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It's Only Acting - The Conclusion
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I should have slept well. I always did after a heavy sex session with my gorgeous wife, Kelly. And lately, with the overheated rehearsals, we'd had more than our share of those.
The previous night - opening night - I'd heard my wife's drunken revelation. Then we'd gone straight to our bed, and I discovered - then heard her jauntily and jovially admit - that her co-star had filled her with his cum. I came in record time. It was more or less a premature ejaculation.
Then, to my utter amazement, I remained hard, and we fucked again. It was far rougher than we usually did together. I'd turned her around and pulled her up on hands and knees, and then I just ploughed into my wife for all I was worth. Since I'd just finished having an orgasm, I lasted a long time and knew that I would.
I was quite sure she was going to be sore because as I was dozing off, my cock felt pretty beat up.
With the dawn of a new morning, and in the light of day, though, I was feeling anything but fat and happy. It was five-forty-five and I was standing in the shower, feeling very... uneasy. Uneasiness was putting it simply. After a spouse's confession and my reaction to it, uneasy would be appropriate.
But I was also confused. Confused about a great many things, I was, as my brain spun at high speed.
When the hot water started running out, I got out, got dressed, and went for a run. It was a ritual for my Saturday mornings, albeit an hour and a half later than I'd usually start. The run only added to my angst, so I stopped at a local coffee shop and sat with my thoughts and a bagel.
As a writer, it was my habit to get conflicting and over-burdening thoughts out of my head, and onto paper. I was used to sorting them later. I asked the server if she had something to write on and a pen, handing her a five for her trouble. I didn't try to organize my thoughts, because I never did.
I busily scribbled. I took a bite of my warm bagel and scribbled more. Finally, I had a full page of thoughts that I would allow me to push the delete button on inside my brain.
"Fucked another guy."
That was the first thing I wrote.
Oddly, the very second thing I should have thought didn't come to me until later that day. "Twice," "Admitted it," "Did I agree to it?" "Did it turn me on?" "Why am I so upset about it now?"
Those last two were the crux of my confusion and turmoil. I wrote: "You agreed to this - from the start." Or was I groomed to simply go along with it? I thought.
That didn't seem accurate. I didn't write it down. Kelly had told me all along the way, exactly what was happening - how the play and the scenes were progressing. She even warned me twice in the week leading up to opening night. I put that aside for now.
The reality was I didn't want to think about it just then. What I did with my wife after her admission wasn't me. At least it wasn't the 'me' that I thought of myself. I'd always considered myself fairly mainstream, in my beliefs and actions. Certainly, while in college, I'd written some smutty scenes, and Kelly had actually played in one, except she'd only run her hands over a naked guy, and hadn't even touched his cock. Other females on stage had been assigned to that.
I was always open and honest with Kelly. I'd hoped she was with me too. But I'd be damned if there wasn't now a slight little nagging doubt, in the back of my mind. Bloody hell! This wasn't right.
I loved my wife and I trusted her with my life. When she worked for the brokerage, I'd never mistrusted her - not even once! Did that fare well for her, or was there an element of naivety on my part?
I decided I was getting ahead of myself on that point too. So I did some math and scribbled a number: "nineteen." The previous night, opening night, was a Friday. Friday the first of March. The play ran all month, and other than the opening weekend, which was three nights, the performance was scheduled Thursday through Sunday.
Nineteen performances. Nineteen times my wife could potentially fuck another guy on stage, breaking her vows, and without any... For fuck's sake! They weren't using any protection. He came in her, and I just went along with it happily, or stupidly. I was pretty sure it was both. What the hell was I thinking?
He was bloody handsome, and bigger than me - in every way. Kingsley wasn't some tripod, by any means. Without a tape measure and sitting in the fifth row, it was hard to say, but his meat and two veg were definitely bigger than mine by an inch or two. There was no way a bloke like that wasn't getting laid on a regular basis. He was an actor to boot - probably shagging half of Essex.
I wrote: "Disease, get tested." Then, another thought: "Is Kelly on her pills? Has she missed any?" Then a biggie came to mind, and I wrote it down. "If they all knew this was likely to happen, why no condoms available?"
I was sinking into despair thinking about what was happening, and the damned visuals were making me nauseous. I folded the paper and put it in my pocket. I waved to the server for a refill on my coffee. I'd cleared my mind just enough to focus on myself for a little while before going home to have a major discussion with Kelly.
What was my stance on last night? I considered that but had to do a replay from long ago to get to the answer. Yes, I'd always considered myself a liberal-thinking person. Politically, I'd call myself a progressive, even though that was a pretty loose term. I was in the arts, for fuck's sake, and a writer by profession.
Back in uni, I prided myself on my work. I had no problems or concerns writing some raunchy stuff. I reveled in pushing the envelope. The plays I read, and some books published by the playwrights I'd studied helped me understand how to skirt that edge, making something both brilliant and controversial, that caused a big to-do with the audience and the press.
I allowed myself to smile, thinking back on those days. There was an overabundance of young women in drama studies, and I had more than my fair share, sampling them one after another. Then I met Kelly, and she was different. Kelly wanted to try her hand at drama, like a hobby. She was going for her master's in finance. She wasn't some airhead like the others. She set her mind to something and she did it, the end. At first, she wasn't my cup of tea, but that determined spirit of hers grew on me.
I'll never forget the look on her face when she told me she was selected along with six other students to visit the New York Stock Exchange in America. It equally matched the look she gave the day I asked for her hand in marriage.
Kelly got lucky to land her first job with Bronson Equities, LLC, but then her skill took over. She moved into a broker position quickly, almost too quickly, I'd thought at the time. But then she brought on some big clients, who trusted her with their money.
Davis Bronson, the founder's son, and CEO, was overly complimentary of my wife, especially at the awards banquets I'd attended with her.
I'd done well in my career also. I landed a three-book, two-year deal almost right out of college. That led to some prominence and I've written two other self-published books, along with numerous articles for magazines, and had continued writing plays.
I trusted my wife with my life. We've always had a great relationship, filled with respect, and trust. The love stayed just as strong as when we were courting. Sex was, in my humble opinion, stellar.
