I've been wearing the spikes in the cage for the last several days again, and it's starting to be be true suffering. I've been denied for a while now, and my balls are as full as they're going to get.

"The burn" (it's not really a burn, but I don't know the correct description for it) has started. The burn is a feeling in my balls that's telling me to cum, to masturbate, to experience pleasure. It's telling me that I must have an orgasm, and right fucking now.

But, I want to suffer, I need to suffer. I need the pain and desperation of feeling myself try and get erect in my spiked cage, and feeling those spikes dig in unmercifully. I need the pain of waking up in the middle of the night, feeling the spikes digging in, and knowing that it's going to get worse. And the more desperate I get, the harder I try to become, and the more it hurts. It feels like a miniture alligator trying to bite my cock off - I've never been bitten by a miniture alligator, but I can assume that that's the way it feels. 

And there I am, surfing porn on xvidoes and xhamster, of people fucking and cum flying everywhere, while sit here and throb, in pain, and knowing this is what I deserve.