Hi everyone,

I have just logged on quick to say we havent gone anywhere ,so sorry for the absence but we had a family emergency and we have been abroad for the past few weeks.

We are both back now but we are both not our normal selves yet due to a sudden death (Murder) in the family. We are still in a state of bewilderment and shock so as you can expect we do not feel at all sexy and i shall appologise in advance to all those who have left us messages as we shall not be replying just yet.

We have only just got back in the country today and we need a couple of days to sort our heads out.

I hope for us to be back with all you sexperts on Saturday. We have promised ourselves that we are going to get up Saturday morning and continue to move forward with our lives and put the recent horrors behind us both.

Hope to speak to you then  oh and maybe get these bloody photos done.

Love and Hugs,

Sarah and Paul.

P.s Paul wants to say a few words about his recently deceased brother John.

To John, beloved older brother, my rock, my protecter, my teacher,my life....

When we were still just kids you said to me that i was the one with brains and you were the one with the muscles, i would be the one who would make something of thier life. You told me that if i didn't work hard and study you would beat the crap out of me .

You said to me to knucle down and study at school, forgett about anything else, and you would deal with anyone that took the mickey out of me for being, "Teachers Pet".

Well i remember those late nights we had with you helping me with my revision, i also remember the beatings i got when i didn't get top marks. I remember all the fights you had on my behalf and also the beatings you took for me. Well i studied and studied and you were always there helping me. We finnished school and i went on to further education while you took the only crappy job that you could get. Then You without fail sent me money every week even though you earned a pittence. You told me not to get an evening job and use the time to study instead to get the grades i needed. You continued to do this for years until i got my first wage packett even though i continually told you i didn't need the money

John you stoodbye and watched as i excelled at everything i did and i also watched you grow weary as you failed at everything you did, yet you were never jealous of me and you even used to say to me as long as one of us makes it that is all that maters.

Time passed and i made my mark in the world and I remember the time i came to see you after your knee operation and you were worried about the time off from work that you had to take. Well i wanted to pay you back for everything you had done for me. I was really excited when i offered you a job working for me, I thought you would be so pleased when i told you that the job was working hours to suit you and came with a lovely four bedroom house so your kids could finally have a room each with a lovely garden to play in and two new cars, one for you and your wife Jessie so you could finally get rid of that rust bucket that you had struggled with for years and Jessie could drive the kids to school and leave the bus behind.

I remember your reply, you told me that you had not helped me all those years just for me to give my money away, you told me that if you ever heard of me giving any of my hard earned cash away then eaven though we were both grown men you would beat the shit out of me.You told me to use my money to give my own family a good living.

John you told me that we had both chosen our own paths in life and as such must follow them.

Well John i proved you so wrong. I forced you into working for me when you were no longer able to your physically demanding work.

You were not a burden to me or my company you were an absolute wizz kid. All those years that i had studied to gain my qualifications to prepare me for my working life and yet you just walked in to my company and within six months you were virtually running it. I remember one day that i was actually trying to find something to do cos whatever i went to get on with i found that you had already done it !!!. You had such a gift, the same gift you worked on me, you could get the absolute best out of people and you didn't have to beat the shit out of anyone !!! You were the best asset that my company ever had.

Without you i would still be sitting in the same office, with the same view doing the same thing, don't get me wrong John i was earning well but you were a great force behind me. You kept bombarding me with facts and figures and pushing me, expand this, buy that, sell off this, set up a new company doing this, get into a new market doing that. John it was so hard keeping up with you and half the time i agreed with you just so i could get some peace and quiet ! And the great thing was that your ideas worked.

We earned a lot of money between us John and you deserved every penny i paid you. I just look back and think of all those wasted years you had shovelling rubbish, such a waste of your natural talent. Still things worked out for us, looking back it has occurred to me that you had so many failiers in your early years and you learned from them and brought your experiance to my company and made it shine.

Thanks Bruv you were always there for me, you made me what i am today. It was not right the way you were taken from us, the one time that you needed me but i was a country away, there are so many unanswered questions about the circumstances of your death but i have decided with respect for you not to dig into it .I shall accept what the police are saying and that you were just in the wrong place at the wrong time. I have told Sarah to get in touch with the private investigators that we hired and any information they may have is to be destroyed. You shall be remembered as what you were, My rock , My everything. Jessie and the kids can be proud of what thier husband/father achieved in life. And John i know that Jessie and the kids will be alright financially but just so you know i shall always be there for them bruv, just like you were always there for me. None of your family shall ever go without bruv, i swear this to you.

Jason had a word with me, he asked me that if his grades are good enough when he finnishes his studies next year would there be any possibility that he could come and work for me. Well John i see a lot of you in him and i shall welcome him in to the company, i need another right hand man and i can't think of anyone more suited than Jason, believe me bruv i shall turn the tables around i shall push Jason the way you pushed me ( i won't threaten him with a beating though, he would just laugh in my face before he broke my nose, i swear he is going to turn out even bigger than you bruv )and i shall bring out the best in him bruv, i shall make sure he shines bruv

With luv always Bruv.

You are born,

You Die,

You turn to dust.

The bit inbetween we do, it's a must,

If there is life everafter then this is John's plan ,

He is going to kick those angels in touch, and heaven is going to make a fortune te he he xxx