A limp dicked cuckold

My wife divorced me in the late 90:s. We had been married for seven years, and in this time I had not been able to fuck her properly even once. A couple of times I managed to get my little penis half erect, but I would cum as soon as it even touched my wife's pussy. My failures in bed had nothing to do with her being ugly or so, no she was really beautiful and sexy. Men would always look at her and I knew they all wanted to fuck her.

After our first year my wife took a lover, and as time went by she had even more lovers. My wife loved to party and go out dancing, mostly without me. I spent many nights, and sometimes weekends, alone at home while she was out having fun with others. I never complained or asked her what she had been doing while she was out. I think I only was happy that a desirable woman like Her accepted an impotent failure like me. It felt right that I should not deny her the fun and pleasure she deserved! More and more I became like a housewife, doing all the household work while she enjoyed herself with friends. I was the only one wearing an apron!

At this time I had never heard of the word cuckold, and if I had I would not have understood what it meant. Many years later I understood that what I had been all through the marriage was a cuckold. I was married to a hotwife, and I never had normal sex. In the first year I was dumb enough to actually believe that my wife was content with what I had to offer… Pussy licking! Of course reality caught up with me, and even I realized that my wife met men… Men that could fuck a woman! It wasn’t really a shock to me, but felt only natural. I even liked to be at home, keeping our apartment clean and tidy while she had her adventures.

The only sex I had was when I licked my wife's pussy. That would mostly happen when she came home late at night, often horny and a little drunk. She could be very rough with me those times, and she demanded that I would give her an orgasm. A few times she slapped my face and then sat down her ass and pussy over it. I just loved licking my wife's cunt! Sometimes there was a different taste. At that time I was too dumb to actually understand, but now I’m quite certain. I licked male cum from my wife’s cunt!!!  Apart from this I sometimes masturbated when I was home alone. Usually I would put on her nylons and a pair of her panties and then rub my little penis. These were the first times I wore something female and I loved it!

I actually loved living as my wife’s cuckold. It was so exciting to fantasize about my wife as I did my chores at home. Was someone fucking her right now? Was she sucking cock right now? And then the nights when she returned home. If I was lucky, she would let me lick her cunt!!! My wife liked our arrangement for some years, but in the end she wanted to settle down with a real Man. When she had found one, she just divorced me. As usual I didn't put up a fight, and I just accepted her terms. To be honest I knew that only I was to blame for the failed marriage. Any normal man would at least have had great sex with a beautiful and sexy woman like my wife, but not me. She demanded that she should keep the apartment, and even if I knew it would be tough for me I accepted it. I would have to move to a much smaller apartment, which was all I could afford.

The first year after the divorce I actually cleaned her (previously our) apartment every second week. I helped her with everything she asked for and it felt natural to still obey her. There was one especially wonderful moment when I had spent my free weekend cleaning her apartment. As a reward I got to lick her pussy while she told me how hot and sexy her Man is compared to me. That was the most wonderful evening I had experienced in a long time. Tasting her spicy cunt and at the same time hear about her Men… I guess I can never get enough of humiliation from my ex-wife! We are friends even today...

A webcam faggot

The first thing I did after getting a small apartment of my own was to buy high heels, dresses, jewelry, perfume, makeup, false tits and a wig. I also shaved my legs and I spent much time in the tanning salon. As soon as I got a chance I dressed up at home. As a married man I had only been able to try out my wife’s panties, nylons and makeup. For instance her high heels were a little too small for me. Now on the other hand I could go all the way. I put on sexy clothes, high heels and lots of makeup. When I looked at myself in the mirror I loved it. This was me! I bought a digital camera and started to take photos of myself. I didn't dare to go out fully dressed, but I wanted to display my new feminine person. This was still in the late 90:s and Internet was new to me. I soon found places though where you could publish sissy photos, and I started to put up my pics in public. I also decided to call myself sabina.

