|
Since I am now stuck in a hotel room, ( and pregnant I remind you*) I have nothing to do, not even work out. My daily life is based on planning and making phone calls concerning my gym, trying not to touch myself too much, a bit afraid I may overdo my masturbation and hurt the baby, and of course, waiting for the " French cuisine", (Don't remind me about those "food", if you can call those, ice-cold pancake, watered-down onion soup, disgusting spaghetti...)
The worst is, I am going to spend Halloween in this little room all alone.
So, since I have nothing better to do, let's open some cans of worms, shall we? Anne talks political.
Warning, following contain controversial topics including but not limited to religious belief, racism, feminism, legal system.
Am I a racist?
No, I do not hate any ethnic group, so I do not think so, of course, I enjoy some raceplay from time to time(most of the time*), but those are just sexual fantasy, a bit of personal kink in the back of my mind, and obviously, acted in the bedroom.
This question derived from other popular concerns: Is raceplay a form of racism?
Again, I do not agree. Yes, this form of sexual fantasy did "encourage" ethnic stereotypes, ( Black guys have bigger cocks, Asian small pp*), but it should only be a form of sexual enjoyment and fantasy. When are you going to draw the line, is the real topic of this question.
If you can't distinguish between fantasy and reality, or you have a really hard time controlling your libido and behavior outside your bedroom, or you step way too far. You are way too young to come here or you need a doctor, either way, you should not be here.
False feminist
Another interesting topic that got brought up time and time again in my email, is that people claim I am a false feminist because I agree on BDSM, and being the submissive role.
Firstly, I do not identify myself as a feminist, mostly because this name is no longer what it used to stand for. Feminism is the belief in full social, economic, and political equality for women. Equal, not better, women are not better than men( of course, if you are into the Femdom, good for you and always be yourself*)
Under this, shouldn't I have the right to make my own decision? Pick my role in the bedroom? Be a sexy sex slave that I wanted to be? I didn't hurt anyone " unless they agree". Isn't true equality give me the choice to be who I want to be?
Further study
Why didn't I why finish my study in law?
Simply say, I cannot stand with the situations that I'm no longer the solution but becoming part of the problem.
Don't worry, I have a lot to do for my life, a large goal waiting to be realized, and I have a lot of money and friends to help me get there.
Religious
This goes to my boy Watcher of Faith, thank you for writing to me daily for almost a year now, your unprofessional philosophy and flawed theology never ceased to amuse me.
I hope I can, but no, I simply can't find enough evidence to prove his existence, where is he when I got raped? Fine, maybe I deserve the punishment, but where was he when May got raped? Where is he when countless innocent children suffer? War, famine, pandemic, how many innocent people suffer, and where is he?
So, no, I can't get behind your religion.
Bimbo
I never understand the attractions of bimbos, no, not talking about those slightly slow girls, I am talking about those cute (mostly blonde*) girls with single-digit IQ, semi-brain dead, sharing their single brain cell with their sorority kind of girls. How do they look attracted to you? Isn't fucking a blow-up doll much easier?
Because they are easy to get? I bet they are, with their final brain cell working overtime, every little story you told must be fascinating to them.
Since we are going into a serious topic, let's talk about me.
Many of you may know, I am not entirely ok, just keep myself in the "OK-ish" zero, I feel sad and lonesome since I was young. I don't have suicidal thoughts, but I don't have much will to live either, if you tell me I am going to die, I would just get relieved.
I have self-destructive tendencies, I try my best to keep them in check, that is why I always think about protection, think about friends and family before I act, I also tend to be attracted by "Bad boys" like flies to feces ;).
I never fully understand why I have these... emotions, maybe once I find my biological parents I will know more, that said, I am not even sure if I should find them, or have the courage to face them.
I also miss love, actual love, of course, it is very hard for someone like myself, a total slut, to find true love, but I long for the connection, hopefully, I too able to find someone, the one.
|
