A first attempt to articulate my ultimate sissy sex slavery fantasy in words in 10 parts (and probably more). Hope you enjoy and can relate ;] 

 I looked up at master from the floor, bound, caged and gagged as I now remained almost 24/7 after one month of training getting used to having my wrists and ankles almost permanently in bondage. After greeting me with his usual ‘sissy whore' (these days I had no other name) he took a moment to admire my feminine physique and what little clothes he had ordered me to wear today. I lowered my head and looked up at his crotch following the normal morning routine ready to push myself up on my knees and crawl over to him with my face in front of his crotch expecting him to pull out his cock and remove my gag allowing me to give him his morning blowjob. But as I began raising myself off the ground as best I could with my wrists cuffed together he raised his hand and I instantly sat back down having become much attuned to his every command, whether verbal or physical. He then said ‘knees' and almost automatically I pushed myself up onto my knees initially struggling to balance myself. Approaching me he unclipped the leash from my collar and clipped it onto the padlock on my clitty cage, noticing that my cock had filled the cage and that I was obviously aroused. ‘Eyes down' he ordered as he tugged on the leash and I was forced to crawl on my knees behind him being pulled by my caged clitty as I lowered my eyes to the floor. Struggling to keep up with him as the leash uncomfortably pulled my cage up and away from my abdomen, saliva began falling from my gagged mouth as I sucked in each breathe. I crawled down the hall way and into a small utility room where he had set up the 8" black dildo for my daily cock sucking training.

My training was usually conducted in the afternoon so I was a little surprised that he hadn't wanted a blowjob and that my training was to begin so early. Clipping the leash back onto my collar I automatically crawled to the dildo and lowered myself in front of it. It was a realistic looking dildo secured to the wall with a small digital timer at my eye level and a small button attached to the balls below the end of the shaft. Finally about a metre directly above the dildo I recognised the camera with its lens pointing down at me ready to film the training as usual. Ungagging me but leaving the gag hanging around my collar he took the end of my leash and passed it through a hook in the wall below the dildo and pulled it down forcing my head forward so that my lips were pressed up against the head of the dildo. He then said ‘spread' and I slid my legs apart so that he could access my balls. Keeping the leash in tension he wrapped it tightly three times around the top of my balls then pulled it back up and slipped the end of the leash onto the hook in the wall. The length of the leash and height of the hook had been perfectly adjusted so that any attempt by me to pull my lips away from the dildo head would cause the leash to painfully tighten around my balls as well as pull on them. As I knelt there immobilised with my knees almost touching the wall in front of me I kept my lips against the head as he used some rope to cinch my elbows tightly together behind my back and then another rope to tightly tie my wrist cuffs to my ankle cuffs. Immobilized and forced to straighten my back whilst still keeping my lips against the dildo he said '10 minute warm up then deep throat, increasing 5 second intervals to 30 seconds then repeat 10 times with 10 seconds between each deep throat, constant eye contact, begin'. As he took down his favourite leather crop from the wall and stepped back, but within reach of my ass with the crop, I began kissing and licking the dildo head as I looked up at the camera and began to make slurping and moaning sounds. During the warm up I was expected to lubricate the dildo shaft with my saliva as well as practice my teasing and sucking of the cock head. As I constantly kept my eyes up towards the camera above me I regularly ran my lips and tongue over the shaft, licking and sucking the head in between, ensuring that my moans and slurping was loud enough to be picked up by the camera microphone. Having trained on the dildo for at least a month I knew that after a few minutes my mind would become blank with all my focus on the dildo in my mouth. I had named it my cock whore zone, a state of mind where I automatically worshiped cock combined with a total lack of awareness of my surroundings. It was almost as if blinkers had been placed on me so that my whole field of vision was taken up by cock.