In short, Kelly never gave me any reason to mistrust her, even with her career and long hours. She always came home to me, telling me exuberantly about her day, or some project or new client. She'd always be excited when she landed some 'personality,' especially an actor - man or woman - and I basked in her tales and adventures.
So what was it, specifically now, that bothered me so much? There was plenty. Things that could make me doubt myself - my inner self - looking in the mirror.
Expressing herself in a play, was one thing, while breaking her marriage vows for an entire month, was quite another.
That wasn't acceptable. She'd had actual intercourse with her male co-star the night before opening too, and hadn't confessed to that until last night.
Yes, she was drunk when she came home, so did she confess out of guilt or drunkenness? Did she even mean to tell me?
I thought the answer to that was a solid yes, from what I knew of Kelly. We simply kept no secrets. But now there was doubt there, as hard as I tried to push it away.
Would I be able to accept what happened? What was going to happen, or at least likely to happen? I thought about that, and the immediate answer wasn't just no, but hell no.
This wasn't some nudity, kissing, or fondling. In the program, Kelly and her actor lover had kissed eight other times, not counting the strip tease scene. The kisses, as I focused more on them, had been passionate. Of course, that was the point, to provide realism, but it dawned on me that they'd had a lot of practice to do it so perfectly, so carefree, with ease.
I knew because Kelly had been completely upfront with me. She'd come home each night and fucked me senseless, obviously, all worked up from rehearsal, and I'd gone along like a happy puppy. I didn't want to have to tell her how unhappy I was about what she'd done. But, we'd always been honest with each other, so I was going to have to. This shouldn't be that difficult for my wife to understand. If the shoe were on the other foot, well...
When I arrived home, Kelly started right in asking where I'd been. She wasn't bitchy, just concerned. I got another cup of coffee, because I felt drained, and then told her we needed to talk, which she seemed to expect. We sat in our living room, with Kelly right next to me.
"What's wrong, baby?" she asked thoughtfully. "You look horrible. Something happen on your run?"
"No," I replied. "I had some breakfast after. I had some thinking to do. I need to talk about..."
"About last night, I know," she interrupted. "I was drunk, but I know what I told you. You seemed pretty okay with it, considering what happened afterward, but I'm not an idiot. Tell me what's on your mind."
"Well," I started sheepishly, "I've got mixed feelings. I also feel a little lost, because my actions and my thoughts aren't, or weren't in sync. In the cold light of day, I'm not happy that you've had sex with another man... twice."
I couldn't tell if Kelly was expecting what I said or not. At first, she was or seemed to be nodding slightly, but at my last statement, suddenly went stone-faced.
"What?" she said vehemently after a pause. "I haven't had sex with anyone. I never said that. I said, while acting out a scene, my co-star's penis slipped inside me. It happened at dress rehearsal, for a minute, no more, and then again last night."
Whatever Kelly was anticipating from me that was exactly what I expected from her. Kelly was going down that road, actor, co-actor, no harm - no foul.
Hold on, Kelly," I told her. "That isn't accurate. Your exact words were 'you watched your wife get fucked by another man, in front of a thousand people.'
"That's what I've been thinking about," I said emotionlessly. "You've been coming home, all revved up. I even expected things were probably heating up at rehearsal, and you did warn me about opening night. The problem I'm having is how you came home with it. Maybe teasing, but also, maybe rubbing it in my face a little. Then there's the issue of NOT telling me about dress rehearsal the previous night."
"Hang on a sec," her voice tone and volume rising. "I told you that dress rehearsal was pretty realistic. That was an admission without going into the gory details. I'm not fucking anyone, except you. I've been completely honest with you, from day one, even asking your permission, if you recall."
That wasn't the attitude I'd expected. The tone of her voice was anything but conciliatory. She was pissed, and daring me to call her out for lying, or for fucking. Still, she was telling the truth.
"He came in you," I stuck to it. "That's sex with someone else, in my book. Hell, in everybody's book. Also, if this director and you two actors..." I emphasized that last part, "knew the play was to be acted out this way, where were the precautions?"
Kelly was back on heel then. She hadn't thought about that or a response. So I kept at it.
"Now there's the matter of the future," I said very seriously. "Nineteen more shows. No precautions and nineteen more opportunities to have sex with someone else."
It took her a minute to collect her thoughts. "We can't use rubbers," she began tentatively. "You know that. You saw the play. That would look foolish and unrealistic.
"But we knew that. Both Kingsley and I were tested. We did that as soon as we made the changes to the scene because our genitalia would be in such proximity."
"Sure," I spat. I was getting pissed myself. "And how many weeks ago was that?" it wasn't lost on me that she'd skimmed right over the nineteen shows remaining.
"Four," she said confidently. "Or five. Right around that time," she followed, not as sure. "We're both clean, honey. I wouldn't do that to you."
"Kelly," I said, trying to calm down. "I'm not happy about this. I know what we did after your big reveal last night. The only thing I can think is that I'd been getting so worked up about it for weeks, what with your vague descriptions and all. Him 'accidentally' slipping it to you, play or no play isn't something I'm okay with. I don't think it should be okay with you, and I'm surprised that you aren't even addressing that. In fact, you are squirming around it."
"I am not!" Kelly replied loudly. "Look, honey, I can't do much about it at this point. I can come home and make it up to you, but the way it's worked out, and rehearsed, it's likely to happen again. I don't want this to cause us problems. I've been honest about it, and I thought you were good; that we were good. Please, honey, be reasonable."
"Yeah," I said in a quiet, sad voice, "come home to your cuckold and give him sloppy seconds. That's what I yearn for."
Kelly was beginning to understand the depth of our troubles. She sat quietly for several minutes, and I went to get a beer. Screw the coffee. When I returned my wife looked eager to say something.
"Okay, honey," she said. "I think I get it. I don't want you to feel jealous. I'll talk to Kingsley and the director tonight. I'll see what we can do to keep the realism intact but be more careful. That said, you saw the scene. I can't wear a sheath-like they do in the movies, because he's supposed to touch me there, and as you saw the audience would be able to see the thing. It looks like a panty liner. Obviously, Kingsley can't wear a condom."
