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I consider myself a sweet and romantic
boy but at the same time perverse and very sexual. Sex is an
important part of my life and an important part of good sex is an
unforced incompatibility of many aspects beyond sex. Even an
emotional bond between two people gives it that liquid fire that
makes it special and unique while remaining passionate, daring and
intense.
Love doesn't need to be a roller
coaster of emotions, but having a roller coaster is more fun than not
having one. I want to love because when I love my heart asks me to
give myself and that is much more beautiful than just playing what. I
do not ask anyone to love me but how cute is a man who enjoys to the
depths of himself the devotion of someone who gives him his love and
gets over-excited just with the idea of testing the limits of
that devotion.
How beautiful is that animal
magnetism that exudes true dominance, which, awakening something
primal in me, throws me in a desperate search for my phallic god.
However, I
am still a human being of needs, need for security and affection. The
kind of man I need finds a target value in my assets.
He values me because his standing
doesn't make sense without his little girl's kneeling.
It does not matter to him to command or
not to command and he is not one of those false alphas who takes
advantage of a situation of having the power to make the rules in
order to be a capricious child with relative freedom.
I scrutinize and I live in peace with
the fact that I'm under scrutiny too, in fact I want to be.
Therefore,
in addition to lubricating my mind, I take care of my body. I like to
exercise thinking of giving you a nice toy. It's not all chit-chat
and mental wanking. With a slight touch up, you really want all of
this to be your property.
You're going to have a helpful devotee,
a lewd whore, and a cute object in one little fag. I suppose that
from the age range I am looking for it is understood that I only like
to suck Daddy's cock, not from boys my age, not from "my
brother" or "my friend", but from DADDY.
Deep
down, I am still that teenage girl who dies of wanting to fall in
love and really give herself to someone really great who makes her
really feel small.
Nor do I want to be hypocritical in
material matters: I need my man to be financially well off and
resolute.
It is not
necessary to shout it from the rooftops and make it my personality,
but neither do I hide it, I do not think there is anything wrong. We
all give and receive something, including me.
If you think that nothing is worth
money, we may not be on the same page. I am not the only person in
the world who, except money, has many things of himself to give,
things that whoever values only money is unable even to see.
I live my sexuality in the closet
and it is necessary that you know this in advance no matter how much
or little it affects your interests. Of course, if we are going to be
together the matter changes. I will have to come out of the closet
because otherwise it would be unmanageable. It's not as bad or
repressive as it sounds, few people know who I really am. I
understand coming out of the closet as an external formality
(heterosexuals are not asked who they sleep with), internally I am
very at peace with who I am, without repressing myself, without guilt
or old shame from other times.
I am a person of doing and living,
I want to explore the world, to get out of the confinement of a small
life in a small setting with narrow horizons. I want to go where
nobody knows me and pretend that I am another person, one that nobody
knows. Maybe you even have a very clear idea of that new person
that you can help me create for you.
I am a yoga practitioner and adept
at the occult, I have a prolific inner life and sense of ritual and
spirit, I think I deserve someone who knows the difference between
seducing only with the body and with the body, mind and soul. To be
the passive soul of an active soul.
But I
also have a playful and external life, I also enjoy banalities and
pleasure and fun for just pleasure and fun. Sex is as important in my
life as love, the transcendent as important as the banal, the
spiritual as much as the flesh.
The reserved ways and customs mean an
insubstantial value to me, I do not seek fame or turn my life into a
reality show, so although I ignore the men who try to hide me, I also
enjoy the taste of a discreet life.
I am born
in the common people but I do not hide to have pretensions of a
higher level than I really have. I do not tolerate vulgarity or bad
manners, or wasting time. If you think I think like the "rich
bitch" I'm not, maybe it's because I know I deserve to be.
So I know very well that with all this
description I leave few doors open, but the truth is that I love and
enjoy the simple, austere and disciplined life that I already have
and precisely for that reason, I would only change it for a radically
better one at someone's feet.
Someone who, reading this, knows that
it is I who, perhaps even without knowing it, has been looking for.
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