I was just messaging with a new friend on this platform. We have exchanged a couple of lengthy messages, and I thought they wrote really well and in a manner that was sexually stimulating while also being honest and realistic. I don't know about you, but when I find myself chatting online or filling out profiles for dating, hookup, or porn sites, I'm often asked to write what I'm interested in/into, what my experience has been, and what I am looking for. I answer those questions (or don't) with varrying degrees of honesty and eloquence. Sometimes, I feel like what I write is an acurate representation of who I am, but a lot of the time, I am not satisfied with what I produce. When I was reading my friend's messages earlier, it struck me that this might be the ideal time to take a stab at really answering those questions - maybe just for myself (who's really going to read this?), but that migh be a valuable enough exercise in itself - if I can clearly set my intentions, I have a better chance of moving on a path toward my goals. I'm relatively new on this platform, and I've never posted anything like this before, so why not give it a shot?

I'm 47 years old. I was married for 7 years, and have been divorced for about 7. I got married when I was 31, so I was sexually experienced before committing to my ex-wife. We were monogomous until we separated. My marriage was a time of sexual satisfaction (mostly), but not of exploration. Since being back on my own, I've had one serious relationship, and several other sexual encounters/relationships. 

I'm straight, but that's such a stupid term, and it represents something like "blue;" we are all thinking of different shades. Here's my shade of straight: I am incapable of feeling roamntic emotions about men. I don't find men attractive in a romantic way. I am completely comfortable with who I am sexually, and that feeling has allowed me to realize that being naked around other men can be fun, jerking off with other guys can be fun (but almost never is due to a lack of being on the same page as far as desires go), and having a threesome with another man and a woman is great! I had nbo idea, but it turns out that MMF threesomes are like THE BEST. I've been lucky to be part of several, and when it comes to what I want to do more of in the future, that's the answer. Ideally, I would like to have all three of these scenarios going on at the same time (with everyone's knowledge/consent):

1. I'd love to have a gf, but differnt than ever before. I've dated so much in the past, but have put that part of my life on hold over the past few years to focus on family/business. I'm single now, but unlike in the past, am in no hurry to have a committed girlfriend. This time, I'd like to find a woman who is positive, fun, and sexually adventurous. I would like us to be committed, but to engage in some swinging. I would like to have MMF threesomes with her at least once a month, so long as it was satisfying for us both.

2. I'd like to find another couple to join regularly. In the past, I've done this, and it has been wonderful. It takes some time to get things right, and in the beginning there are clumsy moments. I'm good at communicating, and I'm interested in facilitating new sexual connections and fulfillment for the couple. It's so fucking hot to bring a new level of excitement and pleasure into another relationship. I would like to make new friends for that kind of fun.

3. I still think it could be possible to have a cool, laid-back, like-minded jek off buddy. I've tried with very limited success. I like and respect gay people - truly - but I don't think it works to try this with gay guys. It isn't fair to them because they always want more - a deeper connection or sex - and I just do not. I've chatted with several men online who share my view, but so far, I have not met one in real life. The whole reason I want to have a cool jerk off buddy is so that once we are really comfortable around each other we can do MMF threesomes. I believe the hottest MMF set-ups involve guys who aren't bi, but like the idea of being naked togetherm fucking together - as a team, and even enjoy the contact. I'm like that, and I do think it would be great to have a friend who felt the same, but I'm not looking for anything more emotionally-charged than an occasional porn session and all the MMF we can arrange!

I don't know why anyone would be interested in all of this, and it's probably the most self-indulgent thing I've ever written - a list of my sexual desires; great! Anyway, it feels good to get it out, and hopefully the next thing I write will be about a new experience I've had...