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Orgasm Control - Update
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I am very pleased to share with everyone that in regrad to my previous description - getting back onto antidepressant Paxil (Paroxetine 20 mg tablet), I have been back on it since October 28th. My quest to be Orgasm Deprived is Entirely Successful.
Since I have been unsuccessful in finding people to Sexually Dominate me - for Their Pleasure - regardless of my own - actually Instead Of My Own - I am now succeeding in utterly Depriving Myself of the ability to reach Any Sexual Climax, to be able to achieve Orgasm or Ejaculation.
I do miss the ejaculation however, because I miss eating my Cum.
An amazingly exciting Benefit is that my arousal sensitivity is significantly increased. It only takes a mere thought - or even a very light Touch on my crotch to feel exciited - Especially knowing there is no possibility of having ANY Sxual Climax.
The first time I attempted to masurbate - and could not - I felt rather hurt, diappointed, DEPRIVED. So then I gladly accepted and willingly & eagerly Championed my Self-Pleasure REJECTION.
When I see pictures that I like, I get a surge of feeing from my throat all the way to my crotch to a point that it may even make my body Tremble and Shake ... and I simply Love feeling that way - Shaking with Lust.
When I use my all time Favorite Sex Toy, my Elctro-Simulation Ureathral "sound" it is very intense, more than ever before and I simply Love It, especailly since that's "as good as it gets" ... constant stimulation without any possibility of Climax = No Ograsms.
When I first began the Paxil treatment in the mid 1990s and experienced orgasm prevention all those years ago - I sort of liked it, yet I was also Not accessing Interenet OR Pornography (for a few years, until 1998). So I had no idea about Domination and Submission - nor any introduction to such immence sexual possiblity, particularly as a Beta Faggot Boi and so Very suitable to my mental, emotional. and sexual levels of Disability, Depravity, and Deviance.
Thus I am SO pleased with finding Image Fap - my Greatest opportunity in my life - to discover, enjoy, and open up myself to getting really, really, Dirty ... Lustful into sheer Perversity and Deviance.
So, to the depth of my Heart and of my sincere Queer-ness, I thank all of you for your contributions.
I really AM an Asexual, Queer, Cock-Sucking Sissy-Faggot Wanna-BE.
Thank you all for encourging my success.
And always remember, there Must Be some really nice people that I can meet who will FUCK Me, especially more than one and more than one at one time - my best most favorite Need.
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Posted on : Nov 11, 2022
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Commented on Jun 10, 2023
Wow, it's been eight months now with self-imposed fapping prohibition - it has been quite lovely to experience such higher physical sensitivity in ordinary ways with vastly appropriate Suppression - to mimic being submissive to, controlled by, and managed by other people ... only I still very much Need people to Fuck me ... and that's finally becoming more possible than ever before, thanks to finding someone to (potentially) get started, and to Meet Others - possibly even a Group of them (no fooling) ... Wow !!
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Commented on May 31, 2023
So as of April it was Six Months with no Fapping, then I missed a dose or two - and during porn surfing I was jerking myself - usually helplessly soft, when I began getting actually Hard and then realized I was going to Cum - and almost went into a panic, no glass or cup nearby, so I caught most of it in my hand - it was a very unusual Lot of cum (for me) and actually Squirted out with a strength I haven't seen since I was in my teens - actually I think More that Ever.
I licked it out of my palm and oh my goodness gracious, it was Delicious - better than I could even imagine.
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Commented on Feb 6, 2023
This is to update about myself on Paxil since it is now OVER three months being Orgasm Free - and YAY - I really LIKE being Orgasm Deprived. I know without any doubt that what I Really Need are some Dominators to operate me, yet in lieu of Those Lovely Humans' attention, I can simulate one Important aspect of my Sexuality, that of Need, SO due to my successful ongoing Chemical Orgasm Prevention, my goal is to continue to my Six Months point, then I'll go from there.
I hope I can find someone to Fuck Me, completely unable to Orgasm or Ejaculate my Cum To Drink - which I really miss a lot, but you know a Gurl has her place to honor and obey, right ??
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