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Here's why I'm here: I'm a 52 year old wife, quite happy in my married life. I'm by nature shy and don't take the initiative. My hubby loves photography and has taken many pictures of me over the years. He is turned on by the thought of me enhancing my sexuality online and widening my horizons. Why wouldn't he? He does get fringe benefits. I keep my online activity private from him and he does not monitor. He has given me all the pictures he ever took and told me to use them in any way I see fit but never to cam live or to voice.
I experimented with online and I found roleplay with visuals to be very exciting, I'm looking for more. I know I respond to a man who is very assertive and knows what he wants. He must want to control me online. I, in turn, am aroused by the control he gradually exerts over me. He will introduce me to other sites, other men, making me do and show things online I would never dare in real life. Our relationship will happen on the screen. I'm not interested in becoming someone's online sub and taking off my panties, kneeling in front of him etc, because that's just cyber. I could read an erotic novel if I wanted that. I need to do things online, using my many visuals to support whatever scenario we work out. But first you must establish your control. Themes that arouse me would involve your control, my vulnerability online, exposure or threat of.... Ideally that would involve your use of join.me or Anydesk or a similar program, not endless cyber chat.
Recently I've found that being exposed in front of the internet is both terrifying and extremely arousing. The idea that anyone - anyone! - could see me makes me anxious but I am finding it addictive. The best is when it happens in front of me. Right in front of me. I can see my pictures - any of them - and my other details being posted. I don't want permanent exposure, and I get nervous once with large groups but once I'm in, I can't stop. I want to lose control. To be outed is the worst and best thing at the same time. Thinnking about the power that a man has over me once he has my pictures and details is a kind of drug... I am an addict
I've noticed that as with all addictions, I want more now. Things that I wouldn't do I have been persuaded to do and now even those things no longer make me lose control. Gone are the days that uploading a facepic would send me over the edge. Now I need to see ever more risky scenarios. I wonder if maybe I should stop?
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