I've been dodging doing any paid sex work for as long as I've been sexually active. But today I got a offer I kind of like. If you've read my blog you know I'm involved with my neighbor. Well he records videos on request and I know a guy who has a milk fetish. We linked up a long time ago but u reached out and it hasn't changed. So the deal is my neighbor records him doing all kinds of kinky stuff to my tits and milking me, I get paid on the front end and me and my neighbor start an OF together,  not just milking videos. Since I enjoy fucking him and he's got a big dick that is pleasing to the eye we figured why not make sextapes 🙅🏿‍♀️. It's not my first time on film just the first time being paid for it. I'm not sure clear on how this will turn out. I might do one shoot and just not feel it. Part of why I hide my identity is because I have a very good job so it's not the income I'm after. Honestly I didn't expect to get pregnant again and I want to make a positive out of a negative. I don't plan on keeping the child due to the unsafe nature of the birth, but while I'm overly Lactating it's just a small blessing to have something to do with all of it and my freezer already don't have space. So letting some horny office working suck it out while fucking isn't a bad option. And having a freaky friend like my neighbor is coming in clutch right now. It's like the guy is a one stop shop for cravings. If I get horny boom he's here, hungry... this guy grills constantly lol. If I need to talk he's a really good listener but I just end up getting horny and jumping him. We both know there isn't a relationship there but I'm glad to just enjoy the now as stress-free as I can. And I am looking at legal action against the hospital that tied my tubes in the first place. The lawyer I spoke to thinks they weren't  done properly either time. Instead of throwing blame at them I'd rather they just redo it at no cost to me. I know this is shitty but I fuck way to much and care to little to be a mom. It takes way to much love and dedication for someone like me. And honestly if I don't do it, I'm just going to get pregnant again. As soon as raw sex and creampies stop feeling good I'll stop getting knocked up without my tubes being tied. It's just better I stop having babies.