People are always asking us to talk about our various first times, together and individually. So we thought we would share with everyone.

The first time I had sex with more than one man was when I was 18 and a freshman in college. It wasn't exactly voluntary. I was visiting my older brother at his college for the weekend, but he took off for the weekend with a girl. Not about to waste a good time, I went out with his roommates to the bars on a Friday with my fake i.d.

I was having a lot of fun dancing and drinking, and I think it's fair to say I had too much to drink. But I'm also positive I was slipped something in a drink. I found myself wandering in an alley in a haze when 2 guys pulled me into a basement. A lot of it is a blur, but I know several things - there were at least 4 guys, they kept me there 2 days because I was set free Sunday, they kept drugging me, and they thoroughly used me.

I remember being so scared, yet so willing. They weren't overly violent to me - they didn't beat me, although they spanked me a lot  - but they just made me their slave and plaything. At first they gang raped me one at a time. They apparently agreed not to cum in me, I'm guessing because they didn't want to touch each others junk. Instead they would cum in my mouth. They made me play with it, drool it out and lick it up again. They used me as their urinal, peeing all over me and making me drink it. They made me beg for what they did to me. Eventually they were more comfortable fucking all my holes together, I guess knowing I wasn't going to bite their dicks off.

But oddly enough, they also made me cum. Or I should say two guys did. In hindsight I guess they liked me stinking of piss and cum, because they would kiss me and eat me. Each night after the others fell asleep and I lay there crying, one guy would sneak in and take me. He would hold me close and gently kiss me and pump away until he came deep inside me - a first for me. Then he would eat me until I came - over and over. He made me pee in his mouth. Then he would leave. Sometime later, perhaps hours, another guy would come take me - more gentle than when he was with the other guys, but still pretty hard. He would also fill me with his sperm and then eat me to orgasm. I wasn't a virgin and I had an orgasm before, but I had never been made to orgasm so hard and so many times. 

Then he would leave too and I would be laying there in the dark, stinking, aching, wet, tied to the floor, cum leaking from me and encrusting me . . . and absolutely satisfied.

I left right after they set me free. My brothers roommates hadn't thought twice about me not coming home. I wasn't their responsibility. I never reported it, because I secretly loved it and of course was way to embarrassed and ashamed. 

For a while afterwards I actually missed it. It was a long time before I found another man who could make me cum so hard. And I always retained a desire to be taken and used. I would fantasize about being peed on too, and sometimes would drink my own, but never told a man (until adam) because the desire felt too dirty. But the boys always loved what I would do with sperm after that! Before I met Adam I tried one other 3-some, but it was terrible.

I'm not saying what those guys did to me was right . . . it was definitely wrong. But I've learned to embrace the person I am now because of it and learned how to make myself happy.