As is the norm, I got high when I woke this morning and have been busy since. It is now midnight and I just got really high. 

I can be fair to moderately high and accomplish everything I wanted for the day and more. But if I load the spoon, inevitably I will get so high that the only thing I want to do is please everyone strong me while abasing myself in the weirdest and most uncomfortable ways. I have never acted out my perversely sick fantasies in front of anyone, or told anyone about them. I stay away from everyone while shoving objects too big up my ass and tie myself up in awkward positions that challenge me try to get lose before someone catches me in these perverse positions.

If I only had the balls to find a person with enough character and charisma to make me submit......

Because at heart I am only a submissive little slut that just wants to please some one