I'm fine with it," I said keeping my emotions in check. "If that's all, and Katie and I can spend the weekend reconnecting, I'm more than fine." I had a bad feeling I knew what was coming next.
"Oh," Biggs laughed at me, not with me or anything else. "You disappoint me. Andrew, you aren't going to Belize. It's just Jack and Katie." He was enjoying the game, and I no longer felt compelled to play it cool.
"Like hell, she is," I didn't scream. I stated it as stoically as possible. "Or it might be the shortest-lived promotion in Worldview history."
The sneer turned to a pitiful smile. The pity was directed at me with everything he had in him. Without the security men, his face would have already been obliterated. He sat on the edge of the table, looking sideways at me.
"Young man," he changed directions, "do you know how we operate at the ten-thousand-foot level? We buy and trade land. Pay land developers on the front and the back end. We put up fifteen thousand square foot processing facilities, usually within a mile or so of that land. We do it all over the globe. We grow the raw material for our plant-based foods and then we process them nearby. Then, our world-class marketers make sure we change people's eating habits. Thinking habits, too. We're fully integrated, wouldn't you say?"
"Yeah, I'm quite familiar," I tried a smirk of my own just to see how he'd respond. "I'm not sure what that has to do with my wife or Belize."
"Oh, we're getting there, my boy," his demeanor changed again--the executive straight face. "I'm sure you're aware as a member of our IT department but we also own and move people. Take the Spokane office, for example. We've owned the city leaders there for eight years. When we need permits rushed through or we have an issue with the Native Americans, we have people for that.
"Now, forty minutes east, those fucking redneck cowboy conservatives in North Idaho, well, they've been a thorn for many years. This past year, we moved some of our best people to the largest cities there. They've been elected to city and county office at great expense to Worldview, I might add. It's the same story across the western US. The merger with McMillin isn't only going to increase our portfolio by another one point four million acres, it will provide us with some much-needed muscle when these ranchers and Indians try to sabotage our efforts... mercenary muscle."
"Is there a point Mortimer?" I spat indignantly.
"Of course," he said. "Indulge me. We move people from South and Central America., from Africa and the Middle East. Good cheap labor. Billions in profit. More resorts and playgrounds for the fortunate like me, all across the wild frontier. That's our future. We own the majority vote in Congress. Sometimes, we even own the White House. That's Worldview, my boy."
I didn't understand his direction. "So, you're telling me all this why? Are you offering me a job? Some warped promotion to get me into the fold so I'll look the other way while Powers is screwing my wife?"
Biggs laughed again. He'd had some amount of practice with this speech. "Heaven's no! "Mr. Weston, by the time your wife returns you'll be unemployed. That will happen Monday morning."
I just looked at him, stupidly. "We may buy important people but not people like you, Mr. Weston. Let me explain it in terms you can understand.
"Katie will work for and accompany Mr. Powers for a period of two or so years. She's getting a thirty-eight percent pay increase. After that period, she will be released from Power's employ and given another raise and promotion, which should get her close to two hundred grand per year. Then, the two of you will be able to start that family you've been planning. The best part is she will continue to make nearly a quarter million with bonuses until your youngest enters the third grade. She'll need to work remotely for ten or so hours per week. Your family will be set up very nicely.
"Of course, you'll have to comply with your wife sexually gratifying Jack Powers during that time. She's perfect for the job and we reward perfection. In a way, our research on you tells us that you're the kind of man who can play along, who's able to see the big picture. Mr. Weston, you don't want to prove our research wrong."
"Is that a threat, you fat prick?" I couldn't hold back. I came straight out of my chair and Mortimer didn't flinch. He just looked over my shoulder. Remembering who he was looking at made me hesitate just a moment too long. I quickly found myself in a neck-crunching headlock. I was carried like that right back to my seat and dropped hard.
"There you go, my boy!" Biggs said excitedly. "Show some bravado and aggression. Fight for your woman!"
He came around the table to get closer. "Right now, your personnel file shows a very different man from yesterday. You've been an HR nightmare, mostly to do with your jealousy surrounding your wife's success. You've been acting like she's sleeping her way to the top, making baseless accusations. There's a full psychological work-up in there, from the licensed psychologist we sent you to, on our dime. You are bipolar with psychotic and possessive tendencies. Because the entirety of management knows of your... troubles, we were on our guard about Katie's promotion tonight. That's why I pulled you away. That's why we're here now. You've officially become a risk too high to keep employed."
He leaned closer as the men held me. "Listen to me, you little shit. The people I associate with own some country's entire governments. I spend vacations with my wife, sipping tea with some of the world's most influential people. I made Mitt Romney a two handicap on the golf course. I could end your ass, here and now, and not one other human would ever care that you even existed - orphan."
"And Katie," I asked pathetically, but had to know. "She knows and is on board with this?"
"Of course, she's on board, you idiot!" If Morti was acting, he was certainly well-practiced at it. "She's doing the heavy lifting while you'll be sitting at home, writing code for video games, or watching porn, waiting for her return. They won't be fucking twenty-four-seven, in sex marathons, like your tiny brain will be imagining. We have far more important things to do. They'll spend most of their time making me and the board more money.
"You have my word she won't be harmed," he switched directions. "She'll return home Monday evening like a normal workday. Further, you needn't worry about disease, pregnancy, or any of those unsavory issues. She'll be treated with respect, just as you will."
