I have found some very nice videos that Exemplify how I might have Loved to play with Men when I was a younger lad - because I really Trully Needed to have men Feedig Me their Cocks and most especilly Fucking Me. I have actually pondered subscribing here, though that's sort of a Lot for my monthly budget. 
The lovely boy in this video is a familar face here at ImageFap, probably some of you know his name - and the bottom line for me is - if I had followed some easily Functional cues when I was young (and I mean very young) I could have and would have become the (truly, in the manner of Some Traditions) virtuous Boy child. 
https://www.xvideos.com/video.udtaokf8991/little_boy_rides_on_his_two_daddys_dicks_-_tinytwink
Have fun with this - I am So So Sorry that I missed certain chances when I was young - I was just lost and confused and a really, really Needed 'Daddy Men' to hold me, hug me, fondle me, and sexually Use me ... it could have become an absolute Delight for me - and certainly have lasted for most of my life.

Now I have found another that I think better portrays some of my Strongest sexual urge to be Fucked somewhat roughly, to feel Controled and Used. It is a low resolution video of a Latino twink being moderately slapped around and Fucked by his Dom. One simply Lovely part includes what I Deeply Crave to feel - the Throat mucous Gushing while my throat is fucked.
https://www.xvideos.com/video.eeptdb67c8/big_latino_chuy_gets_rough_with_little_elmo

I hope everyone understands and likes this about me - I hope I can find someone to submit myself to for this sort of, for this level of Subjugation. I just want to feel this as a trial,,, to know how it feels,,, it raises my pulse,,, it helps my body to slightly tremble with excitement.

 Love, Robin (@73)