I decided to confide in Lucy my boss at the model agency to ask for some advice from someone who is not trying to get into my pants as she knows more than most that I do not wear any. Below is a short run down of Lucy and me.

Lucy talked me into letting her mould me into doing something for her budding photographer friend Ida this started off being exotic, then erotic, then explicit, and finally downright filthy photographs, being honest I loved the preparation the touching the full body attention and the very minimalist clothing I had to wear, finally ending up with me naked and two women placing me into some very extreme poses that showed every intimate part of me off.

Lucy wanted it to be more extreme seeing as photographs do not sell like they did in the early days of porn magazines etc so she steered me into being videoed but made it clear that she was in charge and from then I had to do as told and never complain I think she wanted to take me somewhere I had never been before and show me exactly what porn was really like to see if I wanted it or could cope with it so she set up a test/ trial I knew nothing about this I thought it was just a progression from the photos  she didn't give me any prior information and   arranged a big black porn star stud (Otis) who is on her books he was very rough he pushed me around called me his bitch stripped me fucked me in every hole and made me swallow his cum I have had plenty of  sex in the past but nothing like this abuse. I did not know what to say or think I had been as close to being raped as it goes. Lucy then went even further with her tests my older brother Ken works for her tending a bar on party nights she had him come into the studio and I was made to suck his cock while kneeling in front of him looking up at my brother using my mouth she then said fuck her pussy Ken but don't cum you will cum on her tongue she will swallow it then lick your cock clean so Lucy had gone from virtual rape to total taboo. It wasn't till after I asked her why seeing as I was not allowed to complain at the time Lucy told me that they were both tests to see if I was ready to become one of her private party girls.

I went through the full induction course of a party girl which is basically to be a high end whore I passed the course with honours Lucy had taken me from her loyal office PA to a whore who had been gang banged in the process.

Lucy has created who I am now for better or worse so I told her to give me what advice I need with what has been happening to me lately,

Lucy said she was not surprised it was me in the sex shop catalogue dressed in very little or showing everything off as she said that I was totally suited to what was being shown and my body looked great in all of the poses I so obviously enjoyed doing especially the pantie less up skirt ones. And would not be surprised if  I  did some more additions to the catalogue seeing as you are pretty much unrecognisable and you have proved that you have liking to be photographed in very erotic explicit ways,

She totally understands my uncertainty about the whole taboo things that she mostly created by initially making me perform sex acts on my older brother and are now still going on between me my brother and now Ken has been in touch with my father they have got together as a team and he  has  now started to use my body  but Lucy does not know how to easily  stop it now as she seems to think  I am enjoying it too much and thinks it will be up to me to either stop it completely or be contented in being their toy to use as required. but make certain if Ken wants to do more public exhibitionist things with you and you are happy to be his public slut and private fuck slut  try to make sure that you are not recognised as this could jeopardise your future modelling work.

Lucy does not know what to really say about the sex shop and its owner Alex as she only took me there as a customer with hereto buy various panties and toys for her sex party nights  and her possible plan for a Glory Hole experience for us both to try out , She has stated that I have seemed to set up a business venture with him regarding the sex shop product catalogue and I told her that I thought he was wanting to go down the real amateur porn video route Lucy said if you are considering that be very careful as you could end up with nothing apart from a shit reputation and if you really want to do porn do it here in-house without risks and in safety but remember once you have been exposed as a porn star you are in the public domain.

Lucy has said she still wants me and her to do a Glory Hole challenge at Alex's sex shop because it would fun on neutral ground without any outside pressure seeing who could get the most out of all of the cocks on offer.

Lucy asked me for my honest opinion of her private sex party nights I said I need to go into it with you in more detail as I am compiling my ideas going forward, but as for me I do enjoy being the one on show and all of the touching it brings with it. I think that at your male only parties you do need a single or some other dancers  who are going to be a committed to doing the more extreme things sexually including more than one guy using the girl in things like a spit roasting, a gangbang situation and possible bukaka while being watched by the other punters at your party, I think that you need at least one high end whore controlled by you as the pimp I am happy to be your committed party slut and the whore I like the work at the dance party I like the money and I think I give good service as a high end whore.

Lucy said regarding your new found friend  Jim it sounds like you have something in common he likes you being slutty and you like being slutty have fun together in any way that suites you both you are highly charged sexually with insatiable needs and if Jim is offering you some satisfaction then grab it with both hands.