"Respect," I said indifferently. "Doesn't seem like you understand the word."
"On the contrary," he replied. "We understand completely. You'll be expected to carry on with Katie as before. Love, cherish, trust, endearment, and of course, respect."
He got up and headed back to where he'd been earlier. "And don't you question for one minute that woman's love for you! I've had at least two hundred other women in her position. Katie was one of the hardest sells ever." He seemed upset about that.
"She threatened, cajoled, and even tried to bargain with us. With ME! Usually, Jack can handle things on his own. I'm beyond impressed with that young lady. If I wanted it, I'd take her from you and mold her into one of us but that isn't what she wants. For some reason, she wants a mundane, boring life with a 'nobody' like you.
"So, you're going to play along," he spat, turning toward me. "There's no one for you to turn to. Nowhere for you to go. If you pass wind during these next two years, I'll know about it. If you treat her like shit - let your fragile ego get in the way - it won't bode well for you either. I need her at her best. You can play along and start a life you've always wanted in two years or you can simply die. The choice is yours."
"When did you concoct this plan?" I had to know that, too. "When did you start colluding with her to become the company whore?" Mortimer looked up over me again. I felt a hard slap on the left side of my head that sent me to the floor.
"That's a very bad start, Weston," he warned. "Don't you ever disparage Jack's assistant. Ever."
The other guy lifted me like a rag doll and sat me back up in the chair. "Mr. Weston, we're finished here and I need to get back to the festivities. Monday morning, you'll report to HR for your termination interview and displacement of your funds and benefits. Do not fuck this up or it will be the last thing you ever do."
The same guy lifted my head and stepped back. I felt a sharp pain in my left shoulder and as I was losing consciousness, I noticed the two leads and wires attached to whatever was burning my shoulder.
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I woke up with a splitting headache. Even sitting up was excruciating so I gently put my head back down on the pillow and rubbed my temples.
The second thing I noticed was that I was in my own bed. In our bed - probably her bed - after this weekend. I couldn't see sleeping with her again after her time with Jack Powers, despite the threats.
Trying to get my bearings, I wondered, 'What the fuck had happened?' The events of the prior evening were so surreal I had a tough time believing they'd happened at all. Instead, my thoughts went to Katie, trying to get myself grounded. My wife wasn't in bed with me nor did I hear any noises within our home. That meant I wasn't dreaming. I couldn't remember how or when I went to bed.
That forced me to my feet. I was rubbing my left shoulder as I made my way to first the guest room, then downstairs. In the living room - no Katie - nor in the kitchen. I opened the kitchen door to the garage. Both of our cars were there. She wasn't home. It wasn't a dream.
Putting on some coffee, I popped three Advil, chasing it with a full glass of water. I realized my bladder was begging for release. I skipped the downstairs bathroom and headed for mine in the master.
That's where I found the dagger. A note in Katie's handwriting was taped to the mirror.
Good Morning, Baby,
I'm sorry you got sick at the party last night. I gave you three Advil before putting you to bed to help with your morning headache. I'm also sorry I had to leave so early for the merger conference. Because it's in Belize, I'll have my phone off. Please don't call me. I'll do my best to call you from the hotel. I know you always worry about me and that's sweet. Don't worry, my love. Everything will be fine and I'll see you Monday night. Get some rest and feel better.
I love you, Mr. Weston
Katie
That was it. I'm not proud that I slid down the wall to the floor and wept in the fetal position. My head hurt worse afterward but it was cathartic. My liver would probably fail by nightfall with all the Ibruprofen. I needed some food, pronto. The hot water of the shower helped settle my inner turmoil.
I sat at the table eating four eggs, sunny side up, half a dozen sausage links, and an English muffin, rereading her note looking for something that wasn't there. I knew there was no conference. Was it her way of letting me know where she was? Perhaps, Mortimer had lied. Maybe Katie had been tricked or worse, taken and held against her will.
Denial had kicked in - full force. The other side was, she could be in on it. Why then all the pomp and circumstance from Biggs? If he was that powerful, he could crush me without telescoping everything. I'd have to think more about that.
It also dawned on me that at least for now, I'd need to approach the situation as if it were a tech issue on my job. Work the problem backward, prove things, one at a time, which allowed me to eliminate others.
First, were there any obvious tells with Katie that I'd missed? I started making notes as I gobbled the food and poured a larger mug of coffee.
Katie and I met after college. I'd just graduated from Gonzaga with a computer science and engineering degree. My dual field of study was software architecture. Katie had a marketing degree and was self-taught in graphics arts. Beyond that, her organizational skills were off the charts.
One of the first things that Katie and I discovered we had in common was that we were both orphans.
That wasn't quite accurate, at least not in the way most people think of an orphan. Her drunken father had flown the coop when Katie was seven. From what she could remember, her mother tried her hardest at first. The way Katie described it, the family didn't have much to begin with. Eventually, Mom turned to drugs and alcohol. Things went downhill from there. Her mother committed suicide three days before Katie's tenth birthday.
Katie had it a lot tougher than me, whether in group homes or with foster parents. In comparison, my last foster parents treated me as one of their own from the time I arrived at age fourteen until I came of age. They actually offered to let me stay through graduation and for the summer since my birthday was in April. Being an older couple, they'd fostered for nearly twenty years and they had determined I'd be their last. They retired to Florida when I started college and they moved to Germany a year later.
