After my hands-on experience with other men's cum ended, and I got married for good, my cum fantasies just got stronger. I started doing what a lot of cumsucker-wanna-be's do: eating my cum, freezing my cum, saving up my cum. Basically going crazy for cum now that I had no chance of getting anyone else's fresh, hot cum. A gay man would say I was an idiot, that I should just go out and find a willing dick or two, or three. 

But I don't cheat, and I am married to a woman, so all my dick desires go into porn watching and my weird, but not that unusual, cum rituals. So I save up cum and play with it, eat my own, make pics and movies of it and post them here, and have heated sex chat with other men who understand.