Since I like to ascribe meaning from all things, even sexual, I've pondered my attraction to CNC fantasy and play, and how it can relate to my viewing of sadism as a philosophy.For me it's definitely not a power or control thing. Sex is obviously a component, but not solely. You could say it has to do with the mind, but I like to think of it as having to do with the soul. I’ve recently came across an interesting reinterpretation of an old concept, that being the Mark of Cain. The German writer Herman Hesse, drawing from old Gnostic interpretations, says that the Mark, contrary to traditional readings of scripture, is actually the representation of human knowledge. 

In this since the story of Cain (knowledge) and Able (obedience) can be interpreted as man taking the first strides to break free of the bounds set by the Creator and to assert his dominance. In this instant Cain kills Able, the symbol of God basically.

My formulation of my ravishment fantasy runs similarly. I’d like to find someone of true faith. That devotion would radiate off of them, both in beauty and in demeanor. Conservatively dressed of course. Virginal. My defiling of her would be me asserting the greater will over the servile nature of the flock, expressing the pure will Cain pointed for us to achieve. And one of the other tenets of the faith is that everyone is created in the image of God. In this sense I have shattered that image. Her soul is mine now, my to keep and devour.