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The pitiful sex life of a German couple
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My name is Marc, I am in my late thirties and I lead a sexually frustrated marriage with my slightly younger wife Juliana. Although we seem to have it all and the relationship harmonizes extremely well in the other aspects, years of ever-increasing sexual frustration are straining our marriage beyond a level that is unhealthy for both of us. But the cause for this probably starts much earlier.
Already with all my former partners, it became apparent that the sexual interactions, at least on the side of the women, were perceived as unsatisfactory or at least insufficient. This had already had earlier to do with my sexual performance. In my early teens, I discovered masturbation for myself and, almost temporally, a fetish for women's feet and women's shoes. So I was interested in pussy but always a little more interested in everything that started down the legs of a woman. With my first girlfriend, I never managed to get an erection although we both wanted sex together. No matter if she tried to jerk me off or rubbed her bare pussy against my flaccid penis, my penis remained flaccid. Instead, I masturbated, in moments when I was alone at her house, on the worn sandals of her mother. Officially, she separated from me because of the distance, but I learned from a friend of hers that our sex life was probably the right reason.
At that time I didn't make much of this experience and about half a year later I had a new friend, Vera, from the immediate neighborhood. With her the sex worked, so I thought at least, well. I had with her rarely the problem not getting stiff even if I had used a little trick here. So I imagined during sex with my girlfriend with the mother of a good friend to sleep. I was very excited by the thought because I knew the mother well and had a soft spot for her feet and pumps. The relationship lasted just under half a year. During this time she told me again and again that she did not feel my penis properly and her ex-boyfriends were all better equipped. Nevertheless, we made love almost every day.
Lisa was my next girlfriend after four or five times I noticed that she didn't enjoy it. So she even offered me anal sex early on. What sounds good at first changes when you consider that she had written and read on her smartphone during the time. On my demand why we have almost never had vaginal sex she always evaded. Already after two months, we had almost no more sex. I did what I did before and began to jerk off. This time, however, not only on the worn shoes of her mother but also on the worn and partly very dirty ladies' briefs. It came as it had to come and the relationship quickly went to pieces.
I did not let all the experiences from the previous relationships get me down and continued to look for a partner for life. I met Ula over the Internet, but she was from the same city. Although she was not my type of woman at that time, we still got together. She was a bit fuller than chubby and had a special body shape with small breasts, a big belly, a big butt, and a not attractive face. She emphasized her physical beauty flaws with slightly slutty makeup and revealing clothes. Ula excited me a lot. We had sex as often as we had fights and that was very often. We even had sex when her parents were in the next room and because of the brightness of the apartment could hear every bump on the sofa bed and every moan. This was only topped by Ula and I sometimes having sex while her parents were having sex in the next room and we all must have heard each other. At that time I developed a secret weakness for men like her father. Not only once during sex with Ula, I imagined how I blew his little cock while stroking his beer belly and massaging his man boobs. These sexual feelings, especially towards such a type of man, were foreign to me and so I tried to block them out as much as possible.
In the middle of our relationship, the sex between Ula and me suddenly became less. More and more often she told me that her ex-boyfriends, just as was the case with my previous partners, were all better equipped. That especially her last boyfriend before me had a pretty big and great penis. Also, the first rumors came up that she was cheating on me. But I stood behind her and trusted her blindly. Until one day she confessed to me at a carnival party with another man, although I was only at the other end of the party, to have kissed passionately. This made me angry and I was very disappointed in her. After that, within a very short time, there were always new rumors that she received male visitors while I was at work. Ula was already pregnant at that time.
When she separated from me after almost two years, she got together with her new boyfriend within a week. She got together with exactly one of those men with whom there were these cheating rumors. I was very angry with Ula for a while until I suddenly got special thoughts while masturbating. I imagined her having sex with this man, what they would feel and how his semen would come out of her pussy. I wondered if I had bumped into someone else's semen during our relationship or even taken it inside me while licking. It would explain, at least in retrospect, why her pussy was strangely creamy from time to time. The thoughts began to excite me more and more and become more present. This went so far that the anger and jealousy disappeared and I felt only horniness at the thought. On the Internet, I searched for these for me more than strange sensations, and came here for the first time with the word Cuckold in contact. At that time I did not realize that Ula would be the reason for my now very strong cuckold tendencies.
Almost one and a half decades ago I met my current wife Juliana. I would not have dreamed at that time that the relationship with this Ruben woman would last so long. In the first months of our fresh falling in love, we made love frequently, compared to today. Even if we only had normal vaginal and oral sex, the initiative almost always came from her. What I had was enough for me, despite my fetishes at that time. Love was more important to me than an experimental sex life. If we had no sex for several days, I masturbated to her worn nylons and heels. Ula separated in the meantime from her boyfriend and had, again and again, new short-term love relationships which she shared publicly on social media. More and more often I caught myself thinking about how she had sex with these men. The thoughts did not stop during the sex with Juliana. On the contrary, I now began to imagine Juliana sleeping with other men.
It was fitting that at that time Juliana and I had less and less sex and she also told me that she had more sexual fun with her ex-boyfriends than with me. Instead of being disappointed or angry about this, the relationship was going very well everywhere else, I started to replace sex with masturbation. I didn't want to bother her with my sexual desires if she didn't feel much fun having sex with me anyway and only had sex with me so that I was satisfied. Deeper and deeper I slid into the world of virtual sex while we slept together less and less. I developed more and more fetishes and so I went from being a sexually active neutral to a dominant man to a man who is sexually passive, submissive, and submissive. Juliana recognized my sexual change and now also changed herself sexually. They developed a dominant streak and began to savor my sexual passivity and submissiveness.
