I've talked about how mommy made me wear dresses and makeup before, about how we'd go into town to the hairdressers, shopping and even meet up with some women from the church and their daughters for tea and lunch. I'd thought that that was only from my teenage years but I found a photo album from when I was much younger. In it were pictures and notes in mums handwriting most of those pictures were of my two brothers and myself what struck me though was in every sngle picture I was in girls cliothng, little dresses, girls shoes and long curly hair and in every pictire my brothers were playing with boys toys tanks, transformers and there in the background I'm playing with girls toys or doing housework. 

The notes were about how mommy (she inssited I call her that) had always wanted a daughter for her first child and she was disappointed that I wasn't I'd known that one of her friends had had a child the same day as me and they had been intersex and her mother and the doctors agreed to give er a penectomy and mommy had been annoyed that I wasn't offered the same choice so she instead had put me on what were essentially puberty blockers. That explained why I developed so slower comppared to others my age and why my two brothers both towered over me I was tiny, petite and very feminine as a cild and schoolgrils wpould often play with my hair I spent a lot of time with girls. Far less time paying as a boy.