Katie was already working at Worldview when we met.
Looking back, I had struggled to find a soulmate aspect other than our shared childhood experiences. We both liked metal music and football. I, of course, was a Seahawks fan, but Katie had some affinity for the Pittsburgh Steelers. When I asked her, she said it was their uniform colors.
The rest of our shared likes centered around our future. Having been in the 'system,' Katie and I had talked and planned at length about starting and maintaining our family. Two kids, or three if the first two were of the same sex. We had long detailed conversations about schools, discipline, and how to guide their morals.
We talked about it all the time, even on long hikes and camping trips. We discussed our domestic situation and where we were headed versus where we wanted to eventually be. How much we wanted and needed to make, how to maximize our earnings and sound investments, when we would hire a financial consultant to guide us.
I'm sure most of it was our strong desire to break the cycle. Of course, those conversations often led to serious talks about marriage and fidelity, especially, faithfulness, trust, and respect.
It dawned on me that if Biggs and his cronies did any decent amount of digging at all, Katie and I would probably check most, if not all, of their boxes. We'd be like a gift to exploit. That is, except for the fidelity aspect, which I supposed was either their carrot or stick.
I felt the urge to call my foster Dad in Germany and get some advice. I tamped that down for two reasons. First, I didn't know exactly what I was dealing with and didn't want to drag them into anything that could cause them any trouble. Secondly, I had the urge to prove that I could take care of myself.
For all I knew, Biggs, Powers, and my wife could be watching me eat breakfast on some sort of live feed and laughing at me. Paranoia was beginning to set in.
By lunchtime, some of the fog had cleared and I decided that two things needed my attention before I could make choices about my next steps. The first thing, without getting ahead of myself, was to find out if Katie was a willing participant. Replaying all our conversations over the past three-and-a-half years, I could see her possibly being enticed by the money, the power, and the promise of a high life.
If she'd been offered what Biggs alluded to, I could see my wife putting up a gallant, albeit half-hearted fight. It would certainly play on her fears of failure. I knew she worried about the possibility of becoming her bio-parents, as I sometimes worried about myself. The difference for me had been those late teen years when my self-esteem and self-worth had been built up. I even remembered how inwardly jealous she was about my parents being at the wedding. I found that odd since they helped pay for it.
Beyond that, I decided to learn everything I could about Worldview, Inc. and those rich pricks. While it would be slightly more difficult without my job, I still had the same skills I'd used to hack their system and get that job in the first place. In many ways, a computer at the public library could garner me as much information as any other system. I'd probably need a new tablet for sending information. I'd also need to ensure I had a rotating IP address.
It hit me. I had my co-worker, Victor Davis' tablet in my backpack. He'd gotten a little sideways watching porn on his work unit and had offered me some side money to wipe it clean. That would prove useful, especially if I needed to embed a phish or spyware into Worldview's system. It would also provide an easy backdoor that would be hard to trace.
Katie texted me Sunday morning. I heard nothing from her on Saturday.
Hi Honey. The merger concluded without a hitch. Our resort is right on the ocean and the accommodation is over the top. It's so beautiful here! Having so much fun.
Then I received another just moments later:
Hope you're feeling better. Miss you bunches and see you Monday!
My very first thought came with uncontrollable rage. Was the fucking bitch rubbing her affair in my face? What else could it be? The more I calmed down, though, I saw it differently. The text sounded as antiseptic as her note and, unlike how she usually talked or texted. It was possible she'd been coached on what to say or outright told what to say.
Upsettingly, it was more mysterious with no questions answered. During dinner, I looked around our home, trying to decide where I could sit and work on my laptop without being noticed. I'd looked around Saturday in vain for recording devices and found nothing. I'd even checked the garage for a server - a ghost laptop, with an external hard drive - but found nothing.
Walking back to the house from the detached garage I saw it, and it was purely by accident. Just a little eighth of a white circle rising above the top of the eave's trough at the corner of the house. With the gutters being white, everything blended in. I got up into the attic and there it was in the same corner of the house.
The powerful laptop was connected to a small tower. A cable went through a small drilled-hole ledger just below the roof into what appeared to be a military-grade indoor-outdoor router. Whoever had set this up had done it dozens of times before. The quality of the equipment was impressive. It would have been more so if it wasn't there to spy on me.
My first thought had been to disconnect and remove it. My second thought was to call the cops since I now had at least some proof of these unreal circumstances.
But what did I really have? It could have made me appear even more paranoid or even crazy. Then I thought about Katie. I was still of the mind that she was in on the whole thing or at least a slightly reluctant participant, but I couldn't be sure of that. Was I to trust that maniac Biggs without hearing my wife out first? No, was the answer to that.
After plenty of consideration, I decided to play along until I could talk to my wife. If things were as Biggs had said, she might even be in danger if I were to try and thwart them just then. I could make some plans rather than risk both our lives.
So, I sat at the far end of our kitchen table with only a slider that exited our patio and a bare wall behind me. There'd be no unwanted surveillance happening unless Biggs and Worldview had Navy Seals at their disposal. For new thoughts and ideas, I used a pen and notepad.
