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Being seen by someone who knows me
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I knew when I decided to go public that there was a chance of being seen by someone who knows me and I had mixed emotions about that. I figured the odds were pretty low of getting "caught" but I still found myself obsessing about it as soon as I uploaded my content. I'm a fairly private person who lives a very normal life, so I felt that there could be a lot of embarrassment on my part if people I know were to see me this way. But at the same time, I really NEEDED to explore this side of my sexuality. Now I don't have to wonder how I would feel any more...recently, someone left a comment on one of my videos through the MovieFap site who stated that they know who I am. I have no reason to doubt that it is true. I was both excited and incredibly nervous when I read that. I do not know who this person is, and I replied suggesting we keep it that way. Without thinking about it, I also invited the person to share links of my videos and images to others who may know me. Not sure why I did that, but it could also happen just as easily without me "inviting" someone to do it since my content is available for download. I suppose I was thinking that I might as well get as exposed as possible now so that I can start getting used to it and not worry all the time. So I will just have to wait and see how it all plays out. There's something scary yet exciting about this, and whether I like it or not, I have discovered that it appeals to my sexuality completely. I will now wonder everytime I see someone who I know if they "know" about my content and my sexuality now. I think it's still going to make me nervous and embarrassed for a while, but it also fulfills my desire to feel vulnerable and to know that my sexual privacy is no longer under my own control.
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Posted on : Jul 23, 2024
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Commented on Sep 10, 2024
Tarko, I haven't been contacted by anyone else yet. But the "silence" is deafening at this point. I'm constantly wondering who might have seen me, and if so, if and when and where I might find out. Not sure how I will feel, but it will probably be way more embarrassing than I anticipate.
Thanks for inquiring.
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Commented on Aug 31, 2024
Have you been contacted by anyone else who knows you yet? Just wondering if anything has affected your "regular" life so far.
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Commented on Jul 24, 2024
Agree completely. See my blog think you'll likr it
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Commented on Jul 24, 2024
as some wise person said - Once you ruin your reputation, you can live quite freely
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