The response I got was more than exciting. Men from all over the world looked at my photos and I got many descriptions on how they jerked off while looking at me. That only triggered me to take more photos and publish them... I wanted to be a sissy porn star! I soon found geocities and started my own website there. Then I got even more fans and followers. I would say that half of my followers were other sissies. The other half was men, and nearly every one of them wanted to fuck me.

My photos were downloaded, copied and reposted. Some sissies even posted my photos and pretended they were their photos. Maybe I should have said something, but I was just a vain transvestite and I loved that others out there wanted to be me (or at least look like me). When I found out that one of my photos had been used on the cover of a sissy porn magazine without asking me, I didn’t complain. One of my secret dreams had been to become a sissy porn star, and now I felt more like a porn star than I had ever felt before!  My slim sissy body obviously didn't make my ex-wife horny, but thousands of men got hardons while looking at it!!!

I joined some online gay forums and I soon got in contact with men that wanted to meet me. I was mostly interested in dominant masculine men, and those were not hard to find. Of course many of them were only talking. They loved to write in the chat how they would fuck me and sometimes spank me. To be honest I loved to chat with these men myself, but it was just temporary entertainment for both them and me. There were also many men that wanted to get their cocks inside me for real. I arranged to meet with some of them in their homes. The first few I met I served with blowjobs. What I really loved was that they all spanked me. I just loved when a strong Man put me over his knees and smacked my smooth buttocks. I loved how their strong hands went into my panties and played with my little sissy dick. I loved how they fingered my asshole! I wanted more of this and I started to invite men to my home as well. I sucked cock and I spread my legs so they could fuck my sissy ass. I knew that my ex-wife had suspected I'm a faggot, but now I knew for sure that I was one!

When I didn't meet men in real life, I met them on yahoo messenger. I would sit in front of my webcam and display myself. The men could see me but I could not see them, except for some that showed only their cocks. I would play with my soft little sissy dick or dildo fuck myself, moaning like the horny pansy I was. They would call me faggot, whore and other dirty words and they would give me orders that I obeyed. Of course all the men jerked off and had orgasms while looking at me. I would tell them I wish they would have shot their loads all over my whorish sissy face. Many of them would cum at least twice during my webcam sessions.

One time I visited a man that had put up his webcam in front of a chair. He told me that he would broadcast while I gave him a blowjob. He had contacted lots of men and pairs that wanted to see sissy whore sabina in action. Being the vain pansy I am I was really flattered by the idea that a man arranged this so that more people could look at me. At least 30 people, all unknown to me, would be able to see me sucking cock. It was so exciting to look into the camera while my mouth was full of cock. I couldn't see anyone, but I knew they could all see me. After the man had shot his cum all over my face, I had to look into the camera with sperm running down my face. I told the viewers how much I love to suck cock and that I hoped they had enjoyed looking at sissy faggot sabina. Before closing the webcam, the man put me over his knee and spanked my sissy ass. I really loved doing this, and even today I wonder if any of the viewers recorded the session. Maybe it is out there somewhere. That really would make me feel like a porn star!

A transvestite whore

Since I exposed myself on the net so much I was contacted by more and more men that wanted to fuck me. Finally I was also contacted by pimps. The thought of making money while having sex had already been in my mind ever since I started my transvestite life, so I was absolutely interested. This was in 2001 and I was unemployed, so it was very much about money as well. Most of the pimps lived too far away from me though, so I really didn't see how we would make it work. There was one man that lived closer and he said he had a long list of clients that like to fuck sissies. Most of his clients were business men, and that meant men that are willing to spend money. He would make all the arrangements and we should split the profits 50/50. I thought it was worth a try, so I accepted his terms. When it was time to serve the first customer my new pimp said I had to travel to Amsterdam and check in to a hotel (expenses would be paid to me later). I was not so happy about this so I asked my pimp for a new client, closer to where I live. He replied that a whore should let the pimp do the thinking. If I didn't accept that, he would cut me off and he would find a new sissy whore. I replied that I absolutely agreed with him, but also begged for one more chance. Well, he dumped me... Of course!

