My birth name is Joe.

I want to state that I love sex with women and am married nearly fifty years.

Sexually, my years up to age 14 were a gay wonderland with many friends and adult guides at some points. I love gay sex and am probably more thrilled by a room full of cocks than naked women. But I wanted children and a stable relationship without other partners so I found a girl from that type of family and married her. I forgot about gay sex and never let the thought of it arouse me. I even joined her mainstream religion to fit in. I never realized 25+% of the church were repressed, total sex freaks. But that history is another set of blog posts about some really amazing sex experiences.

I've been very ill for the last five years recovering from a stroke but I fought hard every day to get back to "normal". I'm doing amazingly well now and getting quite fit. In March, I noticed a young housewife who walks her dog past the house everyday was looking at me differently, checking me out. I realized I was still sexually attractive. It made my nipples incredibly hard and a feeling like electricity shot from my nipples to everything below the waist. It made me involuntarily stand up straighter. I was wearing a tight T-Shirt and had been sweating so just like a wet t-shirt contest the nipples burst into prominence and I gasped as the feeling took my breath away. Her eyes shot open at the spectacle. Then I doubled over and she became concerned and asked if I was okay. I say “I’ll be fine. I just stood up too fast.” I looked up and her face was very flushed as she said her ‘goodbye’ and continued the dog’s walk.

I went back inside and stripped off to get in the shower and as I pulled the t-shirt up over my nipples the feeling was like nothing I’ve ever felt before. I stood there looking in the mirror at how swollen my nipples were and began to rub them very gently. The feeling was overpowering and my anus ached, the memories of some beautiful fucks came flooding through my mind. I felt amazingly feminine. Like I did when I crossed dressed as a little boy but with an intensity that had never passed through me. And the memories of the fucking I enjoyed with the other boys I played with made my ass long for a cock again.
After I got in the shower I rubbed my asshole and tried to put a finger in there but my hemorrhoids were badly removed some years ago and my poor ass was left terribly tight so it was too painful and soured the mood. This tight asshole situation has been a drag for decades and a real health problem. But the urge just got stronger as the days passed and I began to work a finger in my ass every time I put a suppository up my ass before I took a shit. Then it was two fingers.

So tonight was a real breakthrough. Three weeks ago I stopped at the Adult Toy store and bought a nice little dildo.  When I got in the shower tonight I took the new dildo with me and got the tip worked into my ass I just let my hole get used to it and after a minute it began to ease comfortably in…all the way …Then I began to fuck it in and out with increasing rhythm and power. I was ass fucking. And how. Of course it feels like I have a dildo up my ass and a cock the same size will be VERY different but I’m ready to move on to a real one. I’ll let everyone know how it goes.