Hi everyone reading, I still think of myself a straight guy with normal interests,

but

At some point in my life when watching regular porn I got curious and started to look for more and more hardcore things. My story with sissy obsession started funnily with a photo of Natalie Mars in Wendys outfit. 

  

I am attracted to goth/alternative girls so i wanted to find out who this person was and to my surprise its a guy. I could not believe that a guy could be so hot. This is where I learned about sissies, traps, shemales, etc and got hooked on. I remember also surfing 4chan where gif image board was flooded with sissy gifs, captions and videos. I envied their looks, attention and pleasure they got from all of the horny guys. The more I watched the more I started to imagine myself in their position, on my knees, on all fours, getting spitroasted, fucked with cum still on my face.

This has been going on for 8 years now, I've been on a number of different blogs, sites and apps talking with people but too scared for a meetup. Thats where my sauna blog comes in, unaccounted stranger who knew exactly what he was there for. 

I came to the conclusion that men are not equal, some fuck and some willingly take the position of a woman to pleasure the other. On bdsmlr one account called "thebull" made lots of posts describing him turning men into faggots. He goes in detail on how natural it is for sissies to want and submit as well as how getting bred by a guy changes Your mentality, how his cum gets absorbed by Your body. 

I think that i am in the latter group, wanting to get dominated, name called, owned, held down, but as of now I am still a little scared to take a plunge and fulfill my needs. Untill then I will keep on growing my favourite galleries and talking to people about this things.

Thanks for reading.