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My First Blog: An Introduction to Me.
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I've had a pee fetish for a very, VERY long time, the result of a wonderful sequence of moments which has become a part of my entire psyche. The memories of those distant events are ingrained on my brain as if applied by some branding iron and have been the springboard to an encyclopaedia of fantasies that have evolved and multiplied as I have grown.
A few years later I had a brief foray into cross dressing, taking great delight in the sensation of sliding a pair of stockings up my thighs, of seeing my cock clad in a pair of lace panties and wearing a plain nylon slip. This initial interest didn't last.
However, by then, I had already developed an obsession with pornography and went to great lengths to get any magazine or picture I could lay my hands on and masturbate for hours revelling in my prize.
Porn is a wonderful universe and has been a great friend to me over the years. My relationships with women have all been disasters, don't know why, but after bouts of depression porn has always been there to help pick me back up like and old friend holding out a hand. The concept of wanting to share yourself with others through photography or video has, to me, elevated porn to an art form and many of the participants to great artists, their works always welcoming you into a world full of erotic invention and possibility; a flawless world that seems to have been constructed just for you in that moment while you indulge in the exquisite ecstasy of masturbation.
As the years have ticked over I have realised a great deal about myself. In terms of attraction I don't seem to have a physical 'type'. I find people of all shapes, races and sizes, from teens to grannies full of erotic potential. The secret for me is 'attitude' and 'openness'. The right projection of sexual interest and intent is key to how I respond sexually to a situation and it can come from anybody. I love porn where the participants are having a great time and thoroughly enjoying the moment. Conversely, I hate all kinds of oppression and violence in sex and porn as well as life in general.
A development in recent years has been my renewed interest in cross dressing. This has helped nurture fantasies I have had for some time about sucking cock. I have always been somewhat obsessed with oral sex but it has only been in recent years that the thought of sucking lots of cocks and slurping on their creamy cum and tasting their warm pee has become a mini obsession. Drinking piss and burying my tongue between the legs of women will probably always be top of my sexual to-do list but cocks now play a significant role in my fantasies. I find that I am never interested in what a cock is attached to, the rest of the male body, the owner of the member. Sorry, guys. For me it is just the cock and the liquids that issue forth from it. I also dream of filling the willing mouths of others with my own piss and cum; I'm an egalitarian sort of chap. Dressing up allows me to fantasise about being on my knees servicing as many cocks and pussies as I can whether indoors, outdoors, in a car park, an office, public toilet, woodland or wherever; all would be welcome to join in. Dreaming of these fantasies, assisted by porn, I can now don some nice underwear, apply a wig and makeup, perhaps, and even put on a nice dress and masturbate while thinking about being the female participant in a pornographic shoot, slurping down a man's, woman's or transexual's bodily fluids, it being filmed and photographed and freely available for others to enjoy. This all sounds very sub but oddly the full sissy lifestyle is not for me. I prefer scenarios where no single participant is subordinate or dominant over another and where all boundaries are observed. Consent, I have found, is a great turn on in itself and I genuinely love receiving as well as giving. I would really love to meet a couple (M+F) who are orally bi and into unhurried piss sex, oral sex, fucking and cum swallowing. Not much to ask, but hey, you never know…
From a cross dressing point of view I am primarily interested in the clothes and how they feel against my skin and I am also intrigued by the concept of not being 'me' for a while, of playing a part that most people who know me would not recognise. Getting all dolled up also lets me take pictures of myself having fun while keeping some semblance of anonymity. I haven't taken any pictures for a while but I would love to produce many more. I would like to try out more interesting concepts and execute existing ones better. I have a head stuffed full of ideas, some of which would be difficult to do while trying to position or hold a camera so I need to enlist the help of a friend of mine who knows me sexually better than anyone else. Hopefully, when Lockdown eases, he will be able to help me in my photographic exploits and I will be back sharing my ideas with the great community on Imagefap.
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Posted on : Mar 12, 2021
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