Realized I had a foot fetish in grade school, when puberty started.  Best place for feet, is on my face and in my mouth and on my nose.  Got curious in HS and started to get aroused by cocks and shemales.  Had my own PC and looked up my own shemale, cock and foot porn in the late 90's, with the beginning of the internet.  

Married now.   Have sex at least twice a week, I sometimes get off to my wife's feet and she gets off sucking and swallowing.  She loves to kiss me afterwards and I like it too. 

I dream to have fun with a cock, but not one on a guy who looks like a chad.  My fantasy would be a femboy, shemale, ladyboy, trans or feminine guy, etc, to slowly work on me.

Part of it is tabboo, because I am bi-curious but not into gay sex or things like that.  I like to remain in power and want things the way I want.  So, the idea of having some large bearded man tell me to suck his cock, is not what I want.  I like the feeling of thinking that I am on th edge of being gay, in that I might find myself wanted to kiss and worship a feminine ass, legs and feet and toes and then go in and suck a cock dry, but then not get my ass fucked in the process.