On a whim, fired a txt message to an old lover wishing her a Merry Christmas, got a reply and exchanged a couple more. She sent one at 11:45 PM, had just gone to bed so didn't see it until 3:30, wrote a reply about 7:30 and hit send wonder if I'll hear from her again.

Don't care if it goes nowhere, just wanted to wish her a good Christmas, since I have terminal cancer and this might be my last Christmas, could be the final opportunity to do that. Always thought that fate would through us back together for one last spin of the wheel at some point, but that's not going to happen now.

Remember the fist time I saw her at High School, not sure it was love at first sight, but I quickly fell for her spell, she was the first girl I made love with, We got engaged, then I lost my way, and started to see someone else, her mother busted me, and I was given the ultimatum "her or me", said I couldn't make that call, so she did. We still saw each other from time to time.

She met a workmate of mine and they hooked up and got married, I did the same with the girl that I cheated on her with. The years sped by, we had kids and grew old, then in June last year, her man died of cancer- I didn't know that, so in July, just before I started Chemo, I tracked down an email address and just flicked her an email- she must have thought that I was hitting on her because her man had died, but I really didn't know.