Heck yeah. I would love for my man to let me force his unwilling cock deep down my throat until I could taste the precum and just to completely stop and think about his decisions. And tease the tip of his cock with my tongue. But for me it’s only a A fantasy. Because I know he will never let me in to partake with him. It’s so fucking selfish especially when he tells me he wants to spend the rest of his life with me.

e , it’s not to be with me . It’s so he won’t die alone. As much as he is into this, which I know he had been into bondage and stuff since at least 2006. But he will not open up to me about. It’s a very selfish act on his part. Because Irl him and I could have sooo much fun with his knowledge and my willingness to please him . And no I wouldn’t dare hurt him . Now I would technically cheat on him with someone I thought was him. If that makes any sense. I wanna partake in his activities so bad. And idk or even slightly understand why he want let me in. I was gonna buy a bondage kit for his birthday and he told me I was too sweet and he wouldn’t ever do that with me . So Im just realizing as I text this , that him and I will never make it. We won’t be able to. And it sucks. For some reason he won’t allow me in and as hard as I have tried to force my way into this part of his life I think I have finally accepted. I don’t know if he keeps it to himself because he is selfish or scared of my reaction. He just doesn’t understand how my I love him. And when I say love like real love unconditionally. But knowing he continues to chat with strangers about his fantasy and can’t share them with me is a breach in our commitment. And again I have trust issues so. That and if he truly wanted to spend eternity together then he would not only share this experience with me but also wanna share this experience with me . It makes me wonder what’s wrong with me? Not to be conceited but I’m very proportional, and I do a damn fine job of keeping my appearance up especially for him . My body’s always smooth only to be prepared for his touch. And not only that in bed I’m super sexual with little gag reflex. So I guess if I decide to Journey down this path it will be alone. As bad as I would like him  to force as many orgasms out if my tight lil pussy I just don’t see it a reality. It's not fair but I guess it's apart of life .