this is something i wrote in a letter just now, but then i realized, i want eveyone to know this about me.. oh my god!

nobody at work really knows me, and they'll forget all about me, and hate me slightly, if i just failed to show up one day... no one would come after me. my brother's would never notice... i don't even know if any of them have my phone number, even. i used to see them every year on Christmas, but that all ended when mommy and daddy passed away. oh god, my brothers would love to see my photos... they'd want to be in on it, probably.  but you are right,i could disappear without a trace, without causing the slightes stir. i'm a total nobody. i am just a rape and torture doll, ripe for the plucking!

oh god am i really gonna tell everybody this , my stalker and my immanent blackmailer, and all those guys whon are dying to rape me? am i really about to hit "save entry"?

 oh, i'm gonna do it!!!! oh my god oh my god oh my god!!!