I'm telling you, Kelly," I said, unaffected by her promises. "You need to get tested again. He's an actor, for fuck sake. He could have picked up all kinds of diseases in the past several weeks. You're not thinking clearly. I don't want an STD. I'll be getting tested on Monday. Then there's the matter of your birth control."
"Oh, honey," she cried out, "I'm on the pill, and I never miss. You know that. I'll do everything I can to keep him from accidentally slipping inside me. If he comes outside of me, I'll make sure to shower there before coming home."
She wasn't getting it. I didn't want to prolong the discussion, because her words and actions were so unusual to me. I was already beginning to mistrust her.
Kelly," I said sternly, "Just know that I'm not happy about any of this. Do what you need to do. The once, I think I can get past, but not a month of having sex with your co-star, in front of God know how many people. That's cruel, as far as I'm concerned."
I worked on the yard, as I did every Saturday. When I was just finishing up, Kelly found me in the garage. She came up to me and gave me a big hug.
"I'm heading over to the theatre now," she said, trying to look affable. "I love you, darling. Don't you forget that? I'll see you later tonight."
As soon as she was gone, I got cleaned up and went to my favorite pub for a burger and a beer. I thought more about my conversation with Kelly.
Somewhere along the way, she'd lost respect for me, at least to a degree. The admissions, I concluded, were just as much about teasing me, maybe even grooming me. She knew me well. She knew about college because she was right there with me.
The question was, what had changed in me? Had I become a stuffed shirt? Some sort of conservative? No, I also concluded. This was about some big bloke giving my wife a good going over, and if I had to guess, he was making a spectacle of himself, especially with how the other theatre staff had looked on me as an unknowing cuckold.
There was only one person who'd looked upon me with... was it pity? That was the good-looking young lady who'd been in the ticket booth with the bloody ass that had made the snide comment.
I decided I was going back to the theatre to try to talk to her. She'd probably not want to get involved, but nothing ventured, nothing gained.
At six-thirty, I was standing in her line. When I got to the window, she gave me a perfunctory greeting, and then she recognized me. I leaned in close to the window.
"Hello," I said with a smile. In a quieter voice, I told her, "No ticket tonight. I was hoping to talk to you, maybe over coffee. My treat."
Her eyes wandered momentarily. I got the impression she was trying to figure out a nice way to say 'no.' Finally, I saw a little spark there. She looked down at the counter in front of her and scribbled something on a Post-it.
Then she slid it out the little opening. I looked at the paper, and read it:
"Biloxi Blues Café - 9:00"
I smiled at her, and said "Thank you."
At nine she walked in, looked around, and came over to join me. After getting her a Latte, we settled in. She looked uncomfortable, so I tried to put her at ease.
"I'm Peter," I said, holding my hand out for her. "Thank you for coming."
"I'm Sarah," she said shyly. "This is out of character for me, but I could tell last night that you may not have had a clue about what you were in for. You proved that to me tonight. Is that what this is about?"
I nodded. "It seems..." I paused, not sure how to say it. "It seems, my wife had sex with her co-star last night. She confessed after the opening night party. She was drunk, but the way she did it, I'm not so sure that was her motivation. It also appeared that others - employees at the theatre - knew about it, maybe knew a lot more based on some of the looks I got. I knew the play would be raunchy, and I knew that they had changed the scenes to make them more... provocative."
Sarah sipped her coffee. I could tell she was trying to sort out what she knew and square it with what I'd told her. She seemed a bit hesitant but I sensed she wanted to be thoughtful in her response.
"There is no opening night party," she said looking up at my face. "That only happens after the show wraps. Your wife left the theatre about an hour after you, with the director, Kingsley, and the director's assistant, Anne."
She let that sink in and then continued. "Peter, what your wife is doing - has been doing - during rehearsals, and then last night, just isn't right in my opinion. It was both hers and Kingsley's idea to turn up the heat on that scene. This director is a friend of Kingsley's from London and has a reputation for pushing the envelope. There was some scandal that pushed them both out of the movie business about five years ago. I don't know anything about that, but it is the rumor."
"Kingsley was in film?" I asked, a little stunned that I didn't recognize him, or hear that from my loving wife.
"Yes," she admitted, "stage name, Miles Bedford. He has the beard now and the blond tints in his hair along with a touch of grey."
"Miles Bedford," I said it more to myself than to her. "That must have been some scandal, for him to go to all that trouble. What did you mean, 'is doing' and 'has been doing?'"
"About four or five weeks ago, after the major changes to that strip-tease scene, both Kelly and Kingsley started rehearsing the scene nude. That would be okay if it were a few times. After all, actors need to get somewhat... familiar with each other for the sake of believability during the show. It's different in film, as you know, with all the editing. This is raw, and live, so a few times would have been totally appropriate."
"What did you say?" I asked, backtracking. "As I know? What should I know?"
"I know all about you," she smiled. "Some of your scenes at Uni were legendary. I've read your books, and any articles you write, when I come across them. I guess you could say, I'm a fan." She got a little embarrassed as she revealed that.
"Thank you," I replied. "And thank you for giving me this information. It seems my wife has some explaining to do."
"I'd say so," Sarah agreed. "Those two are more than friendly, and it's not hard for any of the staff or crew to imagine what else is going on. That's why you got those looks. I find it despicable."
I thanked Sarah again and then we changed the subject. I learned she'd gone to my alma mater, and studied the arts. She hadn't found any meaningful work yet but stayed close to the action hoping for a break.
We parted ways, exchanging phone numbers and she promised to keep me informed on my wife's doings with Kingsley. I went home and jumped on my computer.
During my search, it hit me when I heard Kelly talk about Kingsley/ Miles. Miles was a huge client of Kelly's at the brokerage. She'd mentioned him one night about three years previous. That sent a shiver down my spine. Could my seemingly loving, caring wife be playing me as her perpetual cuckold? Had the show been a set-up, just so they could fuck, spend time together, or both?
I searched several news articles about Miles Bedford, setting my search to 'images.' About forty minutes in, I found a photo from the London Film Festival, with a male actor being interviewed in the foreground, and there right behind him was Miles Bedford, holding hands with my wife.
I couldn't recall a time when I was that angry with a person. My wife, Kelly, had been carrying on, in some manner - emotional or physical, or both - for quite some time. She'd lied by omission - a lot. As I sat there thinking, I realized that I would never get the truth from the slut.