I wrote only what I knew in bullet points and, whatever I still needed to learn below each, as my way of organizing. I decided to take what Mortimer had told me as fact because it was also the worst-case scenario but wrote questions regarding the things he'd said that seemed to defy logic.
For example, it seemed highly unlikely that Biggs would be so eager to reveal some of their 'secrets' if he was part of some powerful worldwide group unless he was so powerful it didn't matter what he said.
Surely, he didn't need to bolster his position or convince me. But, then again, maybe he did. People like he built himself up to be could easily grab me up and dump my body in a remote area.
Finding out whose side Katie was on was paramount. I then wrote the word 'side.' That wasn't exactly what I needed to discover. Katie could be only on her own side, for all I knew. She may also be 'siding' with Biggs and Powers because she delusionally thought it to be in our best future interests. She'd quickly learn how wrong she was if that was the case.
That brought me back to Victor and his tablet. I quickly set up a trojan that would gain me access to accounts payable and receivable and attached it to an email, with a system restart link. Once Victor followed the instructions, I'd have access to start searching for older and abandoned receivable accounts and if any of them had forgotten money, I could begin siphoning little by little. I would also find and use a former employee to gain access to other useful email information. Finally, I texted Victor to come by to get his equipment.
It started with one drink to settle my nerves. I'd told myself to take it easy even before I began. However, one led to two, and two led to four. It was damned good whiskey too, the kind that made me start to feel sorry for myself. Somewhere along the way, I decided to test some theories related to the surveillance devices in my attic. All day I'd been careful. I worked on my tablet for a while then I did some household chores. I'd get on the iPad again and do some more digging, then I'd pretend to look for something to do, trying to seem lost. I wanted to appear defeated if anyone was indeed watching me.
I should have turned on the TV and watched a hockey game or some mindless comedy. Instead, I fumed and stewed. At one point, I threw the empty bottle at the living room wall. It missed the large framed wedding photo above our fireplace by inches. Then I paced back and forth across the floor trying to get a grip on my rage. I found a bottle of Jameson in the kitchen cupboard, left over from a long-forgotten neighborhood party.
Three fingers of that liquid found me in our bedroom going through Katie's dresser drawers. I returned to the living room with a handful of Katie's panties and lingerie that I'd bought her over our time together. The gas fireplace went on and I didn't even wait for it to heat up, tossing the garments over the fake logs.
After another hefty swig, I went into our shared office and opened our safe. I found the marriage license and was also reminded that my Sig Sauer 9mm was there but had no use for it at that moment. Walking back to the fireplace, I debated tossing the document into the flames. That's not accurate. I fought the inner turmoil with equally matched voices in my head telling me what to do. It ended up on the kitchen table with the Jameson.
In the garage, I found my axe. Going to our bedroom I surveyed the furniture. The bed was no match for the axe. I would have kept going with the destruction if I hadn't been so out of breath. The axe would need a good sharpening before I used it again.
Another glass of whiskey and a beer chaser found me in my favorite chair where I soon passed out. The morning was worse than Saturday when I woke up. I was severely hung over and disoriented. The alarm clock said twelve-thirty. It hit me that the email I'd discovered over the weekend had me scheduled in HR at one. Fuck it. They could wait.
I strolled in at one-thirty-five, head held high. I waved and smiled at some of my co-workers on my way to 'the pit,' as we all called it.
It took Mr. Walker much longer than expected with paperwork and explanations galore. Converting my 401k into an IRA. It hardly mattered as I hadn't accumulated much. Cobra Insurance. Endless forms. I was certain someone was getting their jollies from my misery. It was past four when we finished.
"I need to see what you have in my file," I demanded.
"I'm sorry, Mr. Weston," Walker said. "I can't show it to you in the exit interview. I will, by law, mail copies of everything to you this afternoon."
"I need to get some of my personal belongings in my cubicle," I stated just as flatly.
"That's been taken care of by your wife, sir." He came right back with it. So, Katie was back. Suddenly I thought of another reason the termination had taken the entire afternoon.
My suspicions were confirmed as I pulled onto my street and saw the Porsche Carrera parked in my drive. The hood was still warm as I made my way to the front door. I took a very deep breath and went in.
Jack and Katie sat on the sofa - my sofa - next to each other but not close enough to be touching in any way. As soon as I walked in, Jack rose to his feet. Katie just sat there until he motioned that she should also stand. That simple act was so surreal it sent a shiver down my spine. I guess Jack not only wanted to fuck her, but he owned her as well.
"Welcome home, Andrew," he said in his most convivial, business-like tone. "I trust you had a busy last day at Worldview?" It felt like an ambush, which of course, it was. Maybe he planned to goad me into attacking him, but that wouldn't have fit Bigg's script. I didn't answer right away. I was trying to figure out what the smug prick was doing in my house. I didn't have to wait long.
"I thought we needed to meet properly, I mean," he continued. "Face to face. I heard how unhappy and disappointed you were on Friday evening. How it was planned, I assure you, was not intended for effect or to cause pain, it was simply necessary."
I was still standing in the foyer, staring at them. The movement in my peripheral caught my attention. Two very large and well-dressed men made their way into the room from the kitchen.
"Gentlemen," Jack looked at them as he open-palm waved me toward my recliner. "Please wait for me outside. Andrew, please sit."
There were plenty in the way of warnings I wanted to spout just then but they would all come as empty threats. I figured, what the hell? He'd brought protection anyway.
