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Now that I have a boyfriend, my life is much busier than I expected; not only am I taking care of myself, but also his feelings and emotions, which can be I am not a caring person, I mean I want to save people's lives and make connections, but a long-term relationship or connection is such a struggle for me. Usually I just walk away when things get annoying, maybe that is why I have never been in a relationship that lasted more than six months.
However, I have been working hard and trying to make this relationship work, and Nick actually helped a lot by being supportive of my "personal interest", but I also try my best not to push him too hard, I haven't had any sex with others. Even though it is fun to make love with him, sooner or later I will have sex with someone else, for that is the purpose of having an open relationship.
Those who remember me may recall I was adopted, and never got the chance to meet my biological parents, or I should say, never had the courage to find out, since all the documents were in the basement of my old home, sitting like a mountain, and early this year, I finally hired a private investigator to locate them for me.
The report from PI has been waiting for me for ages, but because I've been working and traveling, I've been procrastinating. Since I'm back and I'm craving something to distract myself from fucking some black guys in the alley, I thought I'd see if I could start reading it now.
So, my parents are still alive and well? Sort of, since my dad is still in prison.
My mother is British. She had me at the age of 13 and was a stupid teenage girl at the time. She left me at an orphanage in Sweden when she had me, and my mum, who is a distant relative of my biological father, later found out about my existence and adopted me.
She tried to make porn in Japan when she was 18, but it didn't work, so she didn't publish it. When she eventually returned to London, she became a part-time hooker while attending night school. She is now 35 years old, married with two children, and an office lady.
So I have a brother and sister, age 5 and 7, "so help me, Lord, let's hope they didn't walk the old path like her and I."
My biological father was stupid enough not to wear a condom when he had some fun with my mother when he was 14 or so, and worse, for leaving her pregnant and taking no responsibility for his actions. When my mother tried to track him down, he moved to Spain, and from there to the US, where he ran with a gang, sold drugs to kids, and got into a lot of trouble, but never had the guts to do anything major.
DEA drug bust, stupid enough to fire his gun, lucky no one gets hurt except him, did he somehow shoot himself? He has served 10 years of his sentence, and will be released later this year.
So, this is my biological family, a teenage mother, a stupid father, a 5 years brother and a 7 years old sister.
No idea what I should do with this information, should I reach out to them?
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