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My sexual orientation
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Even though I have always liked wearing my aunt's feminine shoes, wearing my cousin's short dresses and panties... And doing all this for the pleasure of seeing myself as a girl in the mirror, because maybe something inside me wanted to tell me that I was born in the wrong body. Despite all this, for a long time in my life I was never attracted to anyone male. My romantic attractions or passions have always been with someone female. Girlfriend, crush on the teacher or the pop singer of the moment, flirtations. But, my relationships never escalated to the sexual level. I remember something when my relationship with a girl at school ended, that I really liked her a lot. I told myself, in my head at bedtime, that if I didn't marry her by a certain age in my life I would have surgery to become a woman. At that time there wasn't as much talk about it as there is today, but I was already aware of this possibility and it had always interested me, despite liking girls and dating. During that time, I never saw a man as handsome, attractive to me, awakening an extra feeling in me, or anything like that. Maybe it was my unconscious mind not letting me focus on this for fear of having my secret discovered, and giving off an image of a straight guy. I also didn't hang out with my male friends much, I always had more female friends, and I always hung out with them more. Maybe that meant something, but even from them I hid my other side. Well, after a while I discovered something, something that would gradually change my interests and attractions. Porn videos. Yes, and I began to realize that what turned me on the most wasn't the naked women in the videos, it wasn't her moaning, it wasn't her breasts bouncing. He was the one who did that to her, he was the one who penetrated her, he was the one who touched her breasts, he was the one who called her a slut and pulled her hair. The level of excitement I started to feel I never felt for any woman, not for a girlfriend, not for the Playboy girls. And the more I watched, the more I wanted to be the passive one in those videos, the one who is called a slut, the one who has her breasts groped, the one who feels so much pleasure to the point of moaning so loudly. It was those men who did that to her, with their muscles, with their sweaty chest, with all that movement, with their fiery speeches and with those wonderful penises. Things I've never seen in my male friends. So my sexuality changed, although it remained a secret for a while longer...
I'll write more about this soon
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Posted on : Sep 30, 2023
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