Its saturday morning and its 4 am and here i am in my room laying in bed over thinking everything its so amazing having a place i can go to and talk about my feelings and just vent and knowing that you are there reading whats on  my minde is great .Well last night my mom went to her sisters for the weekend so its just me and dad and last night my dad was in the mood to talk and he did something he never did before and i was very surprised about it .Before last night me and dad never talked about how he felt about me before we began to have sex it was always a secret with him it was always like me just met on my 18th birthday but last night he began to tell me things about how he felt and how he saw me as i grew up and after a few drinks he realy opend up 

He told me things like there where times when we would wach movies together as a family and my dad would spend the entire time looking at me and waching me as i layed there across from him on the couch he would hope for a look under my nightie and see my panties .My dad told me he was so amazed to see me growing up and my body change he loved waching my boobs grow and how they looked as they got bigger under my shirts and pajamas he admited to me that he always felt dirty after looking and fantasizing about me but couldent help himself .Me and my dad always had this wierd relationship it always seemed like there was two different ways with my dad there was the me and dad when mom was home and there was this wall between us and it was just father and daughter time with a distance between us and its like that now 

Then theres our time together when moms away or not around its a totaly different relationship i can remember myself sitting on my dads lap talking in my hello kitty nightie and pigtails we would just sit there for hours on the couch sharing some chips or chocolat we would feed each other and for fun i would bite his fingers then suck on them getting the flavor from the chips off his thick fingers then my dad would do the same to my fingers . i always thought that we had the perfect dad and daughter relationship we where very close and i was always comfortable around my dad and thought nothing of being in  my tshirt and panties and nothing els when it was just me and him at home i never thought about how it afected him.

There where so many times when mom was away and i had no problem walking around the house in my panties and bra and as my boobs began to grow i wanted to show them off so i would wear a t shirt and no bra with a pair of panties i never felt shy around my dad .he told me last night that it was very hard for him seeing me like that waching me grow up amd my body change he said one of the hardest things for him was when my boobs began to grow and i would sit on his lap and he began to finde himself trying to see down my nightie he knew then that i wasent just his little girl anymore and i was becoming a young woman and keeping his cock from getting hard was getting very hard to do 

Its funny how even i was changing and sharing food and feeding each other wasent the same i could feel myself getting excited inside when i had my finger in my dads mouth or he had his in mine it began to feel sexy in some way i remember the first time i knew it had changed between us we where sitting there and i was on his lap we where sharring some popcorn and like many times before my dad put my finger in his mouth and sucked the flavor off then it was his turn so he put his finger into my mouth it all seemed normal at first then and i am not sure why but i began to suck on his finger and then began to slide it in and out of my mouth like i was giving his finger a blowjob i remember looking into his eyes as his finger went in and out of me dad just looked at me and seemed to realy love it .Afer that it became a regular thing 

I never thought it would lead up to what we have today but back then it seemed inocent and i remember one night being alone with my dad and it was the first time i put on my first satin nightie my mom had bought it for me and it was pink with pink satin panties i was so excited to put it on and show daddy i was up in my room and i looked into my mirror i felt so grown up and i loved the way my boobs looked coverd in satin and the way my ass looked coverd in pink satin i was so excited to show my dad .I will never forget the look on his face when i walked into the livingroom it it he just froze and looked at me in a way he never did before .I went over to him and sat down on his lap just like i did many times before but this time was very different his hands felt slipery on my body as he pased them along my back i could feel my body sliding on his lap and the satin nightie against the panties it was so amazing it was totaly new and exciting for me 

I could tell my dad was happy with my new outfit and kept rubbing my back it felt so good his hands went from my waist to my neck slidding along the satin his hands would go under my hair and onto my neck it seemed very different this time he was going slow and going placed he never went before and he was quiet as well i just remember wanting him to wander and touch my chest but he never did .My dad told me last night that he wanted to touch my boobs that night and it took every thing he had not to 

Its crazy to think that something as simple as a satin nightie can change your life but it wasent until i began to wear that pink nightie that i realy noticed my dads cock under me you see once there was just that thin satin nightie between me and dad i began to notice that buldg under me and my dad began to have a very hard time keeping it in controle and after a while it became a normal thing to feel my dads hard cock under me and i would feel for it .There was this one night i was in my tshirt and panties sitting on his lap and i couldent feel his cock under me and i began to wonder where it was i wiggled my ass looking for his cock and when i couldent finde it i got fustrated with him and decide to take matters into my own hands and i pulled my tshirt open at the top so he could see down my top and just like majic i could feel his cock get hard under me i just smiled and wiggled my ass 

Me and my dad where always close and as things changed between us as i grew up and began to realize that my dad was also man and that his hard cock ment more than i thought it did things began to change between us ..