As I became totally immersed in the cock sucking training I began to unconsciously sway my ass in time with my sucking and licking, arch my lower back and focus on the lens of the camera above me even more intensely, showing myself off as a sissy cock slave. With the digital timer at eye level approaching nine minutes I continued working hard to lick on the shaft, covering it with saliva to ensure it was well lubricated. As the 10 minute mark approached I began sucking on the dildo, sliding my lips halfway up its shaft as I prepared for 25 minutes of continuous deep throating. As I sucked on the shaft I remembered the early days of my training, painful ones, where keeping the cock down my throat for more than 5 seconds was difficult. Many hours of training and cropping of my ass slowly did their work so that I was now confident that I could complete the session without feeling the slap of his crop against my bare ass. Watching the digital timer as it clicked over to 10 minutes whilst keeping my eyes looking into the lens of the camera I slid my mouth down the cock shaft until I could feel the button on the balls against my lower lip. Swallowing the whole shaft with the end of my nose touching the wall in front of me I arched my back so that I could keep eye contact with the lens knowing that master would review the footage later and I would be severely punished if I lost eye contact even for a moment. Thankfully the dildo was quite flexible so that I could angle it down whilst swallowing it. After five seconds I pulled my mouth back and continued gently sucking the shaft for another 10 seconds, slurping loudly, as the timer reset and this time I deep throated the dildo for 10 seconds. I was in the zone at his point as each 10 second gap passed and the time I kept the whole shaft in my mouth increased by 5 seconds. Approaching the end of the first two minute cycle I swallowed the dildo again and watched the timer as it counted down the 30 seconds, my lips around the base of the shaft whilst I skilfully prevented the head of the cock from blocking off my air supply, a skill I had learnt slowly, with much difficulty and tears. As the thirty seconds ended I gratefully let the dildo slid from my mouth as saliva dribbled from my lips whilst continuing to suck it in preparation for the next cycle. From the corner of my eye I saw master hang his crop and walk out of the room shutting the door behind him, obviously satisfied that I would complete my cock sucking training without any mistakes. Alone in the dimly lit and empty room I continued deep throating the large dildo at 10 second intervals, my mind blank except for various sissy mantras I had learnt to keep me occupied and focused on cock sucking. As the next cycle ended and with 8 more to complete I began repeating the first of my simple mantras, ‘I'm a cock whore', over and over again, letting it wash over me, reinforcing the fact that I was a submissive sissy sex slave. By the fifth cycle tears were starting to run down my cheeks as saliva constantly dribbled from my lips onto my thighs as I started another mantra, repeating over and over, ‘You're a sex slave for cock'. These mantras had the added advantage of increasing my arousal, my clitty squeezed inside its cage, as they highlighted to me over and over my hopeless, humiliating and degrading circumstance. ‘I love being a sissy sex slave' I repeated as I began the eighth cycle, continuing to deep throat the dildo, eyes watering but still making eye contact with the camera, saliva surrounding my lips and dripping off my chin, as over and over the head of the cock stretched my aching throat. As the final moments of my training approached I almost gloried in my situation as a stared up at the camera, permanently exposed as the sissy cock whore I had become as I pressed my lips right up against the balls for the final 30 second deep throat, tears rolling down my eyes, half my face covered in saliva, focusing totally on the thick dildo down my throat, arching my back even more as the timer stopped and it was over. I heard the camera click off as the wet dildo slipped from my mouth and I continued pressing my lips against its head as saliva poured off it over my chest and thighs. As my blank mind slowly came back online I deliberately pulled my head back and lips off the dildo, enjoying the sharp pain as the leash around my balls tightened, my clitty hard in its cage and my little pink g-string tight against my ass pussy.

