For the year 2020, I pledged to have less than 12 orgasms.  I feel that for a submissive, service oriented slave orgasms are selfish pleasures that waste the energy I should be using to please and server others.  My ultimate goal is to make it an entire calendar year without a single orgasm.  I drain myself on the 1st of every month (Feb 1, Mar 1, Apr 1, May 1, June 1, July 1, Aug 1, Sep 1, and Oct 1).  Early on during my self denial work, I would get excited with anticipation as the first of the month got closer.  I would frequently find my little slave cock dripping pre-cum.  I do enjoy this dripping as it reminds me of my commitment to serving and pleasing others.  Beginning with my July 1 draining I started to notice a new feeling of remorse and even a little depression for a couple of days after my release.  I attribute this to my mind and body learning to not desire it's own pleasure in favor of serving and pleasuring others.  Do any other subs or slaves feel this way after a release?  I am very proud to have made it this far into 2020 and still be adhereing to my schedule.  I think it says a lot about my self-discipline and obedience.  Also, the fact that I am actually starting to not desire and anticipate the draining on the first of every month.  Shows that my orgasm control training is really working.  I am hoping to make 2021 orgasm free.  

How many of you have made it through an entire year without an orgasm?  How did you feel?  What did it change in you?

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