For years I've struggled with who I am.  Fresh out of High School and legal age I met a much much older woman at a bar and had sex with her to lose my virginity.  We stayed in a FWB relationship for a while.  Over that time I'd confessed to her that I like satin, panties and nylons.  Initially she thought i mean her so she used to wear them and I loved it.  eventually I admitted I wanted them.  She was wonderful taking me shopping for knickers and pantyhose shiny panties so we'd cover satin too.  We stopped fooling around when her friends noticed and she was scared off.   Since then I'd had many partners as I stuggle with what I am.  One of them introduced toys as she suspected I'd enjoy it little did she know i'd had fingers, carrots, cucumber even, jeez I'd fucked myself rotten with a spanner.  I loved penetrating my ass, so i welcomed this.  She started with a little toy about 5" and skinny like a long finger.  She quickly realised I liked this.  One night she came with a dildo I remember it was 8" on of those classic Doc Johnson ones that all sex shops sell.  I have my first anal orgasm that night and she loved it.  Next week she brought a strapon and lingerie for me to wear.  God I was loving this.  Things got complicated when she said since she'd been giving me all this pleasure she wanted something and we were to start having group sex and public sex.  I did not hesitate to agree.

Our first group session was a a woman and man ended up being a wife swap arrangement.  The other lady was more into watching her husband fuck my girlfriend while I ate her I never got inside.  I didn't care as later I'd get the strapon.  The next time was the beginning of the end.  We were to have a threesome and he was Bi.  While she did enjoy herself it was the obviously closetted gay that he wanted.  This was the first time i had cock.  Oh my.  Strap ons and spanners for that matter are a thrill but nothing beats that feeling a hard helmet pushing past your asses resistance then groaning as he pushes into you.  First fuck didn't ruin things.  That was doggy style with me eating my girlfriend (have to say have had gay sex so many times since then that it was one hell of an introduction not unlike a porno haha).  The second time though ended my relationship.  This time she watched on as he fucked me and I clawed at him to go deeper and pleaded with him to cum in and mark his territory (this was the earliest showing of the slut my lover now gets every night).  When he came in me our lips were locked and my legs were around him.  She was horrified and broke up with me.  He fucked me so many times of the next couple months so well that I forgot that I lost a girl I thought i loved over it.  This is were my obsession with older men went into overdrive.

Since then loads of women all end badly and while they're going they abused me ironically now, calling me a sissy.  I had a couple of Male lovers too and to be honest most times I was cheating with them and always in womens clothing. 

Skip to last couple of years.  I can't imagine or at least i don't fantasize about women.  In this relationship he's started calling me feminine names like baby girl.

Why am I writing this?  Well there is a bank holiday this weekend and my man is going on a fishing trip leaving me here.  He knows how much sex I like so often he gets a sub in.  This weekend he's going with a two others and his offer is to me that I can have a spare friend keep me satisfied or he and his mates can run a train on me tonight hoping that would contain my insatiable lust for cock.  We've settled on run a train and give me a sub.   My pussy is tingling in anticipation of taking three cocks tonight.  and got me thinking how the hell did I get here.  More importantly why did it take so long? haha