It's sad in a way that I can take a blank piece of paper, canvas, computer or a wall even and do whatever artwork I want on it. Yet you ask me to write down all the thoughts I have in my head as a story, well that will not go well. When I am trying express those thoughts in words to some one else they never seem to come out the right way because my mind tries to races from one thought to another so quick that I confuse even myself.What I am really wanting to say some times comes out in a confusing way. I have all these fantasies, dreams, ideas trapped in my head because I never can get them to come out right.

With that said, I hope you better understand if you talk to me why I may sound a little weird or confused. This is one reason why even at my age I do not do well in real relationships. When I am upset or angry I make no senss because too many thoughts trying to come out at the same time.