Then I had a darker thought - one I discovered had been lurking just below the surface, and I didn't even know it. I'd always let Kelly be her own person. I'd never complained about her high-powered job as a broker. I never made a big deal about the hours either. Did she feel superior to her author husband? Had she been mistaking my kindness for weakness? Maybe she was just a damned good actor.
So I started making notes again. What did I know for sure:
I knew she lied about the opening night party and had gone somewhere with Kingsley and two others, for their own sort of party. I knew she lied by not telling me who Kingsley was. She could try to worm her way around that, but it would be a feeble attempt. She'd gone to a big deal film festival without my knowledge. She'd been heavily involved with choreographing that scene in the play, and the three culprits all knew each other well.
Things were not looking good for our marriage, and the more I thought about what I didn't yet know, but could easily connect dots to it got worse. I saw it was after ten, so I stopped my note-taking and went upstairs to get myself ready for bed. I was hoping to be sleeping when she arrived.
I took far too long, moving some of my things and preparing for bed, as I heard Kelly come bounding through the door. I took a deep breath and got myself psyched up for an acting gig of my own.
"Baby," she called out. "I'm home! Where are you?"
That was all she got out, as she figured out the light was on and noises were coming from the spare bedroom. She turned the corner and stopped in the doorway.
"What's going on?" she asked, somewhere between shocked and perturbed. "What are you doing?"
"Getting ready for bed," I told her truthfully. I remained silent.
"Baby," she said, now a bit fearful, "why are you in here? Come to bed with me, so I can rock your world."
I just turned and looked her in the eye. It wasn't a look a husband who'd uncovered the mess I had tonight would have given. My look was sad.
"I can't," I said looking at the floor, "as much as I'd like to."
"Why not?" She asked, perplexed, but with an edge to her voice. "He didn't get inside me tonight. We worked something out, so the audience still thought we were... well, you know. With me on top, he put his, err, erection in my ass crack, and I just ground away on his leg. With him on top, we were simply more careful."
She acted exactly the same as always. I had to look away, lest I give myself up, with the disgust that was probably dripping from my face. Big deal, she did something, that she, the director, and Bedford should have done from the start. Something that any professional would do, and she was making it sound like some concession.
I summoned all my energy and turned to face her. "Thank you for that. It means a lot to me, that you cared enough to listen to me and understand."
"Of course," she made it sound so sweet, the bitch. "I love you, baby. Now let's go to bed. I need a good going over."
"Umm," I stammered, "I can't. Not until we're tested. I'm very worried about picking up some disease, and I can't trust myself being that close to you. You'll just have to give yourself some relief."
I said that last part without wanting to. I was doing everything in my power to seem remorseful, badly wanting her... charms. The little dig just slipped out.
"Come on, baby," she cooed. "I'm clean, and we didn't have intercourse tonight. If you're that worried, we can just cuddle. I won't like it, but I understand."
She didn't understand at all, and I intended to keep it that way. "No, I'm sorry baby," I replied sadly, acting a bit unsure. "I can't take the risk. You'd be totally beside yourself too, if I caught something. I know you. You'd feel very guilty and it might affect your performance."
She tried to act caring, thoughtful, and accommodating. Now that I knew some of what my wife was really like, it made me sick. I walked over to her, forcing myself to give her a tender hug, and apologized again. Kelly gave me an 'I'm so sad' look and turned towards our bedroom - her bedroom.
I did go to the clinic the next day, and not to our primary doctor. I told them to take their time getting back to me, which got me a curious look from the doc. Then I set about doing all the things I suspect most husbands do after learning their wife is a liar and a cheater. I moved some money. I took some savings because I planned on getting an apartment as soon as possible. I talked to three solicitors and picked the one I was most comfortable with, making an appointment for two days later. We'd been married long enough that she'd get half, regardless of what she'd done.
A plan was starting to formulate, though. I called a friend of mine from an entertainment rag and invited him to lunch.
I also called Sarah and told her I needed seven tickets for Friday before closing night. She took care of that and also invited me to coffee the following night. I told her I was grateful and wanted to meet with her, but we had to wait until Thursday night when Kelly would be acting, or fucking her boyfriend. She understood.
My week was incredibly busy. I was happy that Kelly said she had to go to the theatre that night. It meant I only had to bugger off sex on Tuesday and Wednesday. She'd have to find satisfaction with her filthy bloke.
Jonathan Wilkes was a writer for "The Daily Gazette," an entertainment magazine with a medium-high following. Wilkes also had his own blog, and the story I was about to relate to him would ensure his number of followers would likely double overnight.
"Hey up, Peter," he said convivially as I sat down. "Alright?"
I greeted him in return, ordered a beverage, and started in on my tale of woe. Jonathan listened very well. He didn't say a word until I finished.
"Wicked," he said as much to himself as me. "How are you going to handle this dodgy shit?"
"The more time I have to think," I replied, "the more I want to divorce the slag. I have a lot of circumstantial evidence, but no concrete proof that she's been seeing this fucker for a long time. I need your help to get some level of revenge. I'll give you the exclusive if you'll take it."
Jonathan sat looking intently into my face. I think he was trying to decide if I was all in or not.
"I'm in," he announced. "Tell me your plan."
We left, after he bought my meal, and listened to what I wanted to do. The smirk he wore as I told him, said that he liked my idea. Now I had to play a waiting game. We'd see who the better actor was.
Kelly wanted to cuddle on the sofa Tuesday and Wednesday. I thought I pulled that off pretty effortlessly. After all, we were watching the telly and only conversing during the commercials. When I decided I was tired and announced I was going to bed, Kelly used her sex appeal to try and persuade me to come to our old bed and mess around.
"Bloody hell, Kelly," I said with an edge to my voice. "Stop being such a tease. That's fucking miserable of you. You know how much I love and want sex. This is your fault, for not being careful in the first place. Goodnight."
Kelly looked distraught. I'd never turned her down for sex, not even once. I guess she thought I was playing about the STDs. She didn't bother the following night.
At seven-thirty, I was sitting in the same café with Sarah's drink already bought and paid for, when she arrived. She came straight to me and kissed me on the cheek. Sarah seemed far less nervous than the first time we went for coffee.
