I was raised in a very religious household. Everything was taboo, everything was forbidden. For 49 years, I was everything I was raised to be... reserved, polite, and completely repressed. My marriage was tepid because my ex-husband, Joeseph (58M) was the minister of our local church. It would be an understatement to say that he has some strict views on marriage, women and sex in particular. My duty was to be seen and not heard, produce children, and make sure the house was well kept. That isn't to say that I disagree with any of that. In fact, I gladly do all of this for my son now, but the best lesson my son has taught me is that; how you handle your woman behind closed doors is what makes you a man!

My son, David (34M) was being discharged from the Marines after he was wounded in combat. He was having a difficult time dealing with his recovery and so we invited him to return home so that I could help nurse him back to health. I was actually very relieved to have him at home because my marriage was in shambles and having someone to focus my time on helped take my mind off of it all. So, I devoted myself completely to his rehabilitation. I made it my existence to be at his beck and call, and for the first time in as long as I could remember, I was happy.  

Fast forward 7 months: I am cleaning my son's room like any other day and his PC turned on when I bumped the mouse. Every other time it has happened, the screen was on the desktop; however, this time his browser was still open.

I saw porn for the very first time in my life.

I was so completely awestruck by the image onscreen that it took me a moment to notice the title of the video: "roleplay son fucks mom in ass anal" (I still have it bookmarked and watch it often). A wave of numbness washes over me and my ears begin to ring... I could not believe what I was seeing and for a moment, I must have blacked out. Once I returned to my senses, I was suddenly aware of how aroused I had become. My vagina was pulsing and aching. I am not entirely sure, but I may have had an orgasm for the first time while I was stunned. My panties were oozing with a hot, creamy wetness I had never seen before. I don't know what possessed me to do this but, I instinctively reached down to get some of the juices from my panties so I could smell them. This time I was certain! The moment I inhaled that sweet, pungent odor... I gushed all over the floor, shaking in his gaming chair.

A short while later, I was in the shower cleaning myself and I was expecting to feel shame or embarresement... anything negative! "I am his mother!" I thought over and over, but everytime I said it, I got even more excited. The lustful thoughts that poured into my mind! The only thing I could seem to think about was my son and fantasizing about it being us in that video.

He is going to be home soon... and I have no idea how I am going to react when he gets here! It's too much to take in all at once. Something has changed in me. I can feel a buzz of electricity coarsing through me and I can't stop smiling!

What do I do with this new information?