i just want to ro start by saying this just me trying to figure out some things and trying by writing it down.  that being said i can rember trying my finger in my ass when i was 15 years old i can remember  thinking i have never tried and i wonder what it feels like to put something in there but once it was in there it was like oh yea that had something there before but why do i know that feeling

so i don't know if it is a memory or a fantsy i can definitely remember some of  this as happening but when i thunk back i didn't remember stopping that night.  

this is memory. back when i played dick games with my cousin we had agreed that the ine in top was the "woman" as all the movies we had seen depicted the woman on top.   my cousin did not want to be the girl knowing this when getting ready for the sleep over i brought a pair if my moms pink panties and a bra that i wanted to wear to look more like a girl.  

later that night we setup a bed for me in the floor. after a little while of laying in bed i got out and climbed into my  cousins bed and asked if we could play he said that i would have to be the girl i said ok and took off my pajama pants to show the pink panties i was wearing.  he pulled down his tightie whities and then i started to lick and suck on his dick.  then i climbed in top and grunded his dick on my taint so i could kiss him. then i rember his little brother  poked his over the edge of the bunk and asked us what was for ng on. i tell him whats happening and he says he wants to play too that he and Chad have played thst game.  with me sitting with my older cousins dick pressed into my taint i looked at gim and said let him join us please.

that is where my memory  ends i can rember that we had played games before  and got to dry orgasms but i dont remember if we did that night or not

now i dint know if the rest ofthis is fantasy or a blocked memory but hear is how it plays out in my head now 

my older cousin  said that he woud not do any thing with his little brother but it was up to me if i wanted to do things with him.  thats when i start to suck the little brothers dick. then i start moving my self that slips the ildercousins dick back and i can feel it rest on my hole and then ireach back and slid him inside me and as i slip down in his dick i feel the younger dick start to twitch and he starts making alot if noise and then there mom yells throught the wall to stop playing and to go to sleep. that is when they say we can do so much more when there mom is sleeping in the morning. 

now i dont remember no if we did anything like that the next morning but as i think back to that night did i actually take my cousin in my ass and is that why when i was fifteen i knew that feeling of something in my ass.