Our sex life developed steadily over the years away from normality to the current sexual frustration. At the beginning of our relationship, we had sex almost every day, but after 5 years it decreased to 10-11 times a year, after 10 years to 4-5 times a year to currently 1-3 times a year. Juliana confessed to me that she is never sexually aroused and stimulated by me and she prefers to masturbate regularly than to have sex with me. As compensation, she allows me to masturbate as often as I want, to consume porn, to squirt too and on her feet, and generally to live out my sexual life freely within a defined framework. For example, I may show very suggestive pictures and videos of her on the Internet and talk to other men about her and masturbate. The few sex in the year we have together always run after the same three patterns.
Pattern 1: My wife lies down on the bed and stretches her feet in my face so that I can smell them, kiss them and get an erection. When my penis is erect, it is still relatively flaccid but still 10-12cm big, my wife spreads her legs while lying on her back. I now try to insert my penis into her. Almost always a wife must support me but because he is too limp. I then slowly and gently penetrate the pussy of my wife so that my penis does not slip out of her. After 15 to 55 seconds, I then cum in her. I then always get directly, at the request of my wife, a handkerchief and clean her with it immediately her pussy.
Pattern 2: This pattern is similar to the pattern just mentioned. My wife lies down on the bed and stretches her feet in my face so that I can smell them, kiss them and get an erection. If my penis remains completely flaccid, I lie down at the end of the bed and masturbate at the sight of her pussy while continuing to smell her feet. I then either squirt onto my wife's feet or a handkerchief lying on my stomach.
Pattern 3: Last but not least, there is another way we have sex with each other. My wife masturbates in front of me with a vibrator. Every now and then she watches a porn movie. I sit next to her and watch her. Once my wife has come I may lick her vibrator clean. After that, I may watch porn of my choice in front of her. Mostly I watch interracial porn with the same scenario every time. A chubby or fat woman, similar looking to my wife, is having unprotected sex with a black well-endowed man. While in porn watching my wife jerks me off with a Fleshlight. Again, I usually cum in under a minute. She then gives me the fully sprayed Fleshlight so I can clean it like myself.
This way of having conjugal sex with each other, we both know, is not healthy for the relationship. Because of my sexual failure or my sexual inadequacies, I can't blame Juliana for her lack of desire. I can understand that a penis that is not too big, does not get hard properly, and comes too fast is not what Juliana or a woman in general needs. I also understand that my wife doesn't perceive me as a real man anymore when I wear sexy lingerie with painted toenails in front of her or when I suggest to her, again and again, to have sex with other men so that she can finally experience penetrative orgasm again. Juliana even knows that I would allow her a foreign impregnation if she had a child with which I do not want to fulfill her, despite all love. All this does not contribute to the fact that our sex life will improve or change positively in the future.
This year we had sex with each other twice. Juliana now and then secretly stops the time and I always seem to come even faster with so little penetrative sex. In each case already after 10-15 seconds, I came in her pussy. That Juliana must meanwhile giggle about it or brings a mean saying is also more exciting than humiliating for me. I have also found that masturbation is much more pleasant than having real sex. You don't have to worry if your penis is too small or too flaccid. Whether one comes too early or can perform like other men. You no longer have to stress about whether you can do it right for the woman and whether she will have an orgasm. Above all, you save yourself the unpleasant comments and gestures which inevitably come against you when you fail in sex over and over again. I now try to avoid sex myself and acknowledge that it is better for women and myself.
But that does not mean that I only do it with my hand. Also, I do not get along without penetrative sex. I just prefer to penetrate a plastic pussy, a Fleshlight, instead of a real pussy. The plastic pussy does not get pregnant and I have sex just as I want it without having to disappoint all the time in the back of my mind. I also like to penetrate women's shoes just as much, preferably peep toe, sandals, and mules. Sex with shoes just feels fantastic to me. I could have had sex with Juliana four times this year instead of twice, but I saw that she, as always, has no desire and would only do it out of a sense of duty. For this reason, I have avoided becoming intimate with my wife and instead a short time later rather penetrated her new heels, in her presence. It was not wrong to her but she was already surprised that I refused the offer to mount her, only to have sex with her heels in front of her a short time later.
Probably in the future, we will not even have sex every year. In addition to whether, how, and with whom sex will take place in the future are variables that are not yet foreseeable for the future. Juliana currently excludes sex with other men. However, she has opened up to the topic over the years so she would like to keep the option open for the future if I would still want it. In addition, she has been completely sexually unsatisfied for over a decade and she thinks that satisfying sex is nice and is also a feeling that she would like to have again. For myself, a cuckold relationship would be a future wishful scenario. I would see my wife sexually satisfied which is very important to me. I would grant her every orgasm from the bottom of my heart and it would make me proud to see how she, my wife Juliana, brings another man, a black man, to orgasm. Instead of pussies, which does not work anyway, I would like to bring big black penises to orgasm in the future. Older and heavily obese black men with big black penises now excite me more than beautiful slender women with tight pussies. The future sexual frustration will continue if Juliana and I will not find a solution for our different sexual developments.
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Posted on : Mar 26, 2023
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