"How are you feeling?" she asked genuinely.
"Well," I opined, "my doctor says I'm going to make it, and my stockbroker agrees." My attempt at humor fell flat with her.
"You know what I mean," she smiled. "I've been worried about you. I know you're hurting terribly."
It felt immediately great to have someone in my corner. The truth was I'd been hurting, and feeling betrayed and abandoned for the last five days, and when I wasn't planning so sort of revenge, I was feeling empty and viciously shat upon.
"I'm doing as well as can be expected," I told her honestly. "I've been making some plans and acting on them," I told Sarah what I'd been up to the previous few days. When I told her about my apartment hunting, she finally said something.
"You can stay with me," she said entirely too quickly. Her face got slightly red realizing what she'd said and implied. "I mean, you know, until you can find something and get settled. I don't have a roommate. At least think about it."
I nodded to quell her embarrassment. "So, you have some information for me, I suspect," I said.
Taking a sip of her coffee, Sarah began. "Yes. Before I go into the box office, I help as a stagehand, doing set up. While backstage, I heard Kings... Bedford and your wife talking. You aren't going to like it."
She paused momentarily. "I heard the middle of a conversation, where your wife was telling him, that she was worried about you. She told him that you've done a one-eighty from your usual. That you're now 'paying attention to details,' I think is how she put it. She told him they would need to cool it for a while until she could get you back into the fold, or quell whatever was bothering you. That last part was exactly how she said it."
"Does it seem to you," I stopped for a minute, swallowing back the lump in my throat. "That they have been... intimate, before the play? Or any other time, I guess."
"That's hard to say," she admitted. "I only heard that one brief discussion, but as a woman, and crikey, as a human, I'd believe they have cheated together, either off stage or at some time in the past. That's how it sounded to me. Otherwise, why say cool it?"
I agreed. We talked about a few other things, and I got to hear some of Sarah's history. We didn't talk further about me. We said our goodnights, and I promised to consider her offer, at least temporarily.
It would be several weeks until the first of April when I'd be able to move into anything I found. I could move into her spare room for the second part of my plan, while actively looking for my own place.
She was right, in her assessment. I wished she wasn't. Kelly and I had been a good team, or at least I thought so. But the other nagging thoughts of the past week were recurring. Kelly had a drive to do things. She was a go-getter. She'd also never criticized me for not being one. But as time had gone on, and now that I was alert, it dawned on me that Kelly could easily see herself as the person in control of our relationship.
I was a stay-at-home writer. She was a big-shot stock broker, who'd climbed a male-driven ladder to get where she wanted to go. I always respected and complimented her drive. That was sincere. But what did I really know about that high-paced job of hers that was two hours away? What did I know about the long hours? Could she possibly think so little of me, that she considered me her unwilling cuckold? Did she see herself as the authority figure in our marriage? It sure did seem that way.
I thought about possible missed signals since she'd left that world and gotten a job closer to home. In my cloud of security, I'd always seen the goal as setting ourselves up financially. Still, I couldn't say that Kelly had acted any differently once that move was made. She'd always been and still was very attentive to me - in all ways. That was what made me challenge my thinking. I had to remember, no matter the motivation, Kelly had crossed a line, and she seemed incapable of understanding where she'd crossed it, let alone my feelings. Or she was simply a liar and a cheat.
That night I was in bed when Kelly came home. I'd forgotten to ask Sarah to keep me posted on the exact times the play let out, so I could keep track of any late nights. She found me with the lights off, and as far as she knew, I was asleep.
"Nothing happened tonight," she said to my back at the door frame and then turned to go to her bed.
In the morning, Kelly was up before me, and when I stumbled downstairs, she had a cup of coffee ready for me. She didn't look like she got much sleep.
"Did you go get your tests?" she asked, in an irritated tone. I nodded.
"Well?" she was even angrier that I didn't answer her.
"Yeah," I said nonchalantly. "They said it might take a few weeks. They're pretty backed up."
I could see the wheels spinning. The last time we'd discussed this, I'd acted like I couldn't go without sex for long and admonished her for teasing. Now, I was behaving differently.
"So can you at least move back into our bed?" she sounded desperate. "I hate sleeping alone."
"I suppose," I used the same drab tone. "If you promise not to get frisky."
Desperate moved on to distraught. "Of course," she said with a squeak in her voice. "You had better be ready for one bloody hell of a randy wife when those tests come back."
I smiled. I was acting. I didn't want to smile. I wanted to hit her, or just leave. I'd have to keep this up for three more weeks.
The next night she got home late. I knew because I'd asked Sarah to text me when patrons started leaving the theatre. There were thirty minutes unaccounted for. I was in our bed, with the lights off and faking sleep. Kelly went into the bathroom, and then the shower. That would have been unusual before she signed on for that bloody play.
When she slid into bed, Kelly cuddled up to my back. I tried to control my breathing. She reached around my waist and started rubbing my cock. My tallywhacker wasn't responding or acting. That was good. I stirred, as if waking. I turned towards my wife and gave her a playful kiss on the nose.
"How was your night?" I asked.
"Good," she played it simple. "I thought I'd give my man a little gift - a little bit of relief for being such an understanding husband." Damn, she was good.
"I'm pretty beat," I lied. "Plus I got a bad headache earlier from too much time staring at my screen. I had to pop a few Ibuprofen. We can give it a shot."
Her hand hadn't moved during the exchange, and neither had my parsnip. She rubbed my balls, squeezing them a bit too tight for my liking, before going back to stroking the shaft. Then she sighed and removed her hand.
"You're going to need to get your head out of your arse," she admonished, "or start talking to me about what's really going on with you. I'm doing everything to prove my love to you, and, no, I haven't let Kinsley have sex with me on stage. But I'm horny as all get out, and this is silly. That's me being kind with my words."
"Sorry," I squawked, "geez, I'm not doing anything wrong. He's just not cooperating. Goodnight."
I rolled over and pretended to go back to sleep. Several minutes later, I thought I could hear Kelly crying. She was trying to hide it. I guess I'd hurt her fragile ego.
