I want to share a story that I recently shared with my cousin.  It was such an exhilarating experience that I felt I would share it so those who read it, will be able to relate to how I felt.

I've basically come to terms with the fact that I am at least bisexual, and that I am more and more identifying myself as transgendered.  I'm biologically a male, but life deemed it so that I was blessed with a small and proportionate body.  In my opinion, I am slightly passable if I tried and my small size helps!  I will dress up from time to time to indulge in my feminine side. It just makes me sooooo horny I start leaking precum everywhere.

Ever since I was little, I had a fascination with cocks.  Just adore them so much! I fantasize about older, heavier men having their way with me.  Though not totally abusive, not into that. But strong, confident, caring, dominant types. Anyway, in my fantasies, I don't really see their faces. Something about the anonymity that drives me crazy. 

Given the world we live in, this is something I am not 100% comfortable being out in the open about.  So I've gotten my fix with thick toys to feel how I think a girl would feel being bred by a long thick cock.  It's actually great and I don't think I'll ever stop using toys.  

I'll often dress up in thigh high socks, a short skirt, and ride my toys til I cum.  

So I recently moved into a new place with a small little yard.  It's more of a patio, surrounded by wooden fencing all around that's about 6 to 6.5 feet tall.  There's just enough room for a small dog to run around.  I have bushes and plants around the perimeter that offers me a good amount of privacy.  I guess if someone really wanted to look through the knots on the fencing, they could see me.  But I guess that risk is somewhat part of the excitement.

I have the benefit of working from home and my neighbors are usually out during the day.  The chances of getting caught are very slim.  I'm a quiet "cummer" as well.  More of a whimper or so when I orgasm.

I often take my toys and ride outside with the sun and breeze on my bare skin.  It's soo liberating to be "out" and having something penetrate you, edging you closer to climax with each deep thrust.  I suspect at a distance, I look like an average girl bouncing up and down.  So I figured if anyone did see me, they'd assume as such.  I didn't mind since I got off thinking someone is watching and enjoying the view of a "girl" riding a thick cock.

It was a Tuesday, middle of the week type day where my neighbors should be at work.  I was in a mood and couldn't stop thinking of big thick cock.  I NEEDED cock.  It was one of those days I was so horny that the sight of any cock would get me leaking immediately.  Something in me had changed once I accepted my sexuality and my love of cocks.  My own cock just didn't react the same way it used to.  

I'd normally get hard, stroke it, and cum.  These days, I barely get hard unless I really try. It seems my body knows I won't have much use getting my cock hard these days.  "Cock".  Is that what it is? It's not overly huge like the ones I prefer.  I would describe it as cute.  Hehe.  Perhaps one day it will be a "clit".  But for now, it's my cute little sissy cock.

Anyway, back to my riding session in my patio area.  This day was one of those days I wanted to feel every inch slide in and out, each time going a bit deeper.  I had hours to play and each slow thrust penetrate deeper and deeper, causing slight whimpers and grunts to escape my mouth.

After about 30 or so minutes it seemed, I was in full swing.  Long deep thrusts going at a quicker, steady pace.  The only sound that could be heard were the slaps of my little flaccid cock bouncing and hitting my body each time I was pounded in my hole.  I could feel the burning sensation around my hole and around the tip of my cock.  This is usually followed by my first whole body orgasm from having thick cock pound inside me.

That's when I saw it.  A window about 50 yards away with the blinds moving as if someone had just moved it aside to look out the window.  This was the first time I genuinely felt scared that I was caught in something completely embarrassing.  Needless to say, I did not cum.  Instead, I got off my toy, grabbed everything I could and in a frantic, ran inside.  What could they have possibly seen from way out there?  Their window was on the 2nd story of their home, but my patio area is covered on all 4 sides with fencing and I have lush bushes around that somewhat blocked a direct view into my area.

I remember thinking, if they DID see something, or was watching, the worse case scenario was that they thought they had an exhibitionist girl living near them trying to fuck herself on a dildo.  No big deal, right?  My mini skirt would have hid my little sissy cock from view and I could be a flat chested girl.  I have to admit, thinking through the scene of what my neighbor saw was exciting me.  I felt a cold sensation on my inner thigh and as I peeped down, I saw a thick string of precum stretching from my inner thigh to the tip of my sissy cock.  

Seems like I liked this sort of thing. I felt excitement and shame simultaneously and decided I finish off in the shower.

My cousin is the only person that knows of my "fem" side.  She's about 3 years younger and she's one of those "try it once and see if you like it", types.  She doesn't know the extent of what I do, and how I am considering transitioning completely.  But it's good to at least have someone that won't judge me to talk to about all these thoughts.  She thought it was "cool" and hopes that maybe that the person that saw me might even be into stuff like that.  Perhaps even thought I was cute.  

I've since stayed off my patio area for a few weeks now, embarrassed that I might be caught again.  But 3 weeks without big cock fucking me?  That's not going to end well.  Even writing this down, remembering what happened that Tuesday is making me leak precum.  I'm beginning to feel like how I felt that day I was caught.  That I'd do anything for a real thick cock to fuck and have real cum shoot inside me...