What the fuck am I doing. How can I sit here while he is out in my living room with my wife. Fuck this shit. I don't even know what I want to do. Do I give up? do I fight? Do I suck it up and play along? Do I beg to be made a slave of some kind? Fuck fuck fuck I hate making choices. Someone take all this from me cause I don't want to deal with it again.