"Andrew, let me get straight to the point," he went on. "I know Mortimer explained but I want to reiterate. Your wife, Katie, has become an integral part of our organization. I assure you her skills and work ethic are what has earned her promotion and favor." That was rich - him talking ethics.
"In fact, I can see Katie attaining a director or vice-president position in the near future, say, two to four years. She has a promising career with Worldview." He paused and I sat there like a statue.
"Now," he cleared his throat. "Let me address the part you're clearly having trouble with."
Seeing that I wasn't going to respond, he kept going. "As with all of my past assistants, I require hard work, loyalty, and... companionship." He left the last word hanging.
"The companion part will be infrequent but according to my needs. I assure you Katie will always be respected and well-treated just like my former or future assistants. We will be working together on multi-million-dollar deals and the pace is ferocious. But it's not forever. There is a shelf-life.
"Now," he kept at it. "You won't share any of the same treatment. That's unfortunate but, according to my needs. I'm not looking to be your friend. Your only gain will be financial, through Katie's salary, but you should know a few other things that may help you." He paused again, seemingly expecting a reaction.
"First, there's zero chance of any romance. I don't have time for that and never have. Any shared intimacy will be an extension of her job duties. Also, Katie becoming attracted to my considerable bedroom skills will be strongly discouraged." He started speaking faster, probably trying to keep me from butting in.
"There will be no pillow talk, terms of endearment, or disparagement of you. I fully expect Katie to covet you as her husband and happily anticipate her return home to you. We've spoken this weekend about my long list of expectations and she can share most of them with you later. They include her loyalty to me and respect for you."
I found the specific words he used to be interesting. Covet, for example. Loyalty and respect extended to the wrong person. What I mostly wanted to do was leap up and beat them both to a pulp.
"There will be zero other partners for your wife besides me," he smiled and seemed to be wrapping up. "No comparisons or bad-mouthing." Jack folded his hands and leaned forward in his seat.
"We take what we want, yes," he said. "But we aren't heartless. Listen, Morti can be quite brash. He's had to fight for everything he's gained in life. Me, I'm more pragmatic. I aspire to understand a man who's forced to accept our world as it is."
He waited again. I'd had enough of his highbrow bullshit.
"You talk a good game, Jack," I snorted much to Katie's dismay. "You do. I call bullshit. I'm no loser but I've lost my job and my wife in a very short time. These things were taken from me by a couple of self-absorbed pricks. I've also shown Katie what I think of her decision-making."
The smile on Power's face was instantaneous. "Your wife makes more than enough now to purchase whatever kind of undergarments she desires. Since you burned those that were special to the two of you, everything she purchases over the next two years she'll be sharing with both of us."
"Fuck you, you smug prick," I yelled through gritted teeth. "You better pray I don't ever..."
"There you go," he was smug, "get it all out of your system. Go on, threaten me, hell, threaten everyone. Throw things about, or maybe, come at me. The first shot is free but then my guys end your ass. You wouldn't be the first husband stupid enough to make his wife a widow."
I felt outplayed and a step behind. With his two men on my porch, it wasn't the time for heroics. I sat there, glaring at him, knowing it was totally inadequate. Jack smelled my despair.
"Look, Andrew," he feigned mock empathy. "I'd be disappointed if you acted a wimp. From my time observing you at Worldview, you've struck me as a no-bullshit man's man. Honestly, that feeds my ego, knowing what you'll be feeling and thinking when Katie is with me, even when we're just working. That breeds respect in people like me. I can promise you, that while I'll enjoy my time with your wife, I will not disparage you - not to her or anyone else. It takes a smart man - a winner - to know when he's beaten, to be able to put aside his natural pride and accept he's not the bigger bear.
"Now, two final things," I hoped he was telling the truth. "Katie will be accompanying me for five days during New Year's week. You get her for Christmas. I suggest you treat her like a treasured wife because if I hear otherwise, well. New Year's Eve is on a Saturday and she'll be home Sunday night."
"Jack, I'm gonna fucking k..."
"Last thing," he cut me off. "Don't thank me for the remodel. Actions have consequences - always. I've confiscated your sports memorabilia collection to cover the cost of labor installing your new bedroom furniture and the wall repair." He motioned above my fireplace and sure enough, there was no damage.
I jumped to my feet. Every fiber of Jack's being said he wanted me to attack. For all his verbosity about respect, he wanted to get me into a forced-error situation. I ran down into the basement where I kept my collection. My entire little display, which wasn't much in honesty, was gone. I was no aficionado but collecting the signed balls and jerseys had taken some doing.
I stood there fighting back extreme rage. I wouldn't be baited but I promised myself then and there Jack and Mortimer and all the rest of them would pay. If it took the rest of my life, they'd pay dearly.
As I came back up the stairs, I heard Jack and his posse driving away. I looked over into the kitchen and my eyes locked with Katie's as she just stood there frozen by the sink. My gaze seemed to take a moment to register with her for some reason. Absent of any love or endearment, I looked at her with contempt. Finally, her realization forced back a sob as a few large tears ran down her cheeks.
"Was that good for you?" I asked with venom.
Oh, Andrew!" she mustered.
"I'll bet it was at least as good as your weekend of fucking betrayal," I added.
