I've been a closeted sissy since I was thirteen years old when I lost my anal cherry to a school friend and become addicted forever, to man, and cock.

The desire to communicate with you all my secret journal pages led me to tell you about my latest adventure in a sauna here in Lisbon, which resulted in a group sex. 

I was dying to have sex and my ass fucked, and as a sauna was opening, I decided to go there on the opening Saturday night, when there is usually more population and this time more due to inaugural day….or better, night.

After shower and looking around in the nude, my groin only covered by a flimsy towel, I immediately went to the Turkish bath, which I like best, in this sauna it has three steps in a semi-circle. As I was expecting, there were already around eight to twelve men sited there. After getting used to the dark and the clouds of steam, I sat on the second step next to a man of about my age. I opened the towel and exposed myself with my legs open, hiding my sissy between my legs.

I had the care to epilate that afternoon and all my body was quite smooth and white. It didn't took long for my neighbor to slid over the bench and opening his strong hairy legs show me his cock, it was thicker than average, complete, somewhat long, still not very hard, with a heavy sac and all shaved, which made it look even bigger.

Without hesitation I took my hand there and started to caress him and feel his balls, he sighed, and opened his legs, moaning and encouraging me to continue, his cock grew almost suddenly, rising and bending towards his belly, excited by his lust, I took advantage of him, masturbating him more and …making him stiff and longer.

Taking advantage of the darkness that reigned in the Turkish bath, I bend over him and start licking and sucking his m. He moaned softly and slid his hand down my back and caressed the crack of my ass, I twisted more on the bench to make his finger invasion easier, and it wasn't long before I felt a wet finger penetrate my sissy cunt ring.

Meanwhile, with result of my sucking, his cock had swollen and hardened a lot, I estimated that it was a good sixteen to seventeen centimeters long and four centimeters in diameter, my fingers were barely around it.

My blowjob was releasing a very sweet and pleasant pre-orgasm in my mouth, I was licking the sweet taste of precum swirling my tongue inside the prepuce and enjoying every drop of it, when I felt another man approaching my back and starting to feel my ass together with the finger of my partner.

"My first” whispered in my ear if I wanted to go to a cabin so we could be more comfortable, which I agreed to. The other, listening to the susurrated conversation, asked us also to join, which after an exchange of glances of all three, we agreed.

While the second one who had felt in my back, I saw now was chubby and quite hairy in the body, went to get gel and condoms, we went then into a cabin and spread the towels on the double bed where I gently let myself be placed on all fours by them on the edge of the bed and where they positioned me with my ass stuck out.

It started with a delicious rimming in my boipussy that quickly made my ass twinkle with pleasure. Meanwhile I saw the other guy put a condom, with a little gel in my boipussy my first guy penetrated me with a finger that he quickly replaced with two and he even tried to insert his three fingers, which he managed while I was moaning, (more from pleasure than from pain) thinking he was hurting me, he removed his fingers and pointed his cock at my “cunt”, pushing hard in the ring, he told me to relax, with a lustful sigh I backed away and pushing against the cock I felt him gently enter my ass while he was grabbing me by the hips, he slide inside my “cunt” until his belly was touching my buttocks.

 I took my hand between my legs and felt his heavy balls around my pussy! I he had buried his thick cock to the root in my sexy “cunt”!

I moaned with pleasure, hungry for cock for so long, I felt my cunt fully invaded by such a great cock that sensually consoled me, my rider then began that delicious back and forth drives of a delicious fuck, opening and enlarging his way into my lascivious analcunt, that little by little were opening and relaxing, accepting such a delicious cock, delirious with lust he was attracting more and more by the hips pulling me more to him.

The other partner then stood in front of me and gave me his cock to suck, sitting on the bed he made me rest my shoulders on his thighs while he put his dick in my mouth. Penetrated from both ends, I look like a chicken on a spit. After a few pumps in my cunny, my fucker came with great moans that made him cum and penetrate me more, with some pain deep inside my ass, leaving me increasingly horny in the ass. When he dug it out, I saw in the dim light of the cabin the condom bag hanging heavy with cum.

