I just feel like my life is Collapsing. I don't know how much longer till I am kicked out and have to start my life over.

I am just not good at the things someone my age should be. I just never cared so now I have a life time of bad habits and I have pissed off my wife way to many times. So here I am laying here typing this bullshit for no one at 1233 when I have to be up in 4 hours. See not smart, if I end up on my own who knows what I am going to to. I bet it will be sad what ever it is for a while. Well the sleeping pills are kicking in so I am going to crash. I need friends and to figure out where I am headed at this very moment. Anyway if you read through all of this thank you. I am sorry I will add more and talk about stuff in more detail but I figured gotta start somewhere.