I sorry about no structure to story and my English had got bad. Worse than two year ago I think. Anyways, I just want to write my feeling and thoughts down. I hope it not difficult to read in it.

I have a wonderful boyfriend now. He caring and considerate, but I still lust for other man cock. I often go to bar or host club after my work. I not hypocrite person, for if he wanted to fuck another girl, I would let him. I think this kind of common in Japan, that why we have host/hostess club and love hotel.

I have tried not to do it, but I feel need to have sex encounter with a stranger. It so exciting to give myself to men. I really love have many men fuck me at one time, all using me just for they pleasure. I like airtight (I just learnt this word lol) To have a man cock in all my holes at one time is wonderful feeling.

Many men use condom, but I no like. I want a man to cum inside me. It like they leaving their ownership in me, and I feel like it a lifetime connection. I know I am a slut girl, and I was embarrassed about that before, but now I know and like being a slut girl. Sex is great, I think.

Somebody asked if I had foreigner before and yes I have had many foreigner guy. Not so much over last few years, but in past I had sex with many foreigner, especially when I was in the UK. My boyfriend was a swinger so we went to swinger club many time. I was only 24-25 year old at time, so had many older man. I actually love older man, even grandfather age. It like I am giving them a service and I love older guy using me for kinky sex. We would go to many club and private house for swinger fun and I really enjoyed. I don’t mind look or age, I just like to be used. I think this because I don’t want them as boyfriend, only for sex so looks and age ok.

When I come back to Japan after UK, I met a man who was Dom man, he controlled my private life and it was both good and a bad thing. It good because there is something good about letting man control you, especially in a sexual way. He used me so much. He actually not like sex with me, but enjoyed watching me getting fucked. He arranges different guy or guys each week and I had many sex. It bad because I wanted to have career and I want job. I did glamour model and many of my pics you can see online, but I wanted to work in TV studio and about five years ago I get a job in biggest TV studio in Japan. I very happy. But because I had less time and because I get older, my boyfriend leave me for young girl. I was very sad, but also happy, because I want new life.

For a few year I try to be normal girl, but I guess I just slut girl, because I found I needed sex with stranger again. I guess we cannot change who we are in side.

Much love and lust Ayaka xx