The next morning, my wife asked if I had anything I wanted to talk about. I told her I was sorry about the night before, and that I had had a piss poor day, plus the headache. She asked if she could get me off when she got home that night, and maybe I could at least use my fingers on her. That's when I ran out of excuses.
"I'm sorry, babe," I said solemnly. "With all what's going on with us, I forgot to mention that I'm leaving for four days to meet with my publisher in London. He has a three-book proposal for me and wanted to discuss the details in person."
She didn't look like she believed me. Funny thing, trust is.
"You're leaving on a Saturday?" she asked suspiciously. "I can't remember that ever happening before."
"You're right, baby," I said. "I can't remember a time that they asked me to come on the weekend. I suppose they may want to wine and dine me, and I know for sure we have a meeting on Monday morning. Sorry, I forgot."
Kelly looked stressed the rest of the day. She was fighting an inner battle to stay clear of me while wanting to salve her curiosity. I packed a bag, and my toiletries, and kissed my wife goodbye. A long deep kiss, intended to show my love and remorse, a promise to see her Tuesday night and that I'd call if she wanted.
When I pulled out of my street I called Sarah. She seemed pretty excited and told me to come over straight away. We talked about what had happened, and she helped get me set up in her spare bedroom. When she got home from the theatre that night, she wasted no time trying to seduce me.
"I like you, Sarah," I began in a serious tone. "Listen, I may even have started developing some feelings for you. I'm not sure if it's the same for you, or if this is just casual, but I'm not in a position to act on it. I'm still married, with plenty on my mind. I'm also a married bloke who may have gotten an STD from my wife, and I certainly don't want to pass it on to you."
Sarah smiled, even though I could see the disappointment behind her eyes. "I know, and I get it," she said. "I do like you, too. I feel bad for what you're going through."
"Okay," I told her, "then that's a start. Let's get to know each other. Enjoy each other's company, and then see how that goes. I still have to get some evidence, and I still have to figure out how to cohabitate with my wife for at least two more weeks. I'll get my test results on Tuesday. I'd love to get to know you better if you're interested in that."
Sarah played it close to the cuff. I could tell she was raring to go and wanted sex with me. I had been honest at least, and the last thing I wanted was to jump into something prematurely or on a rebound. That wouldn't bode well for a future relationship with Sarah if that was even in the cards.
Jonathan called me Sunday night, right after the show ended. He was anxious to get me up to date on his activities.
"I've been in the fifth row," he exclaimed, "about where you sat." He'd explained at our meeting that he could film from there with a telescopic lens because the actors would have a hard time seeing him with the stage lights. The hard part would be during the strip tease scene when the stage lights dimmed.
"Kelly and Bedford have been randy, but not done the deed... that is until tonight. I have to go through my film, but I'm quite positive that I have proof of penetration. Sorry, mate."
We talked about my cover story, and Jonathan offered to scope out our home on Monday and Tuesday night, just in case.
"I feel like I should hire a private dick," I said. "You know, to make it legit."
"No way!" he replied. "I'll save you the money. You'd be helping me too. If I can get proof outside the theatre it will provide more credence to my story."
Tuesday morning was a double whammy for me, and the end of my marriage. The doctor's office called and told me I had a mild case of chlamydia. The office nurse provided a prescription, and as per law, I had to tell her whom I'd had sex with. I don't think she believed me when I told her, 'just my wife.'
Jonathan called several minutes after the first call.
"I'm sorry to keep bearing bad news for you," he told me sincerely. "They didn't have sex on stage Sunday. They didn't get together afterward either. But last night, Kingsley arrived around eight in the evening, and he spent the night. I didn't try to sneak around your home and get pictures of the bastard giving it to the wife, but I do have a photo from your front porch when he arrived. Kelly gave him a big sloppy kiss in the doorway."
"Alright, I guess," I replied somberly. "Then that's enough. Are you going to continue going to the show?"
"Yes," he stated. "I'd like to catch a few more performances where they knock off. Sorry, bloody hell."
Tuesday I came home a few hours early. Kelly was excited to see me until she saw my face.
"What's wrong, baby?" She asked very concerned. "You look like shit."
"Yeah," I said, purposefully trying to hold back my rage. "That's the thing. You and your lover gave me Chlamydia. I'm on meds that I just picked up. I had to tell them who I got it from, so you should be expecting a call very soon."
Kelly looked shocked, and then she looked like she didn't believe me. "That's impossible," she murmured. "He was only inside me the once."
"Well," I said sarcastically, "twice - by your own admission."
She had at least enough character to look away. I told her I'd already booked a room for the next few nights. Kelly became frantic at hearing that.
"No, baby," she cried out. "I'm sorry. I'm so, so sorry. I could have never imagined. Please don't go. We need to talk about this. Leaving won't solve anything."
"It will for me," I said sternly. "I can't be around you right now."
"Why?" she asked with a sideways tilt of her head. "That bastard infected me too. We're both victims in this."
"No, Kelly," I told her, "you're the victim. I'm just collateral damage." I picked up an empty glass from the sink and threw it against the kitchen wall for effect. Kelly had never seen me act out in anger.
"Damn, you!" I screamed. Then I left - probably for the last time.
Sarah was surprised to see me when she walked in from a night out with friends. I brought her up to speed on what had transpired. She came over and hugged me. That simple act caused the waterworks from me, quite unexpectedly. Sarah held me tight for a long time. Then she giggled, and I pulled back to see what could be funny.
"It's a good thing we didn't shag!" she said, now laughing.
On Thursday, Sarah came home excited to tell me about her night. It seemed the mood on stage that afternoon was subdued. Kelly and Bedford barely said two words to each other.
They did their run-through, with both in their underwear. I found it odd that they were still rehearsing what with doing a show five nights per week. The director was yelling at everyone. The producer was pissed. He asked Sarah to go to the local convenience/ petrol station and had her buy one box of every kind of condom they had. She felt like they were trying to find the thinnest and most transparent rubber they could.
So the director wasn't willing to back off the realism, and neither was my wife and her lover, even with VD plaguing them. The show must go on, I supposed.
That night, I slept in bed with Sarah. We both wore sleeping clothes. I absolutely needed the cuddle. I spent the weekend at Sarah's home, and she had it planned like I was a close relative from some other country. By the time Sarah had to go to the theatre on Saturday, I felt like a right-fit tourist.