I still wonder what would have happened if I hadn't chickened out and gone to Amsterdam and served that business man. I have had many fantasies about that ;-). Anyway the thought of making money as a prostitute was still there. A week later when a man "picked me up" in a gay chat forum, I told him he could have me if he paid. He didn't like it at first, but later he said he would agree if I was willing to lower the price. I agreed to half of what I had told him at first. That evening I sucked his cock and then he fucked me. Before leaving he stuffed the money between my ass cheeks. I didn't make much money, but now I had at least made my debut as a transvestite whore!

My luck turned around a little when a man on the forum offered money for my ass, even without me asking for it. Of course I accepted and I invited him to my home. He was an older man, but I loved the way he looked. He was obviously wealthy, well dressed, smelled nice and it was easy to see that he was used to being in charge. Just the kind of dominant Man I love to serve!!!

After using my body for about two hours, he paid me exactly what we had agreed upon. He became my first regular customer and for the next year he would come and fuck me every second Friday.

There was also a second man, one of many that visited my website. On the site I had hinted that I was available for money, and this man was prepared to pay. He was very much into dominating sissies and faggots and I told him that I would let him do that... He became my second regular, and I must say I loved his visits. He always spanked me before fucking me, and to be honest I would have let him do it for free!

There were others paying for my mouth and ass also, but none of them regular. I was in no way a full time whore, and I didn't get anyway near rich. Still I loved doing what I did, and I made enough to pay for all the clothes, heels, jewelry, perfume and sex toys a sissy needs! Well, I finally got a "normal" job and I didn't need to sell my body like I had done before. I kept on whoring for my regulars for some more months, but I never took on new clients. I didn't stop seeing men, but now it was maybe once per month.

I kept on living my normal life, still being a sissy in the weekends. I met men, but not as often as before. Then in 2009 I once again became unemployed. I didn't have my old website anymore, but these days I posted my stuff on flickr. I had nearly 10000 followers there. Countless men contacted me about sex, but I had mostly just ignored it. Now I was back in the situation I had in 2001. I didn't have a job, and at the same time there were so many men that wanted to fuck me. Of course I started to think about whoring again! Ok, I was a little older now. Ok, since 2001 so many new young and sexy sissies has appeared. Still I knew that there were enough men out there that liked to use mature sissy faggots like me. I had to try it again!

As a prostitute I wasn't as successful as I was the last time, but I had some good moments. Some of the men that had paid for my ass some years ago came back and fucked me again. Since I now was older, none of them paid as much this time. I was still happy for whatever a man would spend on me. It was better than nothing and I liked the sex!

The odd thing is that I actually made most money as a Domina. I am after all extremely submissive and I just love when strong masculine Men use and abuse me. I love when they spank me! I love when they force me to suck their cocks! (Not that they would have to force me really ;-) ) I love when they fuck my sissy ass!!!

There were actually quite a few of my followers on flickr that adored me like a Goddess. One little man (yes he is small) that didn't live very far from me dreamed of spending time with me. I agreed to meet him in a hotel. He had to pay for it all, and he happily accepted that. We met in the hotel. At first we had dinner at his expense, and then I was still dressed as a male. One hour later I had dressed up and he came to my room. He brought champagne and money. I made him take photos of me (some visible on flickr). Then he spent the next few hours worshiping me. I had him sucking and licking each and every one of my toes. He kissed and licked my feet very carefully. I pressed his head into my crotch and rubbed my sissy dick against his face. I ordered him to kiss my ass. He was my slave and I finally gave him a good spanking. He adored me!!!

I am older now and I have a job, so I don't need to sell my body anymore. If I had been much younger I wouldn't hesitate to keep on whoring though. To be honest I still get horny when I think of all those men that used and abused me. Many sissies wouldn't dream of charging for sex, but I have no problem with that. Why should there be any difference between a female whore and a sissy whore? Just because you're a sissy faggot, are you morally better? I'm a sissy faggot and I'm not better!!!

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