The cock that I was sucking was also quite good, with a long, long foreskin, although shorter it was very thick and rounded, I invited him to replace the other one that had gone to clean the member in the interim.

 He didn't hesitate and asked me to have him in the missionary position. I lay down on my back with my ass on the edge of the bed, I bent my legs and put my knees against my shoulders, opening myself up to him completely exposed for my second fuck of that night. After putting the condom, he looks a bit awkward in front of me and pressed his thick member into my boicunt, (which by then was already very loose and relaxed with the first fuck!). The feeling of my ass being more distended by that thick cock gave me goosebumps of enjoyment, if there were still some folds to dilate it was then that they were gone!

He fucked me for a long time, enduring a hard boner that sensually desecrated more (if possible) my lubricious anus, I almost came when he changed position in top of me and the thick tool rubbed my prostate in such a way that it made me moan lustfully. Maybe that's why I excited him so much that he suddenly started jerking and gasping and came in strong blows that dragged me across the bed.

It was then, when I raised on my elbows, that I noticed that there was more people in the cabin, my first fucker had left the door open and because that and because we had made such loud noises, three men had entered, one of them tall and middle-aged, another, a mulatto and a young man who was barely old enough to be there. They were all masturbating and when "my" chubby guy withdrew from my ass, the mulatto pushed the boy forward and something embarrassed showed me his dick and stuttered if I wanted it.

I'm not particularly fan of being fucked by twinks, however the boy was there, and I thought it was funny about the boy and the way he was being "pushed" by the other guy to fuck me, so, …I say it was ok! In addition to having a beautiful circumcised young man's cock, which in the meantime, sitting on the edge of the bed, I appreciated that after a small licking from my side, it was super hard and completely swollen as any young male should be, it also smelled of good soap and men's perfume.

I took advantage of the BJ to put the condom on his member and standing up, leaning my elbows on the bed, I open my legs and turn my ass towards him, hold his dick and I pointed it to my ass.

He penetrated me almost immediately, viciously, provoking a moan of surprise from me and some pain from the inevitable contraction of the sphincters due to the speed of penetration. I told him to calm down and his pumping slowed down. His dick was very hard and entered deliciously deep into the most intimate part of my sensual “vagina”, I was amazed that I was getting my third fuck of the night.

Meanwhile the other two and especially the mulatto had approached and caressed me ​​all over and from time to time slapped me hard on my round sissy buttocks. 

My anal hole relaxed and wide open now with this young fucker making me believe that it had been well worth the wait!!

My twinker boy was now fucking me like crazy, not paying attention to my moans, some of them of real pain, his member was very long and was penetrating deep into my ass. My anal ring was very sore, and it was already started to hurt, but a strange debauchery and masochism was taking over me and I just felt like I want……more and more debauchery! Dam!

The young man began to pant and fuck me deeper if that were possible and in a hoarse scream that must have echoed throughout the sauna, he began to cum with such impulse that I perfectly felt the heat of the sperm in my ass even through the condom. He remained hugging me for a long time, trembling, I took my hand to the base of his cock which was rapidly getting soft in size and held the condom, when I helped him out of my ass, I was surprised by the amount of cum inside of the condom.

I collapsed on my back on the bed, positively exhausted because of the standing sexy sub position I had been in, the mulatto and the "senior" lay down on either side of me feeling my ass and stroking my limp cock, which when I "am" passive becomes humiliated, soft and shrinking as a sub sissy clit should be.

I then felt the cocks that were at my disposal, the senior's, medium, uncovered, very hairy pubis and chest, rubbing against my left thigh with his hand insinuating itself between my legs. When I put my hand in the mulatto's hand, I felt what Americans call a BBC!! a real big black cock!! I didn't want to believe it! It must have been a good twenty centimeters by some five centimeters thick, complete with a foreskin that completely covered the glans that I felt much thicker than the rest of the cock, the entire shaved area of the pubis was smooth like a baby, the magnificent black ebony pole that shone in the semi-darkness of the cubicle was a view never seen by me. 

