So yes, i do have one of those. And as of a few painful hours ago it's offically clear. 

From where i sit i can hardly see past the pain. (the word of the day) lol

yeah..so anyhoo! My oh my how a year can go by. Or...was it the world that infact went by and the little sliver of the west i was in was in some perma-hooneymoon phase... 

If it wasent real please explain these memories that are  keeping my mind open as my eyes shut out the rubble and the destructuon left by what can becoeme of a love gone dark.

When the heart goes there's almost nothing that can restore those feelings of new love.

The feling that no matter what the world can piut before US that WE will face it side by side.

  i've finshed my falll... more than ebverything has been risked 

every time i felt those eyes looking more and more away from me as im in front of him.. nearly beggin to hold your stare just for a second just do this little heartbreak kid would feel like  im anywhere near enough for for what was to be myu future... 

my futire is now blurry...

Well baby boy....  you'll always be my forever!! 

I love you! 

My first... my first for alot of things.

Lord help me. 

02/27/22 

02/27/22