"I... I didn't," she stopped mid-sentence when I leaned forward and spat at her. Everything in her expression and maybe in her mind seized as if she'd just stumbled out of the debris of a plane crash.
"This isn't going to end well," I continued my rant. "For you... and when I'm finished with those motherfuckers..."
Katie changed in an instant. "We. Need. To talk. About this." The tone was obscure, camouflaged even, as her eyes flew around the room and her arms waved in all directions at the walls.
Fuck, I thought, I'd forgotten about the surveillance.
"I've got to get out of here," I told her, suddenly resigned. "I can't stand the sight of you." I grabbed my coat and keys and barreled out the door.
Morty's had the best pub grub in town but the name made me drive a little further to the Caddyshack. I ordered a Jameson and an IPA chaser along with a twelve-inch pizza. Not seven minutes after I sat down and certainly before I could collect my thoughts, Katie came strolling in and straight to my booth. I was going to lash out but I didn't have any fight left in me.
"Can't even respect my need for a little peace and quiet," I said, shaking my head. It wasn't intended as a question. The server came back and asked her what she wanted to drink. Ignoring my comment, she asked the server to move us to a single booth in the corner. After we were reseated, Katie looked me in the eye.
"Can we talk, now?" she asked. I'd seen that look and heard that tone before. Oddly, when I loved her, it never really bothered me. Not answering, I just glared back at her, defying her to push further.
Katie's look softened. "I'm sorry," she claimed. "I don't want to fight. What I was trying to say at the house, was that I didn't have sex with him, Andy."
I leaned forward, in a growling whisper. "Bullshit, Katie. I don't believe you."
"Oh, it wasn't because I was valiant or gallant," she barked back. "I didn't hold him off, struggle, fight or knock him out. He simply said he wanted to get to know his new PA."
Katie paused and took a deep breath before letting out a sigh. "I knew what was happening. I found out right before the banquet - probably much in the same way you did when you talked to Mr. Biggs. Yes, I knew he'd be taking you aside and I also knew that our lives would be forever changed."
Katie took a few moments, either for her own benefit or mine. "I was deathly frightened when you didn't return to the party. I'd told them earlier that you wouldn't stand for what they were proposing but they laughed at me. Jack told me later as the party was winding down that you'd been driven home. He made me write you a note according to his script and handed it to one of his security people. He spent a good part of the weekend trying to reassure me that you'd be okay - that we both would - once we understood our options. On the flight home, he let me know you'd been dismissed for everyone's benefit."
My wife looked sincere but there wasn't any way for me to not hold her accountable for her part in this.
"Fine," I said. "So, you didn't fuck him... yet. But you're going to. For all I know, you did and you're lying now. Maybe even before Friday. At best, I think you want this... wanted it and planned with them. Tell me the fucking truth, right now."
"I never wanted it," she said without hesitation and again with a sincerity I knew well. At least I thought I had.
"Then I plan to fight them," I announced. "I'm not sure how yet but you're my wife and I'll fight for us both. If I find out you're lying, I'll come after you with the same alacrity."
She reached across the table and took my hand tightly. "Please, don't," she almost begged. That startled me and I pulled away. "You don't know these people like I do. Yes, you worked there. Sure, you may have some vague ideas but not all of it. Hell, even I don't truly know what they are capable of."
For the first time, it seemed like Katie wanted to lash out. I'd infuriated her with my comment but again, she took her time and regained her composure.
"That's my point," she said quieter, "They play with people's lives. They take what they want and crush anyone in their way and it doesn't even cost them a dime."
"So, you're telling me I should just take it and do nothing?" I asked incredulously. "That might work for you... heading off to romantic, exotic locations, getting some strange from rich and powerful men. Fuck that. They're taking everything from me. Job. Wife. Self-respect. Etcetera."
"Sure," she leaned in, more irate than before. "Be the big man. Wind up dead and forever missing. Leave me to deal with them. Leave me crushed... crushed with sorrow because I'll never know what happened to you. Sad and afraid for my own life so no police confessions when they question me about your disappearance. Crushed with guilt because I took a job there in the first place and for not recognizing who and what these people are or are capable of. Then, finally, fear. Constant fear that when they're finished with me, I'll end up at the bottom of a lake next to you. Try to be a hero and that's your future... and mine."
"They are bluffing," I retorted. "All that drama you just spouted? Jack probably told you - coached you - to say it. If you really meant it, come with me right now to see the FBI. You were taken across state lines and out of the country against your will. That means we can bypass local authorities."
Katie looked frayed and sad. "Andy, I love you," she began. "But you need to get your head out of your ass. I need you right now. We need to figure out what we're going to do - what we can do - if anything. They aren't threatening me right now with my life, they're threatening me with yours. And damn it, I don't know what to d..."
Katie broke down sobbing then. She put her head on her hands on the table and wept. I moved around the other side of the booth to comfort her as we drew onlookers.
"Easy, easy," I tried to calm her. "Relax, Katie. Alright. Let's talk about it."
When Katie looked up her expression and demeanor had changed. The worry and fear was gone, replaced by a look of pity.
"Andy," she said softly. "They changed your employment file. It shows you being an overly jealous husband. Mentally unstable. It shows them painting themselves as a patient employer doing things by the book, getting you some professional help for your issues and then, paying for it."
