Writing about my sexual life makes me sooooo horny, so...

 

 

I consider that I have had "2 first times" with women.

The first when I was 13 and the second when I was 16.

Let's begin with my very first experience at 13.

When I was 13, I felt very strongly attracted to boys. I was not going through that famous phase where you have to doubt your sexual identity. I was always concerned about seducing guys and dreamed of having a story with a handsome, muscular 20 year old boy...etc., a total teenage cliché! All my first sexual fantasies, I'm sure, revolved around muscles, hard cocks stretched towards me (without knowing what I could really do with them!), never any girl appeared in what I considered to be "strange thoughts".But then, like in a bad erotic movie scenario, everything changed the day we went on a school trip for 5 days with my friends. 

I found myself in the same room as my best friend at the time and 4 other girls. And, obviously, all 6 of us we spent our time talking about the boys of our class or the other classes, sometimes in "hysterical mode", you know :D. 

The routine settles quickly in this kind of trip, we take our ease...etc. But, in the morning, it's hard to get ready when we are 13 years old with 6 girls sharing the same bathroom... we have to wait for each other, we take too much time... etc. At the beginning, we respected each other but the second day, it was already a real mess. So, everyone went in and out to brush their teeth, dry their hair, put on bad sluttish makeup (yeah, at 13 years old! At this age some girls we think that boys like that...). 

On the 3rd day I think, it was total anarchy in the bathroom. We also started to "stink" because girls wanna be beautiful but are not always up to date on personal hygiene (yeah, boys! It's the terrible truth!)... But I was already at 13 years old a bit manic on the subject! So I decided to take a shower that morning (I was the only one to do it, the others were still dirty pigs!) 'cause we had shower in the bathroom. Anyway, I was showering but I could feel that someone was watching me. I looked everywhere madly: nothing, nobody.

On the 4th morning, I took another shower in the morning (my friends, still not!..) and I still had that feeling of being observed to the point of becoming a little paranoid. I decided to talk about it directly with my roommates, obviously my roommates told me I was crazy, no boys could enter our bathroom...etc. As for me, I decided not to take a shower until the end of the school trip.

The night between the 4th and 5th day of the trip (here's the bad erotic scenario...), I took my Mp3 to listen to my music quietly to help me to fall asleep as every night. After a while I felt a weight on my bed, I remember that I jumped like crazy in silence. I turn around and see one of the roommates, a little blondie I barely knew, smiling at me. Then I understood evrything, of course. I knew who was watching me when I showered in the morning. It was a little scary 'cuz the girl had this natural, innocent, sweet smile. She whispered something to me like "you're so pretty, you're so pretty", I'm not sure. And I started laughing, a little embarrassed, and said "thank you!" :D I was really uncomfortable and the girl told me again "you're really too pretty".

Then she asked me "Do you think I'm pretty?" or something like that. I didn't answer, I mumbled something like "leave me alone"... and then, directly, the girl put a hand on one of my tits, started to play with it, and, at the same time, she took my hand to grab her tits!

At that exact moment I felt an electric shock in my head and body that today I still can't explain or describe.

We started kissing like crazy, the "teen way", lots of clumsy wet tongue play :D. well, I realized that the 4 other girls could catch us. Suddenly, I said "the others will hear us" so this girl I barely knew took my hand and told me to follow her to the bathroom.

There it began to be sort of an "hormone revolution". We made out for long minutes and I really felt that desire waking up between my thighs... So I took the initiative to put my hand in my friend's pajama pants, to look for something in her panties, I didn't know what exactly! But I needed it. 

This feeling of touching a "stranger's" pussy for the first time is something I will remember all my life. I knew the "geography" of my own pussy for two years but discovering another one so different from yours was so fucking strange. I felt her pubic hairs, softer than mine, ran my fingers awkwardly over my friend's wet parts while she was doing the same with her fingers in my own pants... a whirlwind of sensations almost impossible to describe. My blonde "lover" of the moment was moaning quietly, I think I was moaning too, I don't remember... it was so hot, so unpredictable, so good...

We had to stop because of noises we heard in the hallway and the fear to be caught by a teacher or a friend. My heart was beating so fucking fast... we went back to our beds, we smiled at each other, and that was it.

The day after, my lover from the night before and I acted as if nothing had happened, we even snubbed each other, of course! I went showering, and nobody was watching. We never spoke again. Then I cried every day for three weeks, not because of a heartache but because I was disgusted and I felt "dirty", wicked. I didn't want to felt attracted to girls, because I felt I was sincerely attracted to boys. I didn't understand. When I started to wank looking for girl/girl porn videos as well as boy/girl scenes on my little phone (no more Mp3!) that I understood that I really liked women...