i've been trying not to let my sex addiction get the best of me, and i have been celibate for a long time, trying not even to masturbate and it's just not working anymore!

i saw this movie called Naked Fear about a girl who is working as a stripper, then she gets abducted and this guy dros her and when she wakes up she is in the middle of this natural landscape, with no town nearby or anything, and the guy is hunting her. he is trying to kill her, first with a crossbow, then with a gun.

of course, i want to be that girl. i like the crossbow okay, but not the gun.

actually, i'd really rather there be about 6 or 8 guys, and have them just have BB guns. they wouldn;t kill me they would just wound me until i could't run anymore.

when they catch me they lift me and hold my legs open, and take turns shhoting me right at my twat and spread ass. they can't be two close, at least a few feet away. they shoot at my titties and nipples too.

i've also been fantasizing about someone shoving a live hornet's nest, a small one but with lots of hornets, right up my pussy.

i haven't done anything... in fact i am still not touching myself at all. i am just obsessing over these thoughts.

i am working as a waitress at an all night diner. sometimes it is crowded and sometimes it is almost empty. another shit job which i don't care if i lose. i am almost 30 now, and my life is going nowhere. maybe i should've been more daring and become the whore i always wanted to be...

is it too late?