Josh would be asleep. Itd be late at night. Id hop on sniffies or grindr and id instantly be hit up by a few guys that were looking to play. Being a smoker, it wasnt unusual id leave the apartment to go smoke, so I had a great excuse if I got back from hooking up with someone and my boyfriend was awake asking where I was coming from.

At the top of the stairs of my apartment complex was a really great spot to meet guys. Id have them text me when they were up there and ready. Itd take me two minutes to go out and meet them. Id sneak out while my boyfriend was asleep, and id turn into the dirtiest whore imaginable. Id chug piss, id let guys beat me, id suck off old men, everybody fucked me raw.