What can i say here i am again laying in bed at 3am my brain is in overdrive it seems like every little thing becomes a bid thing to me and my brain goes crazy sometimes i feel like im just a toy i get played with and when there finished i end up alone in my bed earlyer tonight i met up with dad in the basement after mom was assleep i gave him a blowjob and when he was finished he just said go to bed and get some sleep i cant help but feel empty and lonly inside as i lay down in my bed alone .i tell you being 18 is so crazy most times i have no idea if im comming or going .Things where easyer before like when i first saw my dad in the laundry room smelling my dirty panties i tell you that was a shock to see .SAll i saw was my dad standing there at the washing machine with my dirty panties in his face smelling them i was so confused by it all .

I stood there quietly just waching my dad as he took deep smells of the crotch then to my amazement i wached as he took out his hard cock and began to slowly stroke it i looked as his hand went along his cock as he held my panties on his face i was frozen in place and couldent look away then he took my panties and placed them onto his cock and with just a few more strokes i wached as he wraped then around his cock and with just a few more strokes i could see him making a wet spot in them it grew as he let more out i cant even put into words how it made me feel to see that i just remember going to bed with so many questions in my head like /why did daddy do that and the big question was did daddy like me that way or was it ust the panties he liked .

Shortly after i began to leave different panties in the laundry basket i would take a pair i wanted him to play with and rub them along my pussy then place them into the laundry just the thought of my dad smelling them and touching them drove me insane .There was this one time i went shopping with mom and i needed some new panties before then all but one pair where cotten and as we shoped around my mom was looking for panties for me and i was thinking more of dad and what he would like //WOW now that i think about it i was a real daddys girl //I wanted something sexy for dad to play with  and i finally found some silky ones i knew my dad would like i was so excited to put them on and get them dirty so i could put them into the laundtry for him ,I know it sounds stupid but it meant so much to me to be abel to make my dad happy and when i was in my room getting my panties ready it became a big thing for me i would put out the panties on my bed then pic one i would put them on and rub my pussy and ass making sure i got them realy dirty i would even place the crotch into my pussy some nights i went for over a hour i loved the way it made me feel just knowing my dad was going to play with them shortly after .

Me and my dad have always been close and i would sit on his lap on the couch or at the kitchen tabel and we would serf the web on his laptop we would just look at vids and whatever we saw and this one night i was sitting there with him in my pink nightie and my new red silky panties and at that time silk panties where new to me and i wasent used to the way they felt you know all sliperty and all down there well as i was sittling there on my dads lap sideways on the couch and we where on his laptop i was in controle of the laptop and just looking at random stuff when i came upon this site and i clicked on it and to my surprise it was a porn site and the first thing i looked at was this teen girl with a older man and she was touching his cock my dad said nothing to me so i kept looking as the girl put his cock into her mouth me and dad sat there together and just wached porn together for the first time it became one of those things we did but never talked about it .

After a week or so it became porn time and we would wach porn vids together as i sat there on his lap i would never talk about the hard thing under that kept poking me in the butt i knew what it was but never said anything to him about it .it just seemed natural to sit there with dad looking at porn neather one of us thought of it as wierd or wrong .this one night i had on my pink nighty and new silky panties and we where looking at some new vids but my dad seemed more into my panties than anything els i could see his eyes looking between my legs as i sat there sideways on his lap it was funny how my dad would grab my hair and hold it tightly when he saw a vidio of some guy doing the same to a young girl on the laptop there where even time when he would move my head back and forth like i was sucking his cock im not sure if he did it on purpose or he just did it without knowing it .All i knew at the time was dad began to look at me and not the vidio he would look between my legs for long periods of time so i began to sit with my legs open so he could see better .As time went by i became more open about my body and showing it to my dad i would do little things like lifting my nightie up when i sat down on his lap so he could see my panties better or bending over in front of him there was something so amazing about how i felt when my dad looked at me the look in his eyes when he saw my panty coverd ass it made me feel grown up and sexy i know it sounds crazy but to me it was everything to have a grown man look at me in that way was so insane i mean to me when i looked in the mirror all i saw was this flat chested girl with pimples on her face but when i looked at dads eyes as he looked at me i was a beutifull and sexy girl and i loved that feeling .

When mom went to grandmas for the weekend thats when me and dad had fun i would wear my short skirts and nighties with my silky panties under at the time i had no idea what i was doing to my dad i just knew i was showing off and getting as many lookes from him as i could and we became closer than ever .This one night we where play fighting on the couch i was in my nightie and red panties i loved how dad would let me pin him down and let me win i would look for ways to feel his crotch and see if his cock was hard and if i could end up with my ass in his face that was even better .I knew my dad would let me jump on him and hold him down just so he could feel me and see up my nightie and i went along with it doing just what he liked This one time i ended on top of dad on the floor sitting on his cock facing him i held his hands down like i was pining him down and he just layed there letting me do my thing he had on his pajama pants and i could feel hiis hard cock press onto my pussy as my nightie went up and it ended up on my panties i held my dads hands down as his cock pressed onto my pussy this was the first time i truly felt my dads cock and how big and hard it was oh sure i felt it before under me but always over my nightie and i usualy was sitting sideways but this time it was right between my legs and pressing onto my pussy and even though he had on pajamas i could feel it fully .Dad pretended to try to move me off him but i could tell he wasent trying hard at all and every time he moved it gave me a chance to move my hips back and forth rubbing his cock between my legs i leaned over holding his hands down and my hair went down to the floor so all i could see was his face i looked at him and smiled and jentaly moved my hips back and forth dad looked at me and i looked back ,that was the first time i let him know i knew what was in his pants and i was curiouse about it .

Dad let me sit there for a few minutes then he grabed me and moved me off he jumped up and sat back down on the couch he had this look on his face like he just saw a ghost or something now that in 18 and a little bit smarter i know why he did that but at the time i was confused i mean one second hes playing then hes acting like a drown up what the hell ; i get it now you see before that moment i was his little girl that he looked at and fantasized about the one he could see but not touch and up to then things never went over the line it just seemed inocent nothing more i mean we never talked about the things we did together like me showing him my panties or anything like that i thought of it as fun but for those few seconds as i felt his cock between my legs and i looked down at him i think he could tell the difference in my smile and without knowing it i showed my dad i liked the way his cock felt and i went over the line and scared the hell out of my dad .

I think thats when my dad began to realize that every thing he did up to then realy materd and his little girl was growing up and realizing that daddy was also a man ;My dad told me that it took all his strength not to touch me the wrong way back then as we played together and even though he fantasized all the time about me he was so scared to go over the line he said there is a big difference between thinking about it and doing it my dad told me that he had a very hard time when it came to me and finally touching his cock he knew it was wrong but he wanted us to be close and let me explore and when it finaly hapend he said his brain was telling him to stop but he couldent because my hand felt so good on his bare cock it took my dad a long time to cum the first time because his head was all over the place and he was fighting with himself half of him was loving the feeling of his little girl touching his hard cock and the other half was telling him it was so wrong but after a long time his cock gave in and i wached my dad blow his load for the first time