Kelly started calling and texting on Sunday. That was exactly two weeks from the closing night. A night I planned to fully impact, and possibly put a stop to, altogether. She wanted to meet on Monday or Tuesday so we could talk. She wanted us to get everything out into the open so that I would move back home, and so we could start getting past the play, and I guess the STD. She wanted to hit the ground running once the program ended. Fat bloody chance of that.
Kelly and I met at the predetermined time on Tuesday afternoon. She looked frazzled, and I kept practicing my acting career, being casual and carefree. At first, my wife mistook this as a sign I'd open to moving home. She began talking a mile-a-minute about all the things she'd done - and not done - at the theatre. She told me how mad she'd gotten about the STD, and what she'd told the director and Kingsley. How things were going to go the way she wanted from now on until the play ended, or else. It was clear to me that she was making things up as she went along. I knew she was full of shit.
Finally, she wanted to know when I would move home. That look of hers wasn't full of anticipation, but more like she was giving me a warning or ultimatum. I was unmoved.
"I'm not sure, Kelly," I told her matter-of-factly. I leaned forward on my elbows in a more aggressive posture. "I'm pretty sure this three-book deal is going through. I've been using the extra time alone and my fucked up feelings about all this to get a head start. I'm plowing through my outlines at a pretty good clip. I think we should wait until after the production ends before we make any decisions."
Kelly also leaned forward. The look on her face was so easy to spot. For the first time, I finally realized how Kelly had been manipulating me, and for the last several years. Her expression, her posture, was so familiar, I could almost mimic what was coming next. She really did mistake my kindness for weakness. That very rapidly angered me.
"Don't, Kelly," I warned her. "This isn't a negotiation. I'm working. I'm doing this for me - maybe even for us - if we can rebound from this fucking play."
Kelly sat stunned. I wasn't sure if it was my words, or that I'd just shut her down. Then a flash of brilliance crossed her face.
"You aren't fucking someone else?" she inquired with a sharp edge. "Are you?"
"Piss off, Kelly," I told her. "Don't be a fucking twit. Wait a tick - that might not be a bad idea. But I'm still married, so if I decide that's the best way to get over this, I'll make sure you know exactly what I'm up to. That would only be fair."
Our conversation disintegrated from there. Kelly called me a few names. I smiled - or smirked back - and told her she wasn't helping herself. I finally suggested that we stop, before one of us said something that couldn't be undone. I calmly reiterated that I wasn't screwing someone else. And finally, I told her, she should do some soul-searching before the next time we saw each other. She didn't like being told anything but caught herself several times before going off on me. I tossed some money on the table and told her I'd be in touch. I felt pretty good about myself, and where this was ultimately going to end up.
The next ten days flew by.
Kelly occasionally called, or texted - she was mostly checking in with me. I'd decided she'd finally figured out that our marriage was in trouble and she was no longer in charge. I'd had my attorney finalize the divorce documents. One set was set up as 'irreconcilable differences.' The other was for adultery and included the photos Jonathan had been taking all month. I also had the attorney prepare a suit against the performance company, and the director himself. I never bothered to read that document because I knew, as did my solicitor, it would never grow legs. It was designed for maximum exposure and embarrassment.
Sarah and I grew closer over that time, but I was of the mind that a rebound relationship wasn't going to work for me. She would occasionally catch a glimpse of my indifference, and I knew it saddened her. She never brought it up though.
I'd called Kelly's parents and made a big deal out of getting tickets for the Friday before closing night. When I called her brother, Nigel, to invite him and his wife, Nigel asked if they could bring their teenage daughters. I laughed so hard, I almost choked on my coffee. I told him gently, that the play was for adults only.
Jonathan and I had lunch one more time on the Monday of the closing week, so we could compare notes. Kelly hadn't had sex with Bedford every time they performed, but even as late as the previous night, she'd allowed him to 'accidentally slip into her vagina.' Damned slag, I thought.
"Peter," he said more somberly. "I'll need you to read this report if I'm to publish it on Friday at midnight. I've found some other things - going back into her past. I need you to know so there aren't any hard feelings."
"No thanks," I told Jonathan. "Just tell me. I don't need any more gory details."
"Okay," he sighed. "I found pictures of them, six months before the first ones, at some gala. They were dancing, and I have one of them in a very sensuous - sorry - embrace. They were kissing."
"It's your story, Jonathan," I said with apathy. "After she brought him into our home, that was the end of that. What she did in the past is only icing on the cake. Just promise me you're going for maximum pain."
Kelly called me on Wednesday, to ask me to dinner. I thought about continuing to perfect my acting skills, but there was no real point. I told her I wasn't trying to be a bastard, but I was on a roll to get three outlines prepared for the publisher.
She told me she expected - then she changed her verbiage to hoped - I'd come back home on Sunday night at the latest, so we could start getting back on track. I told her I forgot to take my pills a few days in a row, so even if I did come home, we wouldn't be having sex until my doctor gave the all-clear.
Sarah told me that Thursday night, all the happiness had been zapped out of the company, actors and crew alike, and everyone was anxious for the show to end. They had no idea.
The lady at the bank gave me a sorrowful look, as she helped me cash out sixty-five percent of our checking and savings account. It was almost a foregone conclusion that Kelly had at least one 'nest egg' account from her brokerage days, hence the sixty-five. I'd guessed the young woman had dealt with that sort of thing before.
She was speaking to my back, offering some trinkets and special offers if I'd only open my new account with them.
It was a good start to a Friday morning and a weekend that was sure to create uproar.
Friday night, I waited at the box office for all my guests which included Kelly's parents, her brother and sister-in-law, and two friends from her work. I'd sworn them all to secrecy under the guise of a surprise.
We hit the bar, and I made a big deal of buying all their drinks. I was pretty sure they were going to need them. Just as the house lights flickered, I ushered them to the fifth row, and sat in the closest aisle set, near her friends. I certainly didn't want to be seated near her family when the strip scene began.
When Kingsley/ Bedford began diddling Kelly's pussy on their stage bed, I saw Kelly's father looking like he was going to kill... somebody. That somebody could have included me. Shock and awe followed as my wife's friends and family heard her groaning through an orgasm, with some bloke they'd never met, laying atop her naked form, and rutting between her legs.
