I'm not going to lie - I love this new freedom, this lifestyle that I'd never even dreamed of in the past.

That last weekend of fun was amazing. The couple that invited me to play have asked if I'd join them on a regular basis (apparently his wife loves the way I teased her and drove her wild with fingers and tongue - and he loved swapping between my cunt and hers to pound us both out). And the night with the boys at the stag party was both wicked, flattering and sizzlingly sexy to be their centre of attention for so many hours. And their staying power... Like Duracell bunnies they just went on and on, taking turns. Thinking that a cute 20 year old boy took my anal virginity is both embarrassingly funny and beautifully sexy. It gives me shivers just thinking about how it felt as he gently slid inside me alongside his bigger older brother deeply embedded in my cunt.

But I'm frustrated by local COVID restrictions, by necessary family constraints with the k**s home for the summer holidays and husband Dave working (mostly) at home.

My biggest frustration? Not so long ago, Dave 'persuaded' me to try some weird stuff. Edgy, fetish things. I know that Dave took pics of those times, perhaps even short videos. But nobody - neither Agnes nor I nor anyone else in the forums - has found those yet.

I want to - no, I NEED to - take it further, to get to stage 3 in my revenge list (see first blog post). I NEED the justification to satisfy my cravings to take my sexual exploration to new heights (lows?). No holds barred. Try anything (at least once). I'm CRAVING that sexual release.

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A HINT for the fabulous people helping me to track down the pics and vids: These edgier things that I'm referring to (and cannot elaborate on here - just read between the lines above*) are things you won't find on xHamster, Image.Fap, or any of the other mainstream places; try Motherless or some of the online nooks and crannies that get less attention and are more liberal in their admin... You might even find them in your private galleries if you're into those sorts of things.

*If you knew Willow and Jon quite well (aka ShyUKwife, XposeHerToMe), you might understand the things I'm hinting about.

In the meantime, I'm making plans to sneak away 'with the girls' again for more fun, and resisting the urge to jill-off so much at recent memories (it's making me sore)!

Jo x