Days like I am having today, as painful as they are and as miserable as I feel make me appreciate my MommyWife all that much more.

 The pain I experience during rheumatic 'flare-up' incidents is from the bones at the top of my skull and all the way down to the joints in my toes. It's so bad even breathing hurts, and quite a bit.

 Of course this also really challenges me regading mobility, not only do the joints in my hips, legs and back hurt, they don't work properly especially during flare-up times.

 Imagine taking a step and having your knee almost break-backward, that's just one of the fun little tricks I have to work around.

 The pain is so bad it leaves me shaking--I do have prescription painkillers, but I hate them, the side effects are worse (for me) than what they're supposed to address.

 

 Mommy makes all the difference. Just a warm, supportive hug helps more than I can say--and I wouldn't get that in some care facility.

 Being back to breastfeeding, especially days like today, is a huge benefit as it's easy on the stomach and while I'm nursing, the pain and everything rheumatic doesn't bother me. Mommy noticed this early on after she first put me back to breastfeedings, and gives me 'comfort nursings' when the pain is really bad whether it's time for a feeding or not.

 

 I should mention, as some might ask that Mommy is part-owner of a homecare supply business as well as a rental property management company. This is why she's able to stay home and be with me as she can handle almost everything business-wise from home. On the occasions she cannot, she takes me with her as she doesn't feel it's safe for me to be alone.

 I have to agree with her on that, because when I am alone these days, it's worrying and makes me anxious because I am quite aware of my condition and what can happen.

 I do what I can to help Mommy with her businesses, and am listed genuinely as 'flexible part-time', as there's my condition and that my efforts are not needed on a predictably regular basis, so I am sort-of 'on-call', in a manner of speaking. 

 

 I am still alive because of Mommy's love and care, she's my best ally in fighting to keep what quality-of-life I can while my condition works to steal it away. Because of her, I have had improvements in my health, and I sleep better, which is important as until she took me in to her life, I never slept well at all especially when my health started seriously into the downturn, which of course made things worse. 

 

 I owe her my life, in every genuine way.

 She not only saved it, she has made it better and fights to keep it as good as can be had.