Feeling destructive

 

 

I don't know what it is or why I'm feeling very very destructive so much so I want to smash my phone laptop desktop TV anything I can! I'm trying to breathe slow and just relax! I thought that I would put on a movie watching Sonic the Hedgehog at the moment and thought that I would blog! 

 

I can feel my heart beating in my chest it's beating slightly fast due to my aggravation! It's times like this that make me wish that I just didn't exsist any longer! I'm tired of feeling this way my mood goes from ok to extreme low, angry, depressed, horny, sad, aggravated in 2.5 seconds! The fact that I'm lonely doesn't help any of this either! I don't know why I visit this site scrolling through these galleries of beautiful nude teens makes me even more depressed than I already am! 

 

99.9% of the time when I'm going through these galleries I'm wishing that I could be with any of these beautiful teens! I would just like to be with one! I would love to lay in bed with anyone of them laying skin to skin holding each other spooning! I would literally worship them as long as they walk around naked for me! I would make love to them eat their pussy make them feel like the special angel that they are! I'd would just admire their pussy all nice and shaved smooth telling her all the things I would do to her making her wet! 

 

My Perfect girl!  

 

 

My perfect girl would be 5'2 long brown or dark hair beautiful eyes she could be petite or she could have curves! I don't mind a girl that is a little on the thick side as long as she isn't FAT! I dated this girl once that would curvy she had 36D breasts she was 5'2 brown eyes sexy legs long auburn hair that went to her shoulders! She sort of has to be short as I'm not that tall myself and I would feel awkward with a girl taller than me! She would most definitely have to have long hair that goes down to her shoulders! There is something about girls with long hair that turns me on to no end! As far as breast sizes go I don't like breasts that overly large! 36D were enough for me anything from a 36D and lower are perfect for me! I like areolas that are nice not too large you know like those that take up like half the beast large and any nipples are fine! She must have beautiful eyes brown blue hazel any color! Personality is a must as well I don't like girls with bitchy personalities! I want a girl that is funny kind open minded caring loves sex isn't shy about her body! She must shave her pussy or not even have hair on her pussy it doesn't matter as long as it's bald! I knew this girl when I was a teenager in this church youth group she had the smoothest legs and she even whispered to me that her pussy was just as smooth as her legs! If only I knew then what I know now I might have done something with her!

 

 

 

Chelsea 

There was this teen her name was Chelsea I knew her through my youngest brother! She was 5'1 100lbs if that much petite sexy legs very sexual she was 16yrs old and I was in my early 40's! I was caring for my disabled sister and my brother after my mon passed away! Chelsea used to come over and hang out with my sister and brother sometimes she would hang out with me! This little girl was a fucking cock teasing whore! When she wasn't visisting my sister she would hang out with me in the living room! There was this one time it had been snowing school was closed she called and asked if she could come over and hang out! I told her my sister was still asleep and so was my brother! She said she was bored and didn't have anything to do at her house! I told her sure I mean I'm not completely stupid! She walked over through the snow and crashed on the other couch! Prior to her calling asking to come over I had been watching teen porn in the DVD player! When she asked to come over I turned the DVD player off but not before switching out the DVD! I didn't really hide the teen porn DVD all that well! I gave her the remote to the TV and told her I was going to take a nap! When I had awaken from my nap Chelsea asked if she could watch a movie and not really thinking I said sure I asked her what movie she told me she wanted to watch The Incredible Hulk that I had on DVD! I said sure! What I didn't know was that while I was sleeping she had been snooping and found my teen porn and slipped it into the DVD player while I was asleep! The teen porn was CD girls 6 girl orgy! It had 6 girls that looked very young however were of legal age! These 6 teen girls spent the whole time naked using vibrators on each other and Chelsea wanted to watch this movie! I explicitly told her I couldn't watch this movie with her in the room and she asked why! I told her she knew why a guy couldn't watch teen porn with an attractive sexy teen such as herself and not get turned on! Chelsea was a hot piece of ass that I would have loved to fuck I won't lie! She knew I wanted to fuck her and she teased me! She once let me see her titties she would sun bath in my back yard she once sat on the couch across from me shaved her pussy while under a blanket! This is how I knew she was a fucking cock teasing whore! This one time she had been out with some friends that had access to alcohol and she got drunk! Because she was drunk she couldn't go home or her mom would find out and be pissed! She come over to my house crashed on the couch watching TV until she passed out! She had taken her clothes off except for her bra and panties! Oh Jesus H Christ I wanted to r**e the shit out of her so bad! If only I had been home alone I think I would have! 

 

Well I'm feeling a bit better now Sonic the Hedgehog is about to go off and it's almost dinner time! Thank you for allowing me to blog my thoughts maybe next time I will share something more private!