There were times when I had the feeling that Alex (that's my bbf's name, I just don't feel the need to hide it anymore) also felt sexually attracted to me as well, and now I realize that if only I had pushed my luck and insisted a little bit, or just dare to give the first step, we would have ended fucking like rabbits then and there on that couch. Very often while hanging out in his bedroom we would pick on each other just for the fun of it. I would say something to annoy him and he always had a fixation with calling me "his little bitch" or "his dirty whore", and if I kept pressing on him then he would say to things like "Stop it or I'll take my cock out and slap your face with it!". Other times when we were playing videogames, if I beat him then he would stand up, grab me by my hair, push his crotch against my face, and start shacking his hips back and forth like pretending to be fucking my mouth. Now I think of it and regret not having the courage to tell him "Alex, stop with this bullshit! If you really want to fuck my mouth don't say it and do it! I would have remained still with my mouth wide open, sticked my tongue out and say "C'mon motherfucker! Do it! Rape my mouth!" I'm 100% positive that right on the spot he would have unzipped his pants with lightning speed, taken out his magnificent cock, and shoved it in my virgin mouth down to my throat, and pushing my head hard and fiercely against his crotch he would say "Is this what you want, you fucking faggot? Here! Go and choke on my dick you motherfucker!". And I would have sucked and licked and gagged on it like the little whore I wanted him to made me, and I hadn't stopped doing it until he had shot the very last drop of hot, thick sperm from his balls down to my stomach. And then I would have been the happienst kid in the world...