A moment later master entered the room as I waited patiently in position as without a word he released my leash and untied the rope from my wrists to my ankles allowing me to stretch my aching back but he left the elbows cinched tightly behind my back. He briefly inspected my face ensuring that my make-up and lipstick hadn't smudged, enjoying the fact that the bottom half of my face was wet with saliva. ‘Up' he ordered as he took hold of the rope between my elbows and I rocked back and up onto my 5" locked on stilettos. Gaining my balance I stood there as master circled and inspected his sissy slave, lifting and pulling on my clitty cage, slightly pulling down the front of my g-string to reveal the black tattoo above my clitty ‘cock whore'. He pressed his fingers against my lips pushing them into my mouth as I poked out my tongue and he played with my small cock-shaped tongue piercing before fondling one of my cock-shaped earrings and the cock-shaped navel piercing on display against my smooth hairless abdomen. I sensed at any moment that he would order me onto my knees and pull his cock out and feed me his cum. Ready and very willing to suck him off I was disappointed not to receive my morning feed when instead he stepped around me and ran his hand over my other tattoo over my lower back ‘Fuck my pussy'. Pulling my g-string up tightly with one hand so that it split my ass pussy lips in two he continued stretching it up as he firmly spanked each of my ass cheeks and alternated between one and the other as I consciously bent forward, my cheeks beginning to feel warm and I imagined quite red after 15 spanks each. Leaving my ass cheeks with a warm glow he then pulled out a penis gag from his pocket and whilst leaving my ball gag hanging around my neck pressed the tip of the 4" gag against my lips. I instinctively parted my lips as he forced it into my mouth and buckled it tightly around the back of my head. With my tongue I quickly pushed up on the rubber shaft in my mouth and kept it there to ensure it didn't touch the back of my throat. With my lips tightly wrapped around the end of the 4" shaft master took the end of my leash and tugged on it forcing me to begin hobbling behind him, taking rapid and short steps in my high heels as he lead me back down the corridor. Attempting to minimise the discomfort caused by the penis gag particularly as my throat was quite sore from the dildo training I barely kept up with him as he opened the door to his garage where his small minivan was parked. This surprised me as I hadn't been inside the van since the day my life changed forever, the day master threatened to expose me to the world, to family, friends and fellow workers, using all my details and sissy porn images of me he had hacked from my computer. With the threat of exposure he bound and gagged me in my own unit and forced me into the van to start my new life as a submissive sissy slave.

As I focused again on the present he pulled open the single back door and ordered ‘in'. I hobbled to the back of the van and carefully sat on the thinly matted floor with my legs still hanging off the back end of the van. Carefully I used my hands to drag myself further into the van and slid my legs up onto the mat as well, sliding myself down towards the front of the van. I looked around me at the dark and windowless cargo area, the steel walls and frame rusting away with remaining white paint peeling off in many places. Master then climbed inside and by my arms twisted me down to the floor with one side of my face against the mat and my back and ass cheeks facing the ceiling. I felt him grab my wrist cuffs and sliding rope through the heavy padlock keeping them locked together pulled the other end through the padlock between my ankle cuffs and then expertly repeated the process several times, twisting the rope around itself and then wrapping its end several more times around both heels of my stilettos so that my feet were tightly bound together and useless. Completing his hog tie I lay there helplessly, the penis gag pressing up against my throat as I tried to hold it at bay with my tongue. Pulling down my g-string and leaving it around my thighs he ordered ‘hold apart' and pulling my hands down as best I could forcing my lower legs even further down against my back as well I grabbed an ass cheek in each hand and spread them to reveal my ass pussy to master. I then felt him quickly insert a tube into it and then felt lubricant fill my pussy. Keeping my ass cheeks apart with my hands I then felt the cold steel of the lockable expandable butt plug that he regularly used on me. Pressing it against my pussy lips its 5" easily slipped into my ass and once fully inserted he twisted the end so that it opened up inside me and spreading my ass pussy uncomfortably. Using a small padlock he locked it in place and I let go of my ass cheeks, the now wide steel plug locked inside my pussy. As I anxiously wondered where I was being taken saliva began dripping from my lips beneath the penis gag as he rolled me onto my side, his sissy slave immobilised, mouth and ass full, and pulling down my pink bandau and orange bra pinched each of my nipples before clipping on weighted nipple clamps in the shape of a cock. I gave out a low groan beneath my penis gag as he clipped each one onto my nipples and the pain had barely time to subside before he slid a thin black hood over my head and tightened it around my neck leaving me in complete darkness but still able to breathe if with a little effort. As my eyes adjusted to the darkness I felt a pull on my leash and heard him clip the other end tightly to a hook in the floor. Ensuring that I was unable to move at all I felt a chain being wrapped between my ankle cuffs and pulled along the floor to another hook. Hogtied and tied to the floor I was completely immobile and helpless, wondering why all this effort was required to transport me to an unknown destination. I then heard master jump out of the van and slam and lock the rear door leaving his sissy slave in total darkness.