I went to say something and she cut me off. "Tell me, What did you do last night when you lost your temper?" Good, I thought. We were going to find out if my theory about the house being wired was correct. Then it dawned on me that I already knew. Jack had admitted as much. I simply wasn't thinking right anymore. I was completely out of my league and overmatched.
"I'm guessing you already do?" I asked.
"I do," she admitted. "I was told this morning in Jack's office."
"Along with another warning to get me in line, I suppose?" I wondered if she just didn't get it.
"That's why he was at our home," she went on. "That wasn't planned until today. More threats and more conditioning. It's not only the surveillance system, Andy. They made it clear, without the words, that any more stunts by you would leave me alone and belonging to them. Jack actually laughed at one point and said he hoped that you wouldn't be able to get your pride and anger under control."
She gulped her wine. "Maybe to show me what I'm up against, they called you into HR early and then they erased everything you did - literally erased it." I glared, I guess in disbelief.
"Pull your phone out if you doubt me," she declared. "Look at our checking account where your payroll check is deposited." I made no move to check because I couldn't stand any more bad news.
"They replaced all of our bedroom furniture," she kept going, apparently angry at them. "Fixed the wall. Some woman I'd never seen before rang the doorbell, handed me bags from four different stores without a single word, and left. Inside were several pairs of underwear I later found out you burned. The horrifying thing was that almost everything was replaced to a tee. What that woman brought probably outdid what I could have replaced with memory and inventory over a month. They were able to access our bank account. In under four hours, they undid all the damage you did and made you... us, pay for it."
Pulling out my phone I brought up the banking app and she was right. They'd even transferred money from savings into checking to readjust the balance.
"And my sports memorabilia?" I asked snidely.
"I'd say a lesson - or a warning - not to piss them off again." She was being honest, not contrite.
With nothing to say I contemplated. She filled the void. "I don't think the FBI can help us. I wouldn't be able to trust them."
"Okay," I said asked with sarcasm, "what do you think we should do?"
"You're not going to like my idea," she cautioned. "Still want to hear it?" I slowly nodded.
"I think we should play along," she held up her hand when she saw I was about to interrupt. "I said 'play' along not go along. I can't see another option and since the banquet, I've thought of little else.
"Here's what I think," she continued, "You know their systems and security. You've already broken into it once and you were one of those in charge of keeping the world out. I'll be working closely with Jack... and Ben," she paused due to my reaction to Jack's name. Then she seemed to realize that my concern was Ben.
"No, honey," she consoled. "Never with Ben. I told Jack I wouldn't do that and he laughed, saying he wanted me... he wanted that part to be exclusive to him and me."
My anger rose again but I tamped it down the best I could.
"Anyway," she desperately wanted to get off that topic. "If I could find something - anything - Illegal or otherwise that we could hang over their heads, something you could isolate and we could prove..."
"They're already doing something illegal," I told her. "Kidnapping you and forcing you to be the company..." She winced as I stopped myself. There wasn't any good reason to continue demeaning her.
"My firing with quid pro quo attached was another crime, likely a felony. They seem to have that covered too." The frustration was clear in my voice.
"Babe, think about it," she said. "The McMillin deal concluded two weeks ago. Jack took me there for an hour's worth of work that an admin could have handled. That means people at the top of McMillin know about this too and are possibly involved. They'd all back the Belize trip and claim you went berserk. Your termination would end up being the least of it. You'd be ruined in your field and have a hard time finding work. They can use what you did this weekend at the house against you, too."
She was right and I still wasn't thinking clearly. Katie was ahead of me but was that because Jack made sure she would be? I felt forlorn and suddenly despondent.
"Come home with me, Andy," she pleaded, reaching for my hand. "I don't know what we'll do - what we can do - but whatever it is, I want us to do it together. You're still the love of my life. That won't ever change and I'm your wife, not your enemy. Let me prove it, so you'll never doubt it." She held back a sob. "If you end up hating me it will be just as if they killed you because inside, I'd be dead."
Katie did start to cry then. I couldn't help but feel for her and, although I didn't comfort her as I would have at any time up until the previous Friday, I did allow her to put her head into my chest and get it all out. The crazy part was that she seemed sincere. That didn't correspond with my theory and made me at least wonder. Finally, she looked up into my eyes.
"We can survive this," she said softly. "For some reason, they seem to have rules, such as the two-year thing. That tells me that there's at least some vulnerability or perception of it in their minds. We just need to discover it." There was a pause where I could tell she was thinking hard.
"Also, I'm no idiot," she continued. "I know how you're going to feel when I'm gone. Hell, I know how I'd feel if I were in your place. I know you're not going to feel loved or like loving me when I come back home. I'm sure those will be the hardest times for both of us because I'll be craving your love but I'll also understand why you won't be able to give it. For sure, we'll have to decide how long we go without intimacy. We need to improve our communication even beyond how we've been as a couple and agree on what each of us needs from our partner to bring us back to the center of our love."
"Hold on, Katie," I needed to keep this a two-way conversation. "That sounds sweet and caring on its face and for the most part, I agree. "I've had all weekend to think about it. Yes, of course, the sex you have with him, which I also picture in my mind, will have a major impact on our relationship. I'm pretty sure that's something they get off on, unfortunately for me. Beyond that, and more importantly, is undermining our trust and respect for each other. They'll think..."
"You're right," she interrupted. "It's already started. Jack made a big deal over the weekend to explain the male psyche, pointing out how I should treat you when I return from our trips. He brought up things I'd never considered so we'll need to discuss them but the point is, he repeatedly told me he didn't think you'd be able to handle it for two years. He told me to expect you to leave me but to continue to do everything possible to prevent that. He likened it to selling a contract with a supplier who doesn't like doing business with us. He went to lengths to point out that very few men could overcome what he and Mortimer were doing. I asked, then why do it? His answer sickened me. He told me that money and our work are more important to the world than any individual. He then seemed to want me to know that those couples who complied and sucked it up profited greatly and were set for life."
"We've got to figure out how to get out of this situation," I told her hopelessly. "Run away with me - tonight. We'll send your resignation when we get where we're going so we have a head start. Or we won't send it at all."
"No, Andy," she said calmly. "I've thought about all that. I resign now - at home - we reduce our chance of getting away from them. I send my resignation later and it leads them to us."
"It's a sick game to them," I sighed. "I just need your honesty here. Tell me you're not a part of their game. Tell me you didn't know before that night. Tell me you'll help us get out of this. Tell me you won't be led down their dark path over the next two years - that you won't be seduced by the money and the power."
"I promise," she said sincerely. "I promise all that and more. I don't want to lose you. I want children with you. I want to grow old with you but not before making a lifetime of memories. For the hardest part, when you're feeling rage or hopelessness while I'm away with him, I want you to think about me and how hard it will be for me to allow it and pretend to enjoy it."
Katie and I were talked out and exhausted. I felt much better about us and our relationship, although I still had no idea how I would be able to handle that bastard Powers having my wife on demand as his personal sex toy. I didn't care what he'd said, I had zero trust in his actions, words, or motives. I would have to find a way to get to them through technology. That was going to be my mission.
Katie and I shared our bed that night but only to hold each other close and sleep. It felt like we clung for dear life. There were six days before Christmas and then another three days before Jack would be taking her away.
I asked her to try to find out where they were off to. That became the first rift in the delicate fabric of our trust. Katie worried I'd try to follow and do something that could get us both in a lot of trouble or maybe even dead. Fortunately, the argument was minor and I told her I only wanted to know where she was in case something - anything - happened. We gave each other plenty of slack, knowing we were under a lot of stress.
My wife did everything possible to keep my mood upbeat over the Christmas weekend. Both of us had already bought the other's present before the Worldview party. What happened on Christmas Eve was unplanned. Katie came into our en suite while I was showering and opened the sliding door.
"Hurry up, slowpoke," she teased. "We have plans."
It turned out that Katie had booked us into one of our favorite escapes - an Indian casino in Montana - for Christmas Eve and day. We made quite a day of the drive, stopping often to take some breathtaking photos of the snow-blanketed pines, or just to play in the white stuff. She had our wrapped gifts in the trunk and after a great steak dinner and a bottle of wine in the casino's upscale restaurant, we went to our rooms and exchanged them.
I felt more connected to my wife than any other day since that damned party. That led to a great evening of passionate lovemaking. She did her best to assure me of her loyalty and her love, and I basked in it. We'd lay there catching our breath and then one of us looked over at the other and it was game on, once more. Finally, she fell asleep with her head on my chest.
Only an hour later though, I was stirred awake. I have this thing about being able to detect someone staring at me even in my sleep.
"I love you, Andy," it was heartfelt. She had something in her hand and I knew what it was. I'd counted gifts on the way up to our room after check-in, so I knew she'd shorted me earlier by one. She saw me looking at it and handed it to me.
"I got this for you," she told me as I peeled the wrapping paper away, "because I thought it might help us."
Inside was a leather journal, larger than most I'd ever seen on a store shelf. I gave her a quizzical look.
"I'm hoping," she said tentatively, not wanting to spoil our night. "That when I'm - away - you can write your feelings in here and we can talk about them when I return. I don't have a clue how much it will help but I need to know how you're feeling and what you're thinking so I can stay attuned. I want to be able to keep our communication open. I'll always tell you anything you want to know. I love you!"
The tears formed in my eyes then. So many things could have triggered them, but I knew we were in a fucked situation and there was nothing I could do about it. Even in my hopelessness, I prayed we would survive what was to come.
The following day, we went to the spa she'd booked after breakfast and later we just mindlessly played the slot machines. It was a welcome distraction as I thought about the inevitable upcoming 'business' trip.
The three days after our return home were somber and unobtrusive. We were both lost in our shared nightmare. I could tell that Jack's warning to Katie weighed heavily on her mind. She wasn't a man nor did she fully understand a man's pride and ego, which is to say, his self-respect, but I could tell she wondered how I might fare under the pressure.
Three days later, I was driving her to the airport. Jack had at least kept one small promise by not picking her up. Maybe he was only playing it close to the vest in case I'd come up with something they hadn't considered like when I hacked their system to get a job.
"I love you, Andy," this time it was solemn. "Please try to stay busy and put your worries out of your mind. Use your journal. I'll call you every chance I get, including New Year's Eve. I know we are finalizing the new combined executive committee with McMillin but that's all I know."
I told her I loved her too. We cried a bit, forced a few smiles, and put on our brave faces. Then she was gone and I had absolutely no idea how I was going to cope.
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