All of them turned to me in unison. I simply shrugged. Kelly's dad took her mum by the hand and escorted her out, and up the aisle while the happy couple were sitting and doing their monologue at the end. The look he gave me, told me he wasn't leaving the building without an explanation. Her friends gave me the stink eye, seemingly having figured out what I'd done. I leaned in close to the friend who sat next to me, and told her Kelly had been shagging this guy behind my back for a long time. We'd see how long it took for that revelation to get around the office. Her sibling and his wife didn't seem to know what to think.
When I got to the lobby, Kelly's father was right there where I expected him to be.
"Why would you put my wife through that?" he asked, rage boiling over.
"Because," I replied quickly, "I needed you all to see that with your own eyes. I'm not going to be made the bad guy, or played as the fool, later on. You'll understand when you read tomorrow's Gazette."
With that, I walked away. It was highly likely I'd never see my in-laws again.
I was barely into my new apartment door when my phone started blowing up, all calls from Kelly. I let them go to voicemail, and finally, after ten minutes, I received the first of many texts:
What the hell were you thinking inviting them here? My mother is heartbroken. My dad is royally pissed. Call me!
The only thing I texted to her said to read tomorrow's Gazette, and then I turned off my phone.
I was going to spend an uninterrupted night catching up on some much-needed sleep. The next day would be hard, but it would also be the first day of my new life.
Epilogue:
The shit did indeed hit the fan on Saturday morning. I sat in my new place - one Kelly had no idea about, sipping my tea and reading the Gazette.
The story told the sordid tale of my wife, Kelly, and her antics with Miles Bedford, going back at least five years. The best part, to me, was that Jonathan left a lot to the imagination. The court of public opinion, was in the end, the very best medicine we could force down Kelly's throat.
Jonathan went from a few pictures and some obvious speculation, to iron-clad facts about the play. How often they had boinked, the little tender touches and caresses on stage before the show. Anyone who read the piece would see Kelly as a self-centered cheating bitch.
The company and the director were demonized as well. It was implied that because Miles and the director were Kelly's customers at the brokerage, they may have been a 'party of three.' In any event, there would be a public outcry in our medium-sized community, because people were actually shagging on stage.
When I turned my phone back on, I saw not one new text or voicemail from my wayward wife. That meant I wasn't as good an actor as I'd thought, or she was too busy fielding questions and accusations.
I spoke to Sarah in the early afternoon. She was so sweet, asking if I was going to be alright. I told her my mind had been made up much earlier, and I couldn't wait to spend some time with her after all this was over.
Kelly was served with a divorce petition in her dressing room, just half an hour before act one.
The director was also served at the same time. Needless to say, Saturday night's show was a bust. There were many forgotten lines and problems with the lighting. In the only scene that came naturally for my wife and Miles Bedford, some of the audience had brought rotten fruit and veggies to toss at them during their lovemaking.
Sunday night's performance - closing night - was canceled. All the ticket holders would need to be refunded.
Kelly called me early Sunday, crying. I took the call, and not because I was some stellar guy either. I needed to get the whole sordid thing over with. She wanted to meet me on Monday morning at our favorite little breakfast café.
My soon-to-be ex-wife didn't stand to greet me when I arrived, so I just sat down, with my coffee. She wouldn't even look at me for several seconds, and then sheepishly made eye contact.
"Why?" she asked, trying to control her voice. "Why do all this? Please, come home and let me explain. We can get past this."
I held back a chuckle. "Really?" I answered with a question. "Please, explain how we do that."
"Well, first," she sat up taller. "I love you. That's never changed. What I did - before - with him, had nothing to do with my feelings for you. I never took anything away from you. In fact, I only provided you with more... of everything. I know how it sounds, but honestly, I gave you even more of myself, just like during the play."
Kelly, come on," I replied with a smirk she hated. "Maybe you can claim that, as long as your stupid husband never found out. Having it off with him and then coming home to your cuckold, offering me the wet deck in reward, or to salve your guilty feelings. Fine. That only works, love, until I find out. Hear me good; once it's all out from below the sheet, men don't take kindly to being stripped of their pride, or their respect. That's when the consequences start racking up."
Kelly knew me well after all these years of marriage. She changed tactics, as she changed her posture.
"You took a lot of my... our money," she accused. "I want it put back into our joint account - today."
I shook my head. "That's not going to happen. I know about your silent little nest egg." I didn't have proof, but Kelly fell for it. It was clear in her eyes. We were finally in the negotiation phase.
"I need some of that money," she pleaded. "I'm going to have to start all over. Your shenanigans will surely get me sacked from my job, you know. How am I going to afford the house?"
"You're still getting half our assets and money," I told her sternly. "You just won't be able to keep the hidden money for yourself. That's just another thing you should have told me about."
Kelly looked down at her coffee, forlorn. "I thought you were good." She said quietly and to herself. Then another thought came to her and she sat up with a start glaring at me. "You've ruined me. This took planning. You probably hired that hack journalist. You've been lying to me."
"Surely you understand," I said with a wide smile. "It was only acting." I stood and left straight away.
My solicitor called two days later. Kelly had hired a solicitor, and she'd signed the petition. She told her guy to have me sell the house and give him a check for half the proceeds. My wife fled back to the city of her old job. Unfortunately for her, Bronson, LLC had standards and morals due to its size. I guessed it didn't matter that she was previously screwing at least one of their clients. They would not hire her back. I'm told by Jonathan, that Kelly works for a smaller brokerage just outside of London.
As for me, well, Sarah and I had sex not even one week after my last meeting with Kelly. We went at it pretty regularly for a month, but we couldn't seem to find the romance in it all. We mutually agreed to go our separate ways, within two months. There had just been something missing.
Three months after my divorce was finalized, and eight months after Sarah and I split, she appeared on my doorstep one day.
"I miss you, Peter," she told me. "I'm wondering if you're seeing anyone and if you might want to give it another go?"
I quickly found that the thing that was holding me back had been me. I wasn't ready then for another relationship, but this time around, well!
Sarah and I ended up living a long and loving life together, and we spent our time just about anywhere except the theatre.
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Posted on : Mar 29, 2025
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