He whispered in my ear asking if “I wanted it, if I would let him, if I would give him my ass, etc, etc,” drunk with lust and driving me crazy with these sensual invitations.

In my horniest dreams, I had many times the fantasy to be fucked by a huge BBC opening my boipussy as a black meat baseball bat. Now with this one at my disposal, harassing me this way…..even if I had my boicunt be split apart, I had at least try to have my boipussy  violated by him!!!

I told him, trembling inside, that yes, but that we had to get gel lubricant from the condom serving machine, he immediately offered to go but told me to close the door and not let anyone else in!

I entertained myself by sucking the "senior" guy, who, with all this talk, had not stopped masturbating and who immediately rewarded me with a very abundant pre-orgasm load in my mouth, I continued to suck him happily until the mulatto arrived with more condoms and two blisters of gel.

Like a bitch in heat, I asked him how he wanted it and he ask me to suck him which I did, almost dislocating my jaw! His cock was now able to appreciate was impressively thick and released precum honey in a stream that wet the whole shaft, something bittersweet, I licked, swallowed and sucked as much as I was able to do. 

I weighed his fat balls, visualizing the amount of cum that must be inside. The dick visibly was hardening with my BJ. When he felt horny, he made me get on all fours on the bed again and knelt between my legs, opening them further for each side.

I felt the cold of the gel being spread on my ass, inside and out with his smooth fingers! He penetrated me with two long, delicate fingers that widened my sissy ring even more. 

He gyrated his fingers for a long time, relaxing my ring and anal sphincters, in a way, and undoubtedly with the result of my previous fucks, he was able to insert three fingers!

He took my breath away when I feel my asshole so enlarged to the point of agony and ..... of never felt pleasure!

He advances now, owner of the conquered hole, twisting and gapping my sensual ass. When I started to tremble with lust and now moaning with pleasure, he removed his fingers and placed his rigid pole at same time against my ring and …press it!

To my amazement, the engorged head immediately entered the sphincter ring as I was grabbed by the hips, sadistically, feeling the huge mushroom head in my ass, I pushed back and impelled the member voluptuously inside my boipussy. I moaned then in real pain, it felt like there was a baseball bat lodged inside my ass, I begged him to go slow and in fact he began to push his dick in a soft and slow way, destroying my ass, the monstruous black cock gradually entered my anus, in short (delicious I must say!) drives, it entered at last all the way, taking me to the heights of anal lust. 

I was sobbing with joy and gay pride to have conquered such a humongous cock. My black fucker, seeing me in that state of lust and certainly feeling my ass horny contractions, increased his pace a little, suddenly took off his cock out, and, pulling the condom off, grab me by the hair and make me kneel in front of him and told me to suck it.

 I suck him in a whirlwind of strong and libidinous emotions, receiving almost instantly in my mouth jet after jet of thick and aromatic cum that I hastily swirl in my mouth and swallow as much as I could, much of it overflowing my mouth and running down my chin and dripping onto my chest.

I joyfully sucked out the last thickest drops and licked the thick pink glans luxuriously, uncovering it and pulling the long foreskin down cleaning all the traces of the tasty semen.

I drop in the bed exhausted, resting and letting my dissolute gapped, and now destroyed ring, recover from this delicious but violent fuck. "My" senior guy had watched without intervening and was slowly masturbating next to me, he then asked if I was going to suck him too.

With my ass burning of the mulatto's fuck I was completely burn out, however not want to leave that sympathetic guy in that state of erection, I lean over his dick and with my mouth still smeared in the mulatto's cum, I began to BJ him, using my best skills that I made him last until he screamed, and in moments with low muffled noises, he began to cum in mouthfuls of salty, liquid cum.

I lay down for a long time, resting and calming my senses, when I got up to go to the shower, I think I had a strange characteristic walk of someone with their ass crack open. Even later in the street it seemed to me that everybody was looking at me because of my hip girlish gait.